Transmitted the Reiki
I am feeling much more calm, less anxious and nervous about going to Ethiopia. I sent the Universal Love two times today, and I feel really good now.
There is no greater ambition for me, than to feel the Ocean of Love thundering through my heart, mind, and hands. From this highest ambition, comes the natural unfoldment of my life.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Day 113, 114
Still communicating the Universal Life Force Energy
I am like the little train that could...."I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...." Lately there has been a lot of preparing, alot of calming myself down. I have been stressed in the planning and anticipation of our trip. I recorded two more audios to take with us to Ethiopia, and I am wanting to buy several books.
I am moving right along. 4,380 steps/days. I am 114 in. Barely 10 yards!
I am like the little train that could...."I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...." Lately there has been a lot of preparing, alot of calming myself down. I have been stressed in the planning and anticipation of our trip. I recorded two more audios to take with us to Ethiopia, and I am wanting to buy several books.
I am moving right along. 4,380 steps/days. I am 114 in. Barely 10 yards!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Day 112
I sent the Love today
My hands, fingers, and whole body is completely sore and numb from a weekend of grouting the tiles on our basement floor. I spent all day yesterday grouting, and then all day today scrubbing and scraping off the crust and residue left over. Boy, do I have respect for people who tile for a living. I did take a break and did my Love-Sending thing. It was really great, and I feel great - but very tired.
My hands, fingers, and whole body is completely sore and numb from a weekend of grouting the tiles on our basement floor. I spent all day yesterday grouting, and then all day today scrubbing and scraping off the crust and residue left over. Boy, do I have respect for people who tile for a living. I did take a break and did my Love-Sending thing. It was really great, and I feel great - but very tired.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Day 111
I sent the Love for an 18 minute session
I am deeply honored and grateful to have just sent the Love/Reiki/Energy through my hands for the healing benefit of all contained in this Exchange. I feel a lot going on in me, a lot of transformations happening on the inner levels of my mind and body. Some of it feels good, and some of it feels really weird.
A lifetime of fear
Does not disappear in 111 days. I know, I would like to say that after 111 days of sending the Love, that all my fear is gone, and that I am perfectly happy all the time. But in reality, sending the Winds of Divine Love through my mind and body stirs up a lot of fear, so it can be cleared out. I have always been afraid, ever since I was a little body, being terrorized by the grownups and others in my life. I put a lot of pictures of myself as a little boy in the pages of my book, and all this Love is flowing to him in all those moments of my life. This is causing alot of goop to be pushed around in me. I feel an energy blockage in the deep muscles of my right buttock, right up in there next to the cradle of my spine. I keep walking and keep working, and I got another adjustment the other day, which helped a lot. This, however, is what I believe about fear:
One tiny drop of Love inside the radiance of the human heart, is more powerful, more awe-inspiring, than all the fear in the world combined. I believe that this Energy of Pure, Unconditional, Universal Love is intelligent, and knows exactly what I need and what I am able to endure at a given time. My fear is healing, transmuting, transforming into Love more and more. I just need to look at it in the face, and then the Love can heal it.
Major fear:
I am afraid of being a white dad to an African American girl. This has been really big, unspoken fear that is filling up like a water balloon inside me. What exactly am I afraid of? That I won't be a good dad. That I won't know what to do, how to be, what to say. Afraid of what society will think. Afraid of it all. I grew up in the streets of Colorado Springs, and had racism pounded with a dull sledgehammer daily. I unconditionally Love my childhood, and I judge nothing, yet the wounds of racism are still in my heart. I once went to a "healing the hurts of racism" weekend workshop with a friend of mine, and it was a lot of sharing and crying and healing. It was absolutely amazing. I still remember that weekend. I left that feeling such a deep bond with African Americans, a deep Love for them. So I have grown and healed a lot. Nobody is born racist. We are born as Pure Love - and all the ugliness and pain are pounded into us by a very dysfunctional world. Even though I am scared, I believe that I will be a good dad, that I will do the very best I can, that my Love will rain down upon her mind and heart in waves upon waves of bliss and joy. I am not my past. I am not what people told me to be. I am not the ugliness I grew up in. I am not ignorance. I am Love.
I am the Love that needs no race, no name, no body to be.
I am the Love that needs no "personal story" to be. I am the Love that exists in the perpetual, eternal Now moment - the Now that encompasses all moments of time in compassion.
I am Love beyond all culture, nationality, religion, dogma, idea, or form. In this Love I am free.
And it is this Love, this Universal Love that Loves every person of every culture with unconditional intensity - that I have been sending to my little girl in Ethiopia these past months. It is this Love that will flood through me the first moment I hold her in my arms.
And yet, I am still scared. And it is okay to be scared. I still Love myself.
I am deeply honored and grateful to have just sent the Love/Reiki/Energy through my hands for the healing benefit of all contained in this Exchange. I feel a lot going on in me, a lot of transformations happening on the inner levels of my mind and body. Some of it feels good, and some of it feels really weird.
A lifetime of fear
Does not disappear in 111 days. I know, I would like to say that after 111 days of sending the Love, that all my fear is gone, and that I am perfectly happy all the time. But in reality, sending the Winds of Divine Love through my mind and body stirs up a lot of fear, so it can be cleared out. I have always been afraid, ever since I was a little body, being terrorized by the grownups and others in my life. I put a lot of pictures of myself as a little boy in the pages of my book, and all this Love is flowing to him in all those moments of my life. This is causing alot of goop to be pushed around in me. I feel an energy blockage in the deep muscles of my right buttock, right up in there next to the cradle of my spine. I keep walking and keep working, and I got another adjustment the other day, which helped a lot. This, however, is what I believe about fear:
One tiny drop of Love inside the radiance of the human heart, is more powerful, more awe-inspiring, than all the fear in the world combined. I believe that this Energy of Pure, Unconditional, Universal Love is intelligent, and knows exactly what I need and what I am able to endure at a given time. My fear is healing, transmuting, transforming into Love more and more. I just need to look at it in the face, and then the Love can heal it.
Major fear:
I am afraid of being a white dad to an African American girl. This has been really big, unspoken fear that is filling up like a water balloon inside me. What exactly am I afraid of? That I won't be a good dad. That I won't know what to do, how to be, what to say. Afraid of what society will think. Afraid of it all. I grew up in the streets of Colorado Springs, and had racism pounded with a dull sledgehammer daily. I unconditionally Love my childhood, and I judge nothing, yet the wounds of racism are still in my heart. I once went to a "healing the hurts of racism" weekend workshop with a friend of mine, and it was a lot of sharing and crying and healing. It was absolutely amazing. I still remember that weekend. I left that feeling such a deep bond with African Americans, a deep Love for them. So I have grown and healed a lot. Nobody is born racist. We are born as Pure Love - and all the ugliness and pain are pounded into us by a very dysfunctional world. Even though I am scared, I believe that I will be a good dad, that I will do the very best I can, that my Love will rain down upon her mind and heart in waves upon waves of bliss and joy. I am not my past. I am not what people told me to be. I am not the ugliness I grew up in. I am not ignorance. I am Love.
I am the Love that needs no race, no name, no body to be.
I am the Love that needs no "personal story" to be. I am the Love that exists in the perpetual, eternal Now moment - the Now that encompasses all moments of time in compassion.
I am Love beyond all culture, nationality, religion, dogma, idea, or form. In this Love I am free.
And it is this Love, this Universal Love that Loves every person of every culture with unconditional intensity - that I have been sending to my little girl in Ethiopia these past months. It is this Love that will flood through me the first moment I hold her in my arms.
And yet, I am still scared. And it is okay to be scared. I still Love myself.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Day 110
Communicated the Universal, Healing Life Force Energy this morning
I am happy to be on this continuous journey of sending unconditional Love every day. I have a lot of ideas and inspirations that come to me while I am sending the Love, but when it comes time to blog, my mind goes blank. I really feel like my mind is empty. Right now, I am waiting for a pizza to be delivered. We have a long weekend ahead of us, a good one. This weekend, and the next, will be the last two weekends before we go to Ethiopia.
Today, I recorded "48 Descending Questions of Universal Love" which is a nice, relaxing audio. I am very happy with it. I think I will offer it as a free gift to all my twitter friends. May every human being on this planet awaken to the infinite Love within them. May we all forgive ourselves and each other - once and for all - may wee see the glorious truth of Love in each other.
I am happy to be on this continuous journey of sending unconditional Love every day. I have a lot of ideas and inspirations that come to me while I am sending the Love, but when it comes time to blog, my mind goes blank. I really feel like my mind is empty. Right now, I am waiting for a pizza to be delivered. We have a long weekend ahead of us, a good one. This weekend, and the next, will be the last two weekends before we go to Ethiopia.
Today, I recorded "48 Descending Questions of Universal Love" which is a nice, relaxing audio. I am very happy with it. I think I will offer it as a free gift to all my twitter friends. May every human being on this planet awaken to the infinite Love within them. May we all forgive ourselves and each other - once and for all - may wee see the glorious truth of Love in each other.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Day 109
"Sent" the Love from within the Ocean of Love
Love is Energy is Joy is Peace is Bliss is Nirvana is..... It is all the same. I deeply pray for an awakening of compassion in my heart.
I am willing to Love myself unconditionally, and to Love other people unconditionally. I am willing to merge with transcendent Joy.
Willingness is all it takes for the miracle to occur.
Through the tiny crack of the willing heart, the Ocean of Grace can flood forth.
Love is Energy is Joy is Peace is Bliss is Nirvana is..... It is all the same. I deeply pray for an awakening of compassion in my heart.
I am willing to Love myself unconditionally, and to Love other people unconditionally. I am willing to merge with transcendent Joy.
Willingness is all it takes for the miracle to occur.
Through the tiny crack of the willing heart, the Ocean of Grace can flood forth.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
107 & 108 (Tues and Wedn)
Feeling good - Transmitted the Reiki Energy yesterday and today
I have had a very busy, good, and abundant week. I have been regular in sending the Reiki. Both days. I just put Sky to bed, he seems to be doing much better, not much of the emotional upheavals we have seen lately. Andrew (who now wants to be called Prasad - his middle name) has been having really fantastic days lately. I am very proud of him. I have been nervous and anxious lately about traveling to Ethiopia - I haven't been staying in the moment - but today it feels like I got back to the present moment. As long as I stay centered in the presence of Now, anxiety is impossible. In fact, as Eckhart Tolle would say, anxiety is only found in the past and future, and once we go into the NOW, all anxiety is replaced with an exquisite stillness. Plus, a healthy dose of B vitamins and feeling Universal Love flow through my hands - that helps too!!!
In two weeks and one day - we take off half way around the world - to bring home our fifth child (our third international child!) Wow.....
I have had a very busy, good, and abundant week. I have been regular in sending the Reiki. Both days. I just put Sky to bed, he seems to be doing much better, not much of the emotional upheavals we have seen lately. Andrew (who now wants to be called Prasad - his middle name) has been having really fantastic days lately. I am very proud of him. I have been nervous and anxious lately about traveling to Ethiopia - I haven't been staying in the moment - but today it feels like I got back to the present moment. As long as I stay centered in the presence of Now, anxiety is impossible. In fact, as Eckhart Tolle would say, anxiety is only found in the past and future, and once we go into the NOW, all anxiety is replaced with an exquisite stillness. Plus, a healthy dose of B vitamins and feeling Universal Love flow through my hands - that helps too!!!
In two weeks and one day - we take off half way around the world - to bring home our fifth child (our third international child!) Wow.....
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