Day 118 and 119

I just transmitted Universal Life-Force Energy for about 20 minutes
And I did yesterday, too.

My lower back pain has come back, and the pain is centered in my right buttock muscle. This is the muscle that cradles the base of the spine. I have been throwing everything I have at this. Acupuncture on Friday. An adjustment earlier this week. Diluted hydrogen peroxide baths. Energy work. Drinking lots of water. Prayer. Meditation. Everything and anything I can do, I will do, to help my back heal so that I am in good health to go get my daughter in Ethiopia and bring her home.

Yesterday, I diluted about 4 cups of 3% H202 in a bath and soaked for about 20 minutes. Today, I diluted 6 cups of 3% H202 in a bath and soaked for about 30 minutes. Now, I am extremely energized mentally. I just meditated for a good 20 minutes and went deeper than I have gone in a long time. I feel over-energized really. The life force is bursting and blasting from my every cell. It has reduced my lower back pain but not reduced it. I am feeling fantastic and alive, and in pain at the same time. I know, know, know - that the source of this lower back pain is childhood tauma and abuse I went through. I have been doing a lot of healing this year, it has been a whopper so far. And I know I have alot more to go. I am not as anxious and frightened about traveling to Ethiopia - wow - we leave in just 4 days! My God! This is amazing. Another super-duper long flight. All in all - we are going to take off and land 8 times. I am so looking forward to seeing this baby girl of ours, and I am so looking forward to landing in Kansas City on the 12th of September, too!

Day 116 and 117

I sent the Universal Love yesterday and today.
All is well and all is good. Wish I could write more, but I have a lot going on in preparing for our trip!

Day 115 of 4,380 days

Transmitted the Reiki
I am feeling much more calm, less anxious and nervous about going to Ethiopia. I sent the Universal Love two times today, and I feel really good now.

There is no greater ambition for me, than to feel the Ocean of Love thundering through my heart, mind, and hands. From this highest ambition, comes the natural unfoldment of my life.

Day 113, 114

Still communicating the Universal Life Force Energy
I am like the little train that could...."I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...." Lately there has been a lot of preparing, alot of calming myself down. I have been stressed in the planning and anticipation of our trip. I recorded two more audios to take with us to Ethiopia, and I am wanting to buy several books.

I am moving right along. 4,380 steps/days. I am 114 in. Barely 10 yards!

Day 112

I sent the Love today
My hands, fingers, and whole body is completely sore and numb from a weekend of grouting the tiles on our basement floor. I spent all day yesterday grouting, and then all day today scrubbing and scraping off the crust and residue left over. Boy, do I have respect for people who tile for a living. I did take a break and did my Love-Sending thing. It was really great, and I feel great - but very tired.

Day 111

I sent the Love for an 18 minute session
I am deeply honored and grateful to have just sent the Love/Reiki/Energy through my hands for the healing benefit of all contained in this Exchange. I feel a lot going on in me, a lot of transformations happening on the inner levels of my mind and body. Some of it feels good, and some of it feels really weird.

A lifetime of fear
Does not disappear in 111 days. I know, I would like to say that after 111 days of sending the Love, that all my fear is gone, and that I am perfectly happy all the time. But in reality, sending the Winds of Divine Love through my mind and body stirs up a lot of fear, so it can be cleared out. I have always been afraid, ever since I was a little body, being terrorized by the grownups and others in my life. I put a lot of pictures of myself as a little boy in the pages of my book, and all this Love is flowing to him in all those moments of my life. This is causing alot of goop to be pushed around in me. I feel an energy blockage in the deep muscles of my right buttock, right up in there next to the cradle of my spine. I keep walking and keep working, and I got another adjustment the other day, which helped a lot. This, however, is what I believe about fear:

One tiny drop of Love inside the radiance of the human heart, is more powerful, more awe-inspiring, than all the fear in the world combined. I believe that this Energy of Pure, Unconditional, Universal Love is intelligent, and knows exactly what I need and what I am able to endure at a given time. My fear is healing, transmuting, transforming into Love more and more. I just need to look at it in the face, and then the Love can heal it.

Major fear:
I am afraid of being a white dad to an African American girl. This has been really big, unspoken fear that is filling up like a water balloon inside me. What exactly am I afraid of? That I won't be a good dad. That I won't know what to do, how to be, what to say. Afraid of what society will think. Afraid of it all. I grew up in the streets of Colorado Springs, and had racism pounded with a dull sledgehammer daily. I unconditionally Love my childhood, and I judge nothing, yet the wounds of racism are still in my heart. I once went to a "healing the hurts of racism" weekend workshop with a friend of mine, and it was a lot of sharing and crying and healing. It was absolutely amazing. I still remember that weekend. I left that feeling such a deep bond with African Americans, a deep Love for them. So I have grown and healed a lot. Nobody is born racist. We are born as Pure Love - and all the ugliness and pain are pounded into us by a very dysfunctional world. Even though I am scared, I believe that I will be a good dad, that I will do the very best I can, that my Love will rain down upon her mind and heart in waves upon waves of bliss and joy. I am not my past. I am not what people told me to be. I am not the ugliness I grew up in. I am not ignorance. I am Love.

I am the Love that needs no race, no name, no body to be.

I am the Love that needs no "personal story" to be. I am the Love that exists in the perpetual, eternal Now moment - the Now that encompasses all moments of time in compassion.

I am Love beyond all culture, nationality, religion, dogma, idea, or form. In this Love I am free.

And it is this Love, this Universal Love that Loves every person of every culture with unconditional intensity - that I have been sending to my little girl in Ethiopia these past months. It is this Love that will flood through me the first moment I hold her in my arms.

And yet, I am still scared. And it is okay to be scared. I still Love myself.

Day 110

Communicated the Universal, Healing Life Force Energy this morning
I am happy to be on this continuous journey of sending unconditional Love every day. I have a lot of ideas and inspirations that come to me while I am sending the Love, but when it comes time to blog, my mind goes blank. I really feel like my mind is empty. Right now, I am waiting for a pizza to be delivered. We have a long weekend ahead of us, a good one. This weekend, and the next, will be the last two weekends before we go to Ethiopia.

Today, I recorded "48 Descending Questions of Universal Love" which is a nice, relaxing audio. I am very happy with it. I think I will offer it as a free gift to all my twitter friends. May every human being on this planet awaken to the infinite Love within them. May we all forgive ourselves and each other - once and for all - may wee see the glorious truth of Love in each other.

Day 109

"Sent" the Love from within the Ocean of Love
Love is Energy is Joy is Peace is Bliss is Nirvana is..... It is all the same. I deeply pray for an awakening of compassion in my heart.

I am willing to Love myself unconditionally, and to Love other people unconditionally. I am willing to merge with transcendent Joy.

Willingness is all it takes for the miracle to occur.

Through the tiny crack of the willing heart, the Ocean of Grace can flood forth.

107 & 108 (Tues and Wedn)

Feeling good - Transmitted the Reiki Energy yesterday and today
I have had a very busy, good, and abundant week. I have been regular in sending the Reiki. Both days. I just put Sky to bed, he seems to be doing much better, not much of the emotional upheavals we have seen lately. Andrew (who now wants to be called Prasad - his middle name) has been having really fantastic days lately. I am very proud of him. I have been nervous and anxious lately about traveling to Ethiopia - I haven't been staying in the moment - but today it feels like I got back to the present moment. As long as I stay centered in the presence of Now, anxiety is impossible. In fact, as Eckhart Tolle would say, anxiety is only found in the past and future, and once we go into the NOW, all anxiety is replaced with an exquisite stillness. Plus, a healthy dose of B vitamins and feeling Universal Love flow through my hands - that helps too!!!

In two weeks and one day - we take off half way around the world - to bring home our fifth child (our third international child!) Wow.....

Day 106 of 4,380 days of sending the Love

Moving right along - Sent The Love
I am at work, in the middle of a very busy day. I am feeling really good today. I have court this afternoon in Grandview, and I have been meeting people all day. I am really excited and nervous at the same time, about traveling to Ethiopia. My 7 year old is a blubbering mess because of the anticipation of both parents being gone to adopt his baby sister. He doesn't want us to go, and I think he is using his extreme shows of emotion to let us know that.

I am smiling at the realization, the feeling, of Love flooding through me - coming ultimately from the transcendent state of Being where we all are ONE!!

Day 105 - Love is Ecstasy - Ecstasy is Love

Ecstatic to have just sent the Love

I just sat on my bed and held my book between my hands - and again - using the movement of my breath combined with my intent and imagination, sent Universal Love through my heart and hands, and into all the people in this Exchange. And again, my son Sky, sat in his bed with his book, and did the same thing. Love is a beautiful thing, not the exclusive love between spouses or between friends, but the Universal Love - the Love that holds the atoms of this mysterious dream universe together. The Love that transcends death, suffering, pleasure, happiness, sadness, and all the rest. The Love that witnesses everything we experience from a state of deep compassion.

I truly believe that anyone can transmit this Universal Love through their heart and hands - to positively impact all beings everywhere. I truly believe that the Ocean of Universal Love roars joyously beneath the transparency of our bodies. And this Ocean is accessible simply by combining our breaths, with our imaginations, with our intentions. Love feels so incredibly good as it courses through our veins, as it overwhelms our senses. It is truly ecstatic.

My greatest honor, my greatest wealth - is to inwardly disappear into this Light - and then witness my life unfold with grace, clarity, goodness, and joy.

Coming back to this 12 minutes every day, is a truly beautiful and heart opening experience. The tears that come flowing down my face during most sessions, is all the proof I need that this Love is reaching and impacting all contained here.

Day 104

Sent the Love sailing like the wind through my hands

Sky and I sent the Love together today, him in his room, me in mine, and both of us with the book between our hands. It was truly wonderful. He said:

"I really felt the Love you sent me Daddy. I sent the Love through the palms of my hands, and I made enough copies for every human being... for every human being."

Makes me smile.

I also pasted large photos of certain Spiritual Teachers into my own book that embody pure Love. Doing this has increased my ability to feel the Energy and the Love flowing through my hands, my heart, my mind, my soul.

Right now, at this point in my life, I am at the place where everything is about to change. Getting a new child, a daughter, will increase the energy and activity in the house, increase the love, the stress, the laughter, the emotional issues. I am smiling in anticipation, and a little nervous too!!!

Day 102 & 103

Communicated the Love/Life Force Energy yesterday and today

I am moving right along with this process, this long turn process of opening my heart like a flower to the Universal Love within me. I transmitted the Love yesterday and today, both times at work, and I am feeling really awesome!!! We are so excited about traveling in a few short weeks to Ethiopia!!

Day 101 - heart melting in Love

Communicated the Universal Energy through my hands

I went to Raytown Missouri Municipal Court to get a 60 day continuance for my client, then came back and sent the Love from my redo office sofa. I am feeling very "melty" in Love. I feel like butter that has been in the Cosmic Oven, and I am melting. This kind of melting feels really good. My illusions melting.

I am feeling a renewed inner enthusiasm to pick up my spiritual practice even more, to pick up my exercising, to start eating better, to get clear about my goals and to begin visualizing them daily, to get even more busy on preparing for Ethiopia!!

Day 99 and 100!

Communicated the Love yesterday and today

Yippee! I made it 100 straight days of sending Love through my hands to all contained within the Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange, from within all. My deepest prayer is that each person has benefitted in some way by the flow of this healing Energy. The beauty of this, is this: I will probably never know how it has impacted their lives. Why is this good? Well, it helps me to step out of the way and allow the Love to flow. I am so happy, so incredibly happy that tears naturally flow. I so much love tears of happiness and joy. This world needs more of those.

I am so thrilled to see this book continuing to fly on wings of Love to more and more places around the earth:

California

Texas

Oregan

Kansas

Iowa

Pennsylvania

Georgia

Nevada

and England

and India....

such a small beginning, but a beginning that fills my heart to overflowing with Love and Joy.

My prayer:

May every human being on Earth, may every animal, every plant and tree, every fish and aquatic life, may all air, water, soil, rock - and may the Earth Herself - now receive all the Universal Love and Life-Force Energy flowing through this Exchange for the highest good of the Earth and all life everywhere.

Three weeks to Ethiopia

In just 3 short weeks we will be leaving for Ethiopia to get our daughter Amelie. This is so exciting. I have begun to "send the Love" to all those future moments to help with our process and the process of all families. I am so looking forward to seeing Ethiopia, to meeting the other families, to meeting our daughter. It is going to be an exciting trip!!!

Day 98 - Consciously creating a positive future experience in Ethiopia

Communicated the Love

I had a really wonderful, deep, heart opening, and tear-inspiring session of sending the Love today. We have had a really good weekend with everyone home. It has't been as nutty and exhausting as usual. Andrew and Sky have had really good weekends, as well as Liam and Sorin.

Consciously creating a positive experience in Ethiopia

My wife and I are concerned about our future interaction with our lawyere in Ethiopia, whom other families have had difficulties. So, I am beginning today, about a month before we go, of sending him Universal Love from within. After I finished my session today, I wrote his name and put him in the book. Now, I am going to place our future trip onto a Reiki Collage Page, and begin to send the Love to that future time and place. I am sending Love to us, to him, to the other families, to the orphanage, the embassy, and all places and times in between. I am going to write out a quantum prayer of harmony, peacefulness, joy, cooperation between our lawyer and us, and between us and the embassy - and for all the families traveling with us.

My quantum prayer:

I now consciously and delberately see and feel myself, my wife, and all other AA families having a safe, smooth, joyous, and happy trip to Ethiopia to bring home our children. I consciously and deliberately bathe ourselves and our entire trip to Ethiopia from September 3rd through September 12, 2009 in the Omniscient, Omnipotent, and Omnipresent power of Universal Love and Life-Force Energy. Every moment of that trip receives this Love, overflows with this Love, and radiates peace and harmony.

I see and feel ourselves and all families and all children receiving and benefitting from this Energy for their highest and greatest good. I see and feel us all having a smooth, joyous, and harmonious relationship with Abebe, our lawyer.

I consciously send Universal Joy, Love, and Gratitude to Abebe - and my quantum prayer is that he feels appreciated and loved for the hard work he has done on our behalf. I consciously and deliberately transmit Universal Love and healing Life-Force Energy to the relationship of Abebe and all the families of Adoption Avenues.

I see and feel Light, Love, Joy, and Divine Harmony overflowing every person involved in our process in every moment. I see and feel that the embassy process for all the families traveling to Ethiopia proceeding in a smooth, harmonious, and timely manner. I see all our children home, safe, happy, joyous and filled with Light.

Day 97 - my boys joined me

Communicated the Universal Life Force Energy/Love

I have had a great day, filled with activity and work. We worked on tiling the basement floor some more, which was good exercise.

Before we started the work, my two boys, Andrew and Sky, joined me in sending the Love into this Exchange. I let each one hold a ULFEE book. Sky stayed downstairs, Andrew went to his bedroom, and I went to our bedroom. For the next 14 minutes, we all communicated Love through our hearts and hands, into the book, and into all who are or will ever be contained within the Reiki Collage Pages. It was a deeply wonderful experience - transmitting the Universal Love through my hands - while also knowing that Sky and Andrew were doing the same thing.

And the best part? Both boys actually kept their hands on the book for the whole 14 minutes, staying silent and focused the whole time. Andrew is 9 and Sky is 7 - so their attention span is not all that long - but they stayed focused on sending the Love. I was very excited to come out of my room and find them both still sitting and breathing and pouring the Love out of their hands. Andrew said, "When I hold my hands over the book, I can really feel the Energy...." Makes me happy.

I am also really happy, because whatever book I write, I have two veary excited and enthusiastic beings who are really excited to get a book. A fan base of 2!! haha...

I think this helped them have a really great day. On their daily score, they both scored above the top score!

Andrew has been telling me lately that he can feel the Reiki flowing through his heart when I send Love into the Exchange. He was explaining it to me when we were walking together, and I smiled.

Day 96 - May Compassion Awaken

Just commune~icated the Universal Love

My heart is overflowing with tears and joy, for I feel this Love erupt like a geyser in my heart and flow like a river down my arms, into my hands, and into every human being contained in the quantum pages of this Exchange. The Love tingles and vibrates through my cells like wind blowing through the leaves of a maple tree. I can feel this Energy cascading through my consciousness - may there be nothing left but this Love. Right now, I am a human being with all the joys and sorrows and issues and emotions and stuff and all the rest - yet - behind it all - I am a spiritual, multidimensional being of Pure Love witnessing it all. We all are. May my Beingness of Love awaken so clearly that I can see that my body is nothing more than the window through which the Light can enter. This may take ten more minutes or ten more lifetimes - but may my Vibration of Love increase to such a level that I clearly see my body as transparent, invisible - and exploding with Joyous Light in all directions. May we all feel Loved.

May Universal, Unconditional Compassion awaken in the cells, hearts, atoms, and minds of all beings on this planet. May every last human being, plant, animal, fish - may all air, soil, and water - receive this Love - benefit from this Love - and may human history evolve to the next level through understanding and compassion. May we all see each other as family - may our tears flow in grief when we see each other in pain - and may our hearts leap and dance with joy and celebration when we see each other succeed and be happy.

May every human being, regardless of ideas, culture, religion, politics - feel clear, unconditional Love flow like a cascading waterfall throughout their bodies, minds, and souls.

All of us contain the blueprint of Universal, Ever-Expanding. Ever-New Bliss, Love, and Joy that transcends the illusion of matter, form, and limitation. We are all spiritual giants pretending to be the small, frail body. We are beautiful beyond comprehension - all we need to do is to breathe deeply and look within.

So much happening in the world now - so much craziness - yet the craziness of the world's dramas do not even compare to the miracles happening all over the world - breakthrough after breakthrough in the minds and hearts of people everywhere.

The Buddhist in Taiwan - may I feel your beating heart inside mine - even though we may never meet in person - may you feel the Love flowing through my being, and may you feel the Love flowing through the hearts of all people everywhere.

The nine year old boy in Pakistan, Iran, Iraq, Palestine, and his brother, recruited to become suicide bombers, may you feel my Love, my compassion, and the compassion of all Beings of Love on this planet. May you know that you are Loved beyond measure. May you feel it, know it, and see how clearly beautiful you are. I can't see your face, but Love knows you - and may this Energy reach you - from within your very cells and atoms. You are Loved.

Day 95

Dropped into the Quatum Unified Field and communicated the Love

Breath is moving

Love Flowing

I am one.

I communicated the Life-Energy this morning, and have been having a fantastic day. I have my 7 yr old son, Sky, with me at work today. Christine and I are in the crazy stage of planning for an international trip - arranging child care - booking travel - making sure we don't forget anything. It's almost like a full time job just thinking of all the details involved.

I awaken

In Love

Nothing else matters

I love writing these Haiku poems. They are simple and elegant.

The taste

of the breath flowing

Divine Ecstasy now

Day 94 - making travel plans

Communicated the Reiki

I transmitted the healing Energy this morning sitting on Liam, my beautiful step-son's chair. We are busy making travel plans to Ethiopia. Booking travel is always a big event.

Welcome home Euna and Laura!

I am ecstatic, grateful, and totally thrilled to see that Euna and Laura have been freed from North Korea. Watching Laura Ling's video brought tears to my eyes. It was beautiful. I have been praying and imaginging such a reunion for quite some time. Way to go Bill!

Day 93

Communicated the Love of the Universe through my hands

Yahoo! I had a really great day today. The alternative protocol I did completely knocked my chest cold out of me. 90 percent reduction in symptoms in less than 24 hours. Wow. I am deeply honored and grateful for the growing number of people joining this Exchange. Thank you. I love you. I love all my family, relatives, children, my earth, and all people everywhere. May Love cascade like a rushing Tidal Wave across all seeming boundaries of region, race, culture, and help us all remember how beautiful we are.

Good night!

Day 92

Delivered the Love/Life Force Energy

I had a busy morning, and was able to send the Reikia round noon today. I have caught a chest cold, and I am trying out some alternative therapies.

We also found out that we are traveling to Ethiopia from September 4-11 Yay!!!!

Day 91

Communicated the Love

I am extremely grateful for this Flow of Love. We have enjoyed a more relaxing weekend at home, as Sorin and Liam are at their Dad's. I am opening my heart on deeper and more profound levels to the inherent Beingness of Love within the transparent regions of my mind and body. I believe, and this may seem somewhat strange to many, that on an energetic level, the whole universe is within our hearts, minds, cells, atoms. As we love ourselves deeply, passionately, completely, and unconditionally, we are healing the world - because the world is within us - and we are in the world.

We are waiting for our embassy appointment to go Ethiopia, and are very excited about going!

Day 90 - Yaaaa-hooooooooo!

Communicated the Reiki

Yay! I made it 90 days. 90 days of sitting and breathing and transmitting Universal Love through my heart and hands - and into this Exchange for at least 12 minutes a day. I feel really fantastic-alicious! My mind is opening like a flower. I am feeling this smile, this deep soul smile, shining through the ancient cave of my heart and mind, getting brighter and brighter. All my old gunk is slowly melting away, and I am feeling better and better. Every day in every way, I REALLY FEEL this Universal Essence vibrating through my heart and hands, and it literally brings me to tears almost every time I do it. Love feels so good, so ecstatic, as it courses through our veins and hands and fingers!

Walking my prayers

That 144 miles in 48 days I started out doing a month ago didn't work out. My back started going out, but I have started walking 2 miles a day, and it seems like it works well for me. The difference is that I am speed-walking, which really feels fantastic. I just walked 2 miles in 30 minutes, which for me is really fast. My son Sky was going with me, and with his smaller legs, he had to jog to keep up with me.

I walked my prayers today for the release of Laura Ling and Euna Lee. Here is how I walk my prayers:

1. As I walk, I take really deep breaths. On each inhale, I pull my life force up my spine and up further, to a transcendent state of Love. On each exhale, I pour that Cosmic Energy back through my body, through my arsm, through my legs, feet, and into the Earth. As I exhale, I powerfully vibrate specific, quantum prayers.

2. Today it was "EUNA LEE AND LAURA LING HAVE NOW BEEN RELEASED." I spoke those wors with body-force, with energy-force, with vibrational intensity, and I sent that prayer into the sidewalk, into the soil and rock and water beneath the sidewalk, and into the Quantum Field. I powerfull visualized that the key was being turned on their cell, and that they were walking out, getting on an airplane, and appearing on Oprah talking about their ordeal. I inwardly, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, vibrationally with all the inner force of my soul, demanded their release.

What would happen if 100,000 or 1,000,000 inwardly and spiritually visualized their release?

Let's do it.

Take just a minute, and visualize their faces and deeply, passionately, with the inner force of 100,000 voices, with the inner force that could be felt throughout the solar system, demand and visualize their IMMEDIATE RELEASE.

It only takes a minute.