Totally incapacitated... almost

I have been absent without an excuse from this blog. And yes, it is my back pain. I felt a wave of rage well up, and overwhelm my body a few days ago. Of course, I didn't rage - but instead witnessed it. After not sleeping much, the next morning I felt horrible. My back pain came back with a roaring vengeance.

This was Tuesday. The next day, I went for another acupuncture treatment, and the day after that, this morning, it was the worst it has been. I could hardly get out of bed, and worse, it was very difficult to walk, bend, or do anything that required any movement.

YET... I do feel that the energy is unplugged, and flowing down different channels of my body. The acupuncture, just like last time, is working. I can feel it.

Jason, my acupuncturist, said that I need to invoke the "warrior energy" and decide to go deep and look at this stuff square in the eyes withour shrinking, and without getting attached to it either. When he put the very tiny needles in my lower back and buttock muscles, legs, hands, head, and feet, it really stung this time. My muscles felt inflamed. 

Then... laying on the table, I entered a really transcendent state of relaxation. I felt like I was being suspended in air or something. Really, really amazing - this feeling of energy relaxation.

After my treatment yesterday, I was tired all day. Fell asleep watching Hitchcocks most boring movie ever: Vertigo. Then went to bed, slept good all night....

And found it very, very hard to get out of bed this morning. Going from a laying down position, to a sitting position, to a standing position was A VERY LONG JOURNEY.

At 5 oclock I gave myself a half hour energy healing session. It was really amazing. I sent energy to the 6th year of life, when I turned five to when I turned 6. 1972-1974. During my session, I remember something my acupuncturist told me: If it was just Chi---it would be cleared out. There is something attached to it, some kind of deep emotion. And during my session this afternoon, I have the answer.

It is a place. 1230 Querida Drive, Colorado Springs Colorado. The last house on the left. More specifically, the basement of that house. From 1972 through 1975, thats where most all of the horrible stuff happened to me, stuff that my mind still keeps hidden from me to protect me. I firmly believe that I am carrying this one story red brick house in my lower back, stored as memories, traumas, nightmares. And my lower back is trauma inflicted upon me by very sick people during that time period.

I am going to that house, and I am walking down into the basement, and I am sending Light, Love, Joy - into that basement. With me I am bringing Yogananda, Yukteswar, Lahiri Mahasaya, Babaji, Krishna, Jesus, Ananda Moyi Ma, Gandalf from the Lord of the Rings, Hanuman, and any and all other Masters. We are going to sing in that basement, chant in that basement, dance in that basement, and bring in the light. I am going to blast that basement with the most powerful Love I have ever felt.

And those sick bastards are leaving. They are being evicted! And I am going to shake up and transmute that house into Light!