Day 149, 150 - Toning Kriya

Sent the Universal Reiki/Love today
Yesterday and today, I began to tone the Reiki Sound of "Kriya" when I place my hands on the book and send Energy into the Exchange. It seems really, really wonderful. I go into a deep state each time. Feels really good. Toning specific, healing sounds is a really awesome way to send the Love each day.

Moving right along - feeling great!

Day 148 of 4,380 days - Feeling GREAT!

Communicated the Love
After getting all 5 kids settled into bed, I plopped on the green chair in the living room and transmitted the Reiki. I couldn't feel my arms. I didn't have a long sleeve shirt on, yet, my arms felt delightfully numb as I felt the Energy flow through my hands like water pouring out of two waterfalls. I took long deep breaths, opening the inside of my heart wide to the Universe of Love with each inhale - relaxing completely with each exhale - and intending and allowing Energy to flow through my openness - through my hands - and into all beings who are within the pages of this book. Universal, Pure, Unconditional Love to you all. I have been so happy today, so definitely happy. This is because I have asked myself powerful, abundant, soul-inspiring, reflective questions today, like "What makes me so wealthy in spirit, mind, and body," or "What and who am I so deeply grateful for?" or "How am I feeling better and better every moment of every day?"

These questions and lots of others have helped me turn the tide from a negative state of mind to a positive one. I have also been keeping open my inner, heart-based smile, and inwardly shining it into the hearts of everyone I meet. This is what I do: I just imagine that there is a "face" on the inside of my chest, and I just smile on the inside. I open it up wide. Then I allow a soft smile on my face, not an overbearing toothy smile, but a nice soft one. Then when I see people on the street, or I stand in front of a judge, or I talk to someone on the phone, I secretly shine it into their heart. It really works. I notice that people automatically send me back a smiling twinkle from their eyes. The inner smile is awesome.

When I got home, Christine had to go to a meeting, and so dinner and five kids fell to me. I held Amelie on the Ergo carrier, and made everyone hot pockets. I spontaneously began singing, explaining in song the story of Amelie's journey to America, and Prasad's journey to America as well. I had a blast, Sorin got annoyed, and all was well! It was really fun.

Day 147 - Rumi Poem

i swear my dear son
no one in the entire world
is as precious as you are

look at that mirror
take a good look at yourself
who else is there above and beyond you

now give yourself a kiss
and with sweet whispers
fill your ears to the brim

watch for all that beauty
reflecting from you
and sing a love song to your existence

you can never overdo
praising your own soul
you can never over-papmer your heart

you are both
the father and the son
the sugar and the sugar cane

who else but you
please tell me who else
can ever take your place

now give yourself a smile
what is the worth of a diamond
if it doesn't shine

how can i ever put a price
on the diamond that you are
you are the entire treasure of the house

you and your shadow
are forever present in this world
you're that glorious bird of paradise
--Rumi

Days 145, 146, 147 - Sky and Amelie's Birthday

Sent the Love every day since day 144 - I am continuing this journey
Today, I got to the Love Transmission/Energy Communication at around 7:30 pm. I went downstairs and sat on my comfortable tan recliner - the one that is too big to get out of the basement. I still don't remember getting it down there. Christine and I tried with all our might to get it up the stairs, to no avail.

Anyway, it was really wonderful to sit down there in the dark, all by myself, total privacy - take my deep breaths - and give the Universal Love to all contained in this Exchange, and to all of life on our sacred planet.

Birthdays!!

We celebrated Amelie's birthday today, and Sky's birthday - all wrapped up in one. Sky had a toy semi truck on his side of the cake, and it was chocolate - while Amelie had pink icing and a bunch of smaller cars. She loved the cake. Got it all over her face. Sky was being bossy and controlling earlier, but then the day melted into a good one. I helped put his leggo-helicopter and motorcycle together. It was really fun, and fed my inner child who never had such amazing toys (sniffle sniffle)

I re-visit and renew my 12 year commitment

I now renew my commitment to giving the Love through my open heart and relaxed hands. I deeply send my highest Love to all within the pages of this Life-Force Energy Exchange. Unconditional Love. May it be felt and integrated on all levels of their being. The last few months has been a process of just hanging in there with this process. This is a 12 year journey, a journey of 4,380 days in a row of giving Universal Energy/Reiki/Love to others unconditionally through my hands. I have made it 147 days. Today it feels good. There are days I don't feel much of anything, but I keep going anyway.

We now have Amelie home. We can settle into a routine. A new rhythm. I think slowly we are starting to get our bearings. She sleeps really good, which is a huge blessing (knock on wood).

Gratitude

I have been practicing gratitude a lot today. The mind cannot awaken from its stupor of ignorant sleep unless and until it becomes grateful. This I am discovering today. I am going to begin saying THANK YOU 12 times in a deep and emotional way, to myself, to Life, to God, to the Divine - for how amazingly rich I am.

Days 143 and 144

Sending the Universal Love every day
I am still feeling tired during the day, but feeling much better. I am still in the process of trying to upgrade this whole process, but for now, I am just hunkering down and doing this every day. 144 days in a row! I am feeling good about that!

Days 143 and 144

Sending the Universal Love every day
I am still feeling tired during the day, but feeling much better. I am still in the process of trying to upgrade this whole process, but for now, I am just hunkering down and doing this every day. 144 days in a row! I am feeling good about that!

Day 142 - feeling a little blah

Just transmitted the Reiki
I had a good session just now. I felt the Love/Universal Energy flowing through my hands and heart, and I can feel this pit in the bottom of my stomach being enveloped in Love. From the jet-lag, to general feelings of discontent about my day job and some clients I have to represent, to all kinds of old issues that come up, I have been feeling a bit depressed lately. I need to get back to Tweeting more, which was a great source of inspiration for me before we left for Ethiopia. I feel like I need to "up the anty" somehow, shift things around, let-go of a lot of stuff. I want to re-do the ULFEE website, transform it somehow. I keep avoiding looking at it, because I know it needs to transform, always keep transforming, just don't know how just yet.

I am home this morning and early afternoon, then I have to drive to Sugar Creek Missouri to get a ticket amended for my client, then back home.

The main thing I need to do when I am feeling down, is just to keep sending the Love. I found it hard to send the Love this morning, but once I did, it felt really good. Just what I needed. I need to increase the times I send the Love. Do more mantras. More chanting. Pick up the pace of my spiritual development.

I would love to KNOW that the Love/Energy I am sending into this quantum field of life is making a difference, making an impact. I hope and pray that little sprouts of Love/Joy flower from within the minds, hearts, and bodies of all in this book - those that have asked to be in it - and those I have just put in it. I would love to know its received and felt.

I would love to just sit and send the Love all day long, and not have to deal with toxic clients. But, it is my path right now to deal with them - to send THEM Love - and to learn and grow from the experience.

Day 141

I communicated the Universal Life Force Energy today
I feel pretty good about it. I am having a hard time getting my mind in the game of work. I went to work early today, and stayed all day, and succeeded in getting very little accomplished. It feels like I am still fighting off the effects of jet-lag. My mind is way behind the train, running, trying to catch up. "Wait! Wait! Wait for me... oh never mind... I'll just find a nice comfortable place to take a nap."

I am hitting a wall with this practice. I am sending the Love every single day, and have done 141 days in a row, 12 minutes a day, and it has been deeply rewarding. Lately however, I feel like I am just going through the motions. I will keep on keepin' on!

Day 140

The Love has been SENT! <<<<>>>>>

Day 139 - One week home

Just had a great session sending/communing/communicating Universal Energy/Love

It's now one week home, and I am almost back to feeling healthy again. It has been a long and wonderful journey. Although I feel "buzzy" and lightheaded, I am feeling much better.

During my session today, I imagined and felt that our house was filled with all the Great Ones from all the religions and paths and traditions around the world. They were gathering in our home. Mingling. Talking. Socializing. From St. Francis to Babaji to Yogananda to Christ to all others, and all the invisible, unknown ones as well. Then this thought came gently into my mind:

Let there be no more me,
only Love.

At least for these 12 minutes,
let there be no more me,
only Love.

Let this be my vacation from the burden of me
mine
and all the stories and pains and problems and memories
that are attached to that illusion called
me.

Let there be no more me,
only Love.

Day 138 - Feeling better

Communicated the Reiki for another 12 minutes
This past 5 days since I returned have been really rough on my mind and body, but today, I am feeling better than I have in a long time. It feels really good. I just sat on my red sofa and had a great session of sending the Universal Love/Reiki. All my sessions this week have been in a state of mental and physical exhaustion, but I did it anyway. We are going through a lot of changes in dynamic/equilibrium at home. With the addition of our new child, there are now a host of new emotional issues that have arisen with the rest of our children. But in the end, it is all good.

I have been feeling the need to make some serious changes in my daily routine, clean out clutter, clean out my thinking, change my thoughts, meditate more, eat better. I was a ball of stress leading up to our Ethiopia trip, and now it is time to settle into a normal routine. With no big leaps over the Atlantic Ocean coming up anytime soon, I can calm myself down!

I am moving my office Nov. 1, so I can be closer to home. At first, I was freaked out about the prospect of moving, but now it feels really good.

I am sticking with this process of sending Love every day for 12 minutes. I am sticking with it like glue!

Day 135, 136, 137

Sending the Love every day
Every day I been continuing this practice of sending Reiki, yet I am going through a lot of fatigue, exhaustion, a bug, jetlag. A fast trip to Africa to get our daughter, and then coming back, has caused me to feel completely out of it. I am tired. I itch all over. I am recovering from a bug. It has been rough these past few days. The practice continues.

I am really happy to have our daughter home, but with it comes a host of new issues. Our 9 year old, Prasad, is now acting up in major ways because he is jealous of the attention she is getting. Tons of changes. I feel like completely cleaning out. Totally gutting my house of all clutter. Get rid of excess baggage in my mind and body.I want to feel like myself again!, and I will, it will just take time.

Day 123 to Day 134 - Ethiopia and Amelie

Communicated the Love every day of my wonderful Ethiopian trip.

I am so excited to be home, and have so much to say about the trip to Ethiopia, and my process. It was an incredibly enriching, beautiful experience. I am finally beginning to come out of my fog to where I can process it. Last night, the exhaustion of the trip hit me like a ton of bricks falling out of the sky. I thought I was literally going to come un-glued. After 9 hours of sleep, I feel better, but still feel really wiped out. I don't know how long it is going to take. But I am really happy to be home with this incredible soul.

To say that we adopted her, is true on the surface. On the deeper level of reality, she and the Universe, adopted.

When we got there, we were extremely wiped out from the trip. The Washington DC to Rome flight took about 7.5 hours, then we waited on the ground for about an hour for them to fill up the tank, and clean the toilets. Then the flight from Rome to Addis Ababa took about 5.5 hours. Overall a pretty fast trip.

Every day, except for the last two days, we took outings in the van. We saw Amelie for the first time on Saturday, September 5th. She was carried out by the nannies, and had her two fingers in her mouth (she uses them as a pacifier). She was wheezing from a chest cold, but we held her and she looked at us, and we spent probably an hour with her. On Sunday and Monday we visited, and then on Tuesday we took her for good.

I will post more at a later time, when I have been able to recover.

Day 122

I sent the Universal Love today
I am feeling much better in anticipation of going to Ethiopia. We leave for Chicago in the morning, and from there, we fly to Washington DC. Then Friday morning, we are off to Addis Ababa Ethiopia. I have done an enormous amount of personal healing in preparation for this amazing soul, Amelie, to enter our lives. This house is going to be a totally changed environment. It is going to be a wild ride!

I will now go to journaling to record this 12 year journey!

Onward

Upward

To Ethiopia we go!!!!!

Days 120, 121

Continuing to transmit the Universal Love!!!!

And in just two days, we take off!!!! Yeeehaw!