6,048 Transcendent Self-Love Mantras

I believe that we all - at our essence - are made from a Love that is Transcendent, Divine, Eternal, True, Beautiful, and Everlasting. I think that we can use our breath and imaginations to open up the portals of our cells and atoms and rise our consciousness into that Transcendent Love. And I think that we can then BLOW that Love - unconditionally - regardless of how good or bad we may be feeling in the moment - back into ourselves. Kind of like the Soul is Loving Itself.

I just completed 6,048 of these Mantras, and today, I tweaked it just a bit.

For some reason, this version of the Mantra feels so much better for me. I feel so much more of an energetic charge from it. As I Love my Whole Self - body, mind, spirit, emotions, memories, dreams, pains, confusions, triumphs, past, future, now - the whole SheBang - I am automatically transmitting that same Love to all within me - the rest of humanity. Again, I truly believe that I am one with you - that you are one with me - that I am you - that you are me - that we are born, sustained, live, and melt into the same Energy, the same Love, the same Destiny.

This Thanksgiving - the whole concept of unconditional Love has been thrown back in my face in one of the most vile ways imaginable. My son did something that I cannot even repeat - and has thrown myself and my wife into a tailspin of shock, trauma, and disbelief. Nothing life-threatening - but something truly shocking. And so, my brain, body, and emotions are spinning - and I keep repeating this Mantra. It has been challenging - being at home throughout this break, day in and day out, living with these issues and all the anger and sadness it brings up - to just keep on vibrating the Mantra.

I believe that when I call in the highest vibration of Love into my mind and body, the ego will - in the most vile way it can - fight back. Maybe Sky doing what he did was the ego fighting back - maybe it is just a willful and unrepentant 8 year old body testing his parents in the most rage-filled way he can.

I want to help him - to step in - to go into his brain and fix his problems. I am panicking on so many levels. Holy God, what kind of life is he going to lead if he is acting so psychotically at age 8? What can I do to stop him from going down that path?

FIRST, and foremost, I need to continue healing myself. PARENTS, HEAL THYSELF! This is going through my mind. If I can do that - and stay sane even though I want to react to his behavior by "numbing out" - then I am serving Sky (and Prasad, and Amelie, and Sorin, and Liam) in the most effective, primordial way possible. IF WE, AS PARENTS CAN HEAL OURSELVES, THEN THIS WILL BE OUR CHILDREN'S SILENT INHERITANCE.

Can I go ahead of him, and tinker with the railroad tracks he is on, and try and divert the train away from the self-destructive path it seems like he is on?

For starters, I have written a short positive script to read him while he sleeps every night.

For seconds, I am going to start giving him energy therapy as often as possible.

For thirds, is the concept of therapy. I could get him a no-needle acupuncture to try and clear out the fear and rage that is within him. Then there is the other kind of therapy - psychotherapy. But that can get expensive.

When we had our family meeting, we were asking Sky what he was thinking when he did what he did, and he said:

"I felt madder at you and mom than I have ever felt..." and then his face contorted into rage for a split second, and it was like a window opened. I could see into the depth of that rage. And it frightened me.

But Love is more powerful than rage - because rage is always sitting on a pool of some other emotion, like powerlessness, fear, grief, loss. The feelings are so powerful - one does not know how to deal with it. Love is eternal. Rage is temporary.

The first time I remember starting to "rage" was in 1975 - when my family traveled to Independence Missouri for my uncle Harley's funeral. (This was after a few years of total blank in my mind where I am really certain that a lot of really horrid stuff happened to me at the hands of very sick people)

Us kids were walking down the street, and these other kids came up to us and started talking. This one kid was on his bike, he started talking trash to me. Telling everyone how he could kick my ass. And he wouldn't shut up. He just kept on, and kept on.

Until the lights went bright and blurry - and I burst over the bike and started to beat the hell out of him. I went blank. It was like some other energy swooped through me and I felt like I was not in my body at all. I was punching and punching him on the ground. He was bawling, and my cousin and brother had to pull me off of him. Following that incident, was several more over the years - including going FIST CRAZY on a huge football player in 9th grade - even though he was way, WAY bigger and WIDER than me.

So what am I trying to say? Maybe, just maybe I am saying that there is still more to heal and Sky is my teacher, reflecting back to me stuff I still need to heal.

And maybe, he has his own issues - but from where do they come from? He is not being abused. He has had this "UP YOURS" attitude since he was 3 years old - HE SIMPLY CANNOT STAND to be controlled, to have consequences, to have things taken away, to not get his way - and he reacts with seething rage every time he is denied something that he wants. And boy does he want, and want, and want, and want, and demand and demand and demand and demand. It never stops.

On the other hand, he is sweet and soft and kind and loves his family in the most beautiful way possible. He loves us, he loves his brother, he is loyal, smart, and has a deep softness about his heart.

But I am shaken - shaken but bot broken.

I will keep calling in this Love - this Transcendent Love - into my mind and body - and take the next step with Sky and my other kids.

Whatever that might be.

4,752 Self-Love Mantras

I have done 44 Rounds of 108 Repetitions of the Mantra. Each time I Love myself in this way, each Mantra, I am sending a pulse of Love and Light to all contained in this Exchange, to my family, and to all life everywhere. I am feeling a lot of emotional distress today, a lot of pain, because of my son Sky's behavior. The whole idea of unconditional Love is getting challenged within me in a big, big way. BUT, I am continuing with this journey of Loving myself from the Transcended State of Beingness. I am taking this whole process to heart. This Exchange is being distilled down to three basic steps:

1. Use the deliberate breath to open up our Beings and Love ourselves unconditionally. Then we will realize that to Love ourselves on the deepest, core level of our Beings, IS to send Love to ALL.

2. Transmit Love to the Great Masters, Mistresses, Saints, and Sages of all religions - and into the Heart of GOD, GODDESS, THE DIVINE. Love the Divine unconditionally. Loving God/dess unconditionally is the path to true liberation.

3. THEN, and only then, we will be able to place people into our books, fill up the 144 blank pages of this Exchange - and take 12 minutes and "send the Love" to all contained in this Exchange.

What I did for the first 174 days of this journey, was just send the Love to others and totally gloss over sending it to myself first.

I am building my foundation.

I am healing myself first.

3,456 Self-Love Mantras

I have been chanting the Mantra every day - and I was able to do 4 rounds of 108 each on Saturday and another 4 rounds of 108 on Sunday. I definitely feel like things are moving forward. A deep process of transformation is taking place. It feels really good, at the same time, it is also creating a lot of movement emotionally - stuff getting rearranged in my psyche. This creates its own type of tiredness.

2,160 Transcendent Unconditional Self-Love Mantras

After chanting the Mantra 2,160 times now, I am feeling really amazing. I feel like I am able to begin clearly seeing my true self in a long time. I have chanted 4 rounds of 108 each for five days in a row now. I am seeing myself differently. I am making better food choices, and I am feeling really good about myself. And I can totally feel that this is just the beginning.

The major AHA that came to me this week, was that I have become a total digital, internet news ADDICT, and so I decided to completely cut myself off from all NEWS for these 108 days. I have been a total addict. Going from site to site to site to site reading article after article - sucking my brain dry.

What really broke the camel's back was when I read that people professing to be Christians are praying for the demise of our president. That just sickened me so much, that I decided to completely disengage from the internet, except checking my email which I have to do for work, running credit card payments on paypal for work, and blogging. That's it for this 108 days. I am going to open a book, instead.

More later about all that I am experiencing. It is really beautiful!

Day 23 of ULFEE, and 832 Self-Love Mantras

I did 4 rounds of 108 deep and profound repetitions of the Self-Love Mantra today. Once on the way to Harrisonville Missouri for Court. Once in the parking lot of Whole Foods in Leawood Kansas. Another at Starbucks downtown KCMO. (I whispered the Mantra 108 times), and the last one parked in my car on 11th Street, downtown Kansas City Missouri.

I just now transmitted the Universal Love for a wonderful 20 minute meditation.

The main thing I feel, is tired. I feel wiped out, mainly because I didn't sleep as great last night because of the cup of decaf coffee I had at 3 pm. Yes, decaf does that to me. Another reason, is that I feel the Mantra, and this powerful inner journey of loving myself in this way, has kicked up some dust in my mind. And things are moving.

I feel really good about sleeping tonight. The darkness of our bed is calling to me, and its only 9pm!

432 Mantras in....

(Day 22 of sending the Love.... going well)

I am grateful to report that I made it through the first day, and deeply repeated the Mantra 432 times + today. + because I find myself repeating the mantra when I am not actively doing 108 rounds. When I am talking to people, working, walking to and from my car, in line at the store, etc... I find myself repeating and feeling it.

I want to do more, but I am going to sleep with the restful thought that I made it through day one, and I have 107 days to go!

Journey of over 10,000 Transcendent, Unconditional Self-Love Mantras has begun

The journey of feeling, chanting, and vibrating this Mantra over 10,000 times has begun. I just did a round 0f 108 chants with my Rudraksha Mala Necklace on my drive into Kansas City today. Actually, my real goal is to chant this Mantra 108 times, 4 times a day, for 108 straight days. That will come to 46,656 Mantras. 4 x 108 is 432..... x 108 equals 46,656 Repetitions.

I chant this Mantra for my highest benefit, and for the highest benefit of all who are now, or will ever be, contained within the quantum, spiritual pages of this Universal Life Force Energy Exchange. But my focus is on Loving myself transcendentally, unconditionally - while knowing that this internal act will automatically reach the Divine, and automatically impact all beings on earth on the subtle, quantum levels of reality. It's automatic because quantumly and energetically - we are all one. Each of us are a holographic microcasm of the whole. In each of our minds and hearts - we carry the rest of the world. The world doesn't carry us, we carry the world in our consciousness. Reality is created from the inside out.

So... with that said, with that intention, I begin this journey of chanting this Mantra 46,656 times in 108 days. Now, I know that this is going to be extremely challenging, especially in the beginning. I know that this will likely bring up strong emotions, feelings, and old gunk that needs to heal. I vow to take care of myself in this process. I WILL chant this Mantra in a melodic, harmonic, hypnotic, spiritual way in 4 rounds of 108 repetitions each day, for 108 days in a row.

I will continue the journey, as well, of transmitting Universal Love into this Exchange (it is day 22), but my focus will be on sending this Love through my own being first.

My intention is not to repeat the words of this Mantra like a mindless robot, but to feel, vibrate, and allow the Mantra to shake, reverberate, and penetrate every level of my mind, body, and soul. My goal is to saturate every level of my mind (conscious, subconscious, and superconscious) with this Mantra to such a degree that my soul hums with unconditional self-love, and to the degree that my life totally transforms.

Breath of Universal Love Meditation

This meditation is in my book, but here is a summary of it: Focusing on the center of my heart, I breathe in deeply while using my creative intent and imagination to expand and pull the center of my heart into the Divine. And on each exhaling breath, I completely relax my whole body while flooding Transcendent, Universal Love into my mind, body, cells, and atoms - ultimately revealing the body to be transparent vibrations of light. I immediately breathe in again and keep the Universal Love circulating in the same way. I breathe in this way continuously, with no pause between my in and out breaths. I will do this meditation every day.

I will then incorporate the Mantra into the movement of my breath. I will chant aloud, whisper, and mentally broadcast this Mantra in a powerful, passionate way - so that every cell of my body feels the reverberations - so that all life everywhere feels it. I will relax as deeply as possible during each round of powerful, vibrating repetitions.

I will surround all moments of pain, trauma, ugliness - from my past - in this Mantra. I will allow all feelings and thoughts contrary to this Mantra to effortlessly and joyously transmute into Love. Even when it hurts, I WILL CONTINUE this process. I WILL DO 4 ROUNDS OF 108 REPETITIONS FOR 108 CONTINUOUS DAYS, BEGINNING TODAY. I WILL! I call upon the forces of body, mind, energy, breath, Love, and Spirit - to aid me in this process of total self-healing and transformation - and I dedicate this to the greatest benefit of my wife, children, extended family, friends, relatives, community, country, and planet.

The Benefits

Spiritual: I believe that the key to experiencing union with the Divine, is to first Love myself without condition or compromise. If I can Love myself no matter what, and do it deeply and passionately, then I am contacting God/dess/Divine. This is because I am created by the Divine, and what is created can never be separate from the Creator. There is only oneness. Is this a trip down ego lane? I don't think so. I believe that the ego thrives on self-hatred and not on self-love. Egotistical vanity and narcissism, I believe, has at its root a deep and abiding self-hatred. Only by Loving myself unconditionally can I transcend the traps of the ego. So... I hope that the benefits will be a deeper feeling of unity, oneness, joy, peace, calmness. As I Love myself in this way, may I feel this Love reaching the Ecstatic Heart of God/dess.

Emotional: As I Love myself in this deep, profound, and consistent ways, I believe that all emotions, feelings, thoughts, memories, traumas, beliefs that are contrary to Love - will rise to the surface and wash to the shores of my consciousness - to ultimately be bathed in the sunlight of Love and be transmuted into Love. Ultimately, leaving me free of all the bondage and pain of my childhood, which I still carry around with me in this rather heavy knapsack on my back.

My marriage: This one is huge. Jill and I have traveled to three foreign countries together and brought back three amazing souls. It all started in late November, early December of 1999 when she sent me a blind email on AOL. From the moment I saw her eyes, I felt a total shift in my soul, a melting, a softening - and I knew I was hooked for life. Almost 7 months later, we married at a beautiful retreat center in Baldwin Kansas. Over the last 10 years there have been many challenges, issues, problems, arguments - and many, MANY more moments of goofiness, laughter, love, playfulness, and travel. WE ARE STILL TOGETHER 10 YEARS LATER. From a person who never really sustained any type of long term relationship before I met her, this is huge. So... the act of Loving myself, I believe, takes any relationship to a higher level. My prayer is that these next 108 days will lift our union to higher levels of joy, peace, calmness, and love.

My kids: Boy, what a biggie. I believe, just as I stated in an earlier post, that the biggest act of service parents can do for their kids is to LOVE THEMSELVES deeply, passionately, and unconditionally. This will help heal and transmute the closet full of ghosts and skeletons - which our kids will find and begin to reflect back to us in the daily trenches of life with them. I know this is the case. Parenting drives me friggin' nuts most of the time. Both my middle boys, ages 9 and 8, are showing me so many problems and issues with self-esteem, bad attitudes, self-injurious behaviors, dramas, manipulations, bawling - and YES - a lot of laughs and a lot of Love. They are beautiful, and they are beautifully demanding and they drive me absolutely out of my mind in such a beautiful way! Sometimes, no, most of the time, I scratch my head in utter exhaustion and confusion and wonder if anything I say to them, AT ALL, gets through. SO, to Sorin, Liam, Prasad, Sky, and Amelie - these 108 days are for you!!

My body: Geesh, I almost don't even want to talk about it. I have been on a roller coaster of gaining and losing about 10 pounds for the whole ten years I have been married to Christine. I consider myself healthy, generally. I am vegetarian. I mostly overeat out of a sense of exhaustion, stress, and boredom. This year, I have had a few problems manifest in my body. Back going out several times. Sciatica pain shooting down my right leg. Thats about it. Plus being heavier than I wish to be. My prediction, is that these 46,656 Mantras over the next 108 days will have a positive impact on my health, vibrancy, energy, weight, and well-being. Right now, I weigh 170 pounds. Would like to weigh 150 pounds. Let's see what happens.

Prosperity: I believe that Self-Love creates a magnetic attraction that pulls prosperity of all kinds into my life. We shall see.

Ultimately, my intention is that this act of Self-Love, these thousands of Mantras, will have a subtle, energetic, quantum impact on other human beings. MY GOAL is to attract 10,000 people into this Exchange who each make a commitment to powerfully vibrate this Mantra at least 10,000 times. 10,000 times 10,000 is 100,000,000 (one hundred million). One hundred million Transcendent Self-Love Mantras being felt, vibrated, and resonated within 10,000 bodies and minds, I HOPE, will help impact human consciousness in a small way.

Why 108 days?

I am chanting the Mantra 46,656 times because I want to practice what I write about in my book. If I can't do this for the next 108 days, then I have no business writing this book. I want to go way above what I suggest for others. Everyone is different. I tend to bite off more than I can chew and then spend the rest of my life chewing! You could do 4 rounds of 108 Repetitions a day for 27 days and reach 11,664 Repetitions. Or less. Or more. Whatever you choose. If a person just did one round of 108 Repetitions a day for 10 days, that would be 1,080. Not bad. Each person should do whatever is comfortable to them. Why 108 days? I just like the number. There are 108 beads on my Rudraksha Mala Necklace. 4 rounds of 108 a day is very challenging, but perfectly so. Again, this is just for me.

And numbers, for many, are not that big of a deal. You could repeat and feel the Mantra once a day in a really powerful way - and have it make more of an impact than if you repeated it mindlessly all day long. I'm just into numbers. Obsessively so? Probably. But I accept that about myself.

Speaking of Rudraksha

Rudraksha Beads are from India, and look like little brown, bumpy seeds. They are said to carry a high vibration, and help to balance the energy field. Jill used to sell them on eBay, so we still have a bunch of them laying around.

I use my necklace to count my repetitions. My intention is to "store" or "install" or "imprint" each Mantra into each bead as I repeat, feel, and count them. After each round of 108 Repetitions, I put it back on. It is long enough that it drapes around my heart. So after 108 days, I will be "wearing the 46,656 Mantras around my heart. I believe this will transform my life in ways I cannot even predict.

Universal Love/Om/Energy

The Mantra is in the Universal Life Force Energy Exchange book, and is being bathed in Reiki/Universal Love/Om - so each time someone wraps their warm, beautiful hands around the book - the Mantra will become even more potent to repeat, feel, and vibrate.

Loving ourselves in the conscious presence of others

To join together, in mind, heart, and soul - with one or many other people - and chant this Mantra - is even more amazing. I would love to start a small group once a month to chant this Mantra together. If you join me in doing this, know that each time you repeat this Mantra, there are many others who are repeating it with you on the quantum level. This inner support is a beautiful thing. Ultimately, we are Loving each other when we Love ourselves. This is because on a deep, profound level - WE ARE EACH OTHER.

The long, echoing, melodic chant of the Mantra

I like to chant the Mantra in a melodic way. Kind of hard to get across in words, but I'll try:

With the Trannn-sscendent Love that I aaaammmmm....

I Love myself, unconditional-eeeeeeeee.

I chant the Mantra in an echoing, soft, beautiful rhythm, feeling it on every level of my body, mind, and soul. I can either chant it fast, slow, slower. I can chant it aloud, in a whisper, or mentally. Doing it mentally takes more concentration because the mind does tend to wander.

How long does one round of 108 Repetitions take?

Let me find out - I will do round 2 for the day now....

Took 13 minutes

Day 21 - AHA

Review

I have been experiencing a major AHA in my approach to sending Universal Love to others through the book I wrote. The last 144 pages have a Reiki Collage on them, which looks like a lot of squiggly lines and shapes. But they are Reiki Symbols, which help the mind to focus the intent of transmitting the healing Life-Force Energy to others for their highest benefit. I have a lot of photos I pasted on them, as well as names of people I have just written down. The point is to close the book, place my hands around it, and then transmit this Universal Energy to all of them at once. I have been doing this since May of this year. I went 174 days in a row, then missed a day on day 175.

Now I am starting over, and I am on day 20. I decided to focus on three year periods at a time. The first three years I am focusing on the Life-Force Energy as AUM, or OM, the primordial Sound that gave birth to matter and form. I breathe deeply, opening my heart, mind, cells and atoms with each long inhaling breath, and as I exhale, I chant OMMMMM, or whisper OMMMM, and then I send this OM Vibration to all contained in the pages of this Exchange. For these first 20 days I have done 20 minute meditations daily. This has really taken this whole process to a higher level for me.

At the same time, I have struggled in my life in other ways. Adjusting to a bigger family, more responsibility, more work, feeling exhausted, working, long weekends, etc. And my back pain, I think I am making major progress with my inversion table. The pain started coming back, so I went back to doing it twice a day. My body is going through a lot of changes, and I have a lot of stress. I am someone that stresses easily, so these meditations are an absolute necessity for me.

And I feel like meditation is nothing unless I am doing it as an act of service to others. Meditating just for myself is nothing at all. It means nothing, unless I dedicate its fruits to the improvement of humankind.

Sending Reiki to humanity

This is a real challenge for me. On several of my Reiki Collage Pages, I have pasted printouts of geographical locations, like the United States, Canada, Mexico, Afghanistan, Iraq, Ground Zero, Guantanamo Bay, Israel, Palestine, Ethiopia, with the intention that all the Universal Love I extend into this book, and all the Love everyone else does to, will flow to every human being, animal, plant within that region.

I have taken four major international trips in my life: London in 1988; Guatemala City in 2002 and 2003 to adopt Sky; Mumbai and New Delhi India in 2007 to adopt Prasad; and Addis Ababa Ethiopia in September of 2009 to Adopt Amelie.

Especially during the India and the Ethiopia trip, I was completely blown away by the sheer numbers of people. So many thousands, millions, all crammed into the smallest geographical areas. On the trip over there, in the airports, again I witnessed so many thousands and millions of people streaming by like a massive river.

Overwhelming, really.

So how could I, this person sitting in a room in Kansas with his hands around a book, transmit Universal Life Force Energy to everyone in a geographical region? That's crazy and egocentric, says one big huge part of me. Totally whacked.

The answer is: I can't. In my mind, it is simply too much. It is overwhelming, like I get lost in a sea of humanity if I think about sending Love to all of them at the same time. But nevertheless, I am not taking the printouts out of the book, because its not just my Love I am sending to them all, but the Energy anyone, anywhere, at any time, sends into this book - is also flowing to all those people in that geographical region. If I think about 1,000 people or more sending the Love, then it is not so monumental to me.

Set aside the millions of people on Earth that I am praying for in this strange way of sending the Love through my hands, set all those millions of people aside, I am having a hard time dealing with the five kids in my house. I am feeling exhausted, overwhelmed, like nothing I do is getting through to them. Wiped out. Stressed out. I knew there would be a transition period, but I am feeling it. All my family is in this book (relatives too), so I am working really hard about being an effortless channel of Love to them.

Did I bite off more than I can chew in creating this global healing book? Especially when I am feeling so tired at home? Whatever the answer, I am just going to keep going.

Anyway, back to the point of what I am trying to express. My AHA:

It all starts, and ends really, with bathing my own mind and body in unconditional Love. I need to completely and transcendentally and unconditionally Love myself, first, foremost, and always.

Loving myself, both transcendentally and unconditionally, is the key that unlocks the universe, and allows the Universal Love to reach my children, my wife, my community, and all those millions of people. Loving myself is the access point to the Quantum Field of the Universe where we all are one.

My Mantra

With the Transcendent Love that I am...

I Love myself unconditionally...

With my deep in-breath, I pull my heart into the Divine and with each exhale, I pour Universal Love into my cells, atoms, heart, and mind. And within this fluid movement of my breath, I repeat, feel, and vibrate this Mantra.

There is no such thing as global healing....

Only self-healing that has gone global. I get it. I really get it. To Love myself is to Love the Divine. To Love the Divine is to Love all humanity, the earth, and all of life everywhere.

I am going on a journey now, of chanting the Mantra 10,000 times. When I send Love into this Exchange, my main focus will be on Loving myself in the highest, most beautiful way possible - and forgiving myself completely.

Parenting

Loving myself, completely, unconditionally, transcendentally, is the key to good parenting as well, because I believe that our children pick up and carry with them our unconscious beliefs and patterns.All parents have that "unconscious closet" where we hide all our gunk and secrets. Unless we deal with these skeletons, these traumas, these old issues - our kids will find that closet and start wearing our unconscious costumes.

Our unconscious becomes their unconscious.

Our patterns become theirs.

So if I can fully heal myself on all levels, that Self-Love will automatically flow to them because, in reality, my kids are me. They are my blood, my heart, my breath, my dreams - they are everything to me. I think every parent could say that. So by Loving myself, I am Loving them, and having a larger impact on their lives than anything else.

Day 14

Boy, have I been busy at home dealing with what seems like an army of children, but in reality it is only a few kids. I have been feeling really swamped in so many ways. It is day 14 of this new journey, and I am really ecstatic. I have been "Ommmm......ing" into the book, and into this Exchange every day now for 20 minutes at a time. I really feel myself drop down into an ecstatic state of oneness, and I can feel the OM vibrate through the quantum radio antennas of my cells and atoms - to all. It feels really fantastic.

I have also been re-writing the 108 questions that I started this year with. That feels good.

The main challenge for me has been my 9 and 8 year old boys. If one of them is not having a meltdown, the other one is. It's like they take turns with their problems. They are never having problems at the same time. And it also feels like they are shooting a "machine gun" of demands and wants and desires at me all day long. Ratta-tat--tattt--rattta---tatt-tatt. God, it is exhausting. In the meantime, our 1 year old is a dream. She sleeps wonderful, and only has fits when she is tired and wants to go to bed.

The Dog Whisperer guy, Ceasar Millan, had a lot of good advice for dogs, which Christine and I applied to kids today, and it worked really good. His main message is that if you are feeling tense and angry and cranky, the dogs (in this case, kids) will reflect that back to you. So you have to be calm and dominant, totally at ease in your role as "pack leader." We did that, and it really worked. It can be a real challenge to stay calm. A real challenge. Did I say it is a real challenge?

I fell off the wagon as for the juicing goes, but I'll get back on again.

I am so deeply grateful to send the Love every day - so really grateful!!1

Day 8 A new puppy, relief from pain, and celebration

I am keeping track of the number of days in my paper calender (I am a number person) so that when I blog, I will always know which day it is. I am glad I started to count up instead of down.

21 day cleansing diet

I have started raw juicing again, for the longest time, I couldn't get myself to do it again. I am really glad. This is day 2. Yesterday, I blended raw green leafy vegetables, carrots, and apple juice, and drank that all day - along with some raw food from www.twomomsintheraw.com I am feeling really good about that.

Sciatica, or better said "Sigh-aaaaat-icccaaaaaaaaa"

My inversion table, I am so thrilled to say, has greatly reduced this chronic pain in my right buttock and all the way down my right leg. This has been the most chronic pain I have felt in my whole life. But I have been "inverting" upside down in my inversion table for 8 minutes in the morning and 8 minutes in the afternoon. I tried 10 minutes morning and afternoon on Halloween, but I felt really groggy all day. So I went back to 8 minutes twice a day. I will try to increase it again someday, but for now I am happy. It really feels absolutely fantastic for my body to completely and naturally stretch. It naturally pulls the discs in my spine apart, relieving the stress on the root of the sciatic nerve. PLUS, it gives me a mental energy that really lasts all day long. It is a great mental feeling. Wow. I am so excited to finally have some relief. I have been able to sleep on my right side.

12 beating hearts

We now have 12 beating hearts in our family. Humans: Me. Jill. Sorin. Liam. Sky. Prasad. Amelie. Animals: Emily the dog. Lakshmi the dog. Hanuman the puppy. Zeke the cat. Gaia the cat.

This last weekend was a doooozy. So much going on all day. Thank God Amelie is a relaxed, easy baby, or we probably would never have taken on a new boxer. I felt my brain turning to jello several times over the weekend, so I was really glad to make it to Monday when I could drive to work and let my brain air out. We had a family meeting on Sunday, and it really felt wonderful. A spirit of love enveloped the table (a nice break from the constant demands, arguing, and bickering) and each person had a chance to talk. And we all listened. It was really awesome.

Hanuman

Our new puppy is so darling. A black and white boxer. He has one side of his face white, and another black. I love his white eyelashes on one eye, and the black on the other. I love just looking at him, but I don't love all the accidents in the kitchen!

Om.

I have been toning (either aloud, in a whisper, or mentally) the sound of Aum, or Om, while sending Universal Love into this Exchange. I did 3 20 minute sessions yesterday, and two today. I may try and do another one. I can really feel the Energy so much more powerfully when I tone "Om"

Excited

I am celebrating so much to know that my sister-in-law and her husband found new opportunities out east and will be traveling soon. It is so wonderful to share in good news. My heart is overflowing with gratitude for them!