Day 21 - AHA

Review

I have been experiencing a major AHA in my approach to sending Universal Love to others through the book I wrote. The last 144 pages have a Reiki Collage on them, which looks like a lot of squiggly lines and shapes. But they are Reiki Symbols, which help the mind to focus the intent of transmitting the healing Life-Force Energy to others for their highest benefit. I have a lot of photos I pasted on them, as well as names of people I have just written down. The point is to close the book, place my hands around it, and then transmit this Universal Energy to all of them at once. I have been doing this since May of this year. I went 174 days in a row, then missed a day on day 175.

Now I am starting over, and I am on day 20. I decided to focus on three year periods at a time. The first three years I am focusing on the Life-Force Energy as AUM, or OM, the primordial Sound that gave birth to matter and form. I breathe deeply, opening my heart, mind, cells and atoms with each long inhaling breath, and as I exhale, I chant OMMMMM, or whisper OMMMM, and then I send this OM Vibration to all contained in the pages of this Exchange. For these first 20 days I have done 20 minute meditations daily. This has really taken this whole process to a higher level for me.

At the same time, I have struggled in my life in other ways. Adjusting to a bigger family, more responsibility, more work, feeling exhausted, working, long weekends, etc. And my back pain, I think I am making major progress with my inversion table. The pain started coming back, so I went back to doing it twice a day. My body is going through a lot of changes, and I have a lot of stress. I am someone that stresses easily, so these meditations are an absolute necessity for me.

And I feel like meditation is nothing unless I am doing it as an act of service to others. Meditating just for myself is nothing at all. It means nothing, unless I dedicate its fruits to the improvement of humankind.

Sending Reiki to humanity

This is a real challenge for me. On several of my Reiki Collage Pages, I have pasted printouts of geographical locations, like the United States, Canada, Mexico, Afghanistan, Iraq, Ground Zero, Guantanamo Bay, Israel, Palestine, Ethiopia, with the intention that all the Universal Love I extend into this book, and all the Love everyone else does to, will flow to every human being, animal, plant within that region.

I have taken four major international trips in my life: London in 1988; Guatemala City in 2002 and 2003 to adopt Sky; Mumbai and New Delhi India in 2007 to adopt Prasad; and Addis Ababa Ethiopia in September of 2009 to Adopt Amelie.

Especially during the India and the Ethiopia trip, I was completely blown away by the sheer numbers of people. So many thousands, millions, all crammed into the smallest geographical areas. On the trip over there, in the airports, again I witnessed so many thousands and millions of people streaming by like a massive river.

Overwhelming, really.

So how could I, this person sitting in a room in Kansas with his hands around a book, transmit Universal Life Force Energy to everyone in a geographical region? That's crazy and egocentric, says one big huge part of me. Totally whacked.

The answer is: I can't. In my mind, it is simply too much. It is overwhelming, like I get lost in a sea of humanity if I think about sending Love to all of them at the same time. But nevertheless, I am not taking the printouts out of the book, because its not just my Love I am sending to them all, but the Energy anyone, anywhere, at any time, sends into this book - is also flowing to all those people in that geographical region. If I think about 1,000 people or more sending the Love, then it is not so monumental to me.

Set aside the millions of people on Earth that I am praying for in this strange way of sending the Love through my hands, set all those millions of people aside, I am having a hard time dealing with the five kids in my house. I am feeling exhausted, overwhelmed, like nothing I do is getting through to them. Wiped out. Stressed out. I knew there would be a transition period, but I am feeling it. All my family is in this book (relatives too), so I am working really hard about being an effortless channel of Love to them.

Did I bite off more than I can chew in creating this global healing book? Especially when I am feeling so tired at home? Whatever the answer, I am just going to keep going.

Anyway, back to the point of what I am trying to express. My AHA:

It all starts, and ends really, with bathing my own mind and body in unconditional Love. I need to completely and transcendentally and unconditionally Love myself, first, foremost, and always.

Loving myself, both transcendentally and unconditionally, is the key that unlocks the universe, and allows the Universal Love to reach my children, my wife, my community, and all those millions of people. Loving myself is the access point to the Quantum Field of the Universe where we all are one.

My Mantra

With the Transcendent Love that I am...

I Love myself unconditionally...

With my deep in-breath, I pull my heart into the Divine and with each exhale, I pour Universal Love into my cells, atoms, heart, and mind. And within this fluid movement of my breath, I repeat, feel, and vibrate this Mantra.

There is no such thing as global healing....

Only self-healing that has gone global. I get it. I really get it. To Love myself is to Love the Divine. To Love the Divine is to Love all humanity, the earth, and all of life everywhere.

I am going on a journey now, of chanting the Mantra 10,000 times. When I send Love into this Exchange, my main focus will be on Loving myself in the highest, most beautiful way possible - and forgiving myself completely.

Parenting

Loving myself, completely, unconditionally, transcendentally, is the key to good parenting as well, because I believe that our children pick up and carry with them our unconscious beliefs and patterns.All parents have that "unconscious closet" where we hide all our gunk and secrets. Unless we deal with these skeletons, these traumas, these old issues - our kids will find that closet and start wearing our unconscious costumes.

Our unconscious becomes their unconscious.

Our patterns become theirs.

So if I can fully heal myself on all levels, that Self-Love will automatically flow to them because, in reality, my kids are me. They are my blood, my heart, my breath, my dreams - they are everything to me. I think every parent could say that. So by Loving myself, I am Loving them, and having a larger impact on their lives than anything else.