144 miles in 48 days - Day 2

~Did my spirit-walk of 3 miles this morning~
Although I am not feeling well, and I am achy, I did the 3 miles, and it felt good to do it.

Day 58 - Sending the Love

~Transmitted the Universal Love this morning~
I have been feeling very tired, run down, and cranky lately because I have been running on no sleep. I am fighting off a cold, and my energy is depleted. I did get up this morning and channeled the Reiki/Universal Love, and it felt really good.

144 miles in 48 days - Day 1 - first 3 miles done

I walked my first three miles of this journey this morning. It was very wonderful, deeply spiritual, and very refreshing.

My daughter Amelie
I placed the mental image of my daughter Amelie in the center of my forehead, into my spiritual eye, and I walked my quantum prayers for her safe journey home to Lawrence Kansas. I walked for her happy childhood, for her adolescence, for her young and mature adulthood. I walked for her long and healthy life. I walked for her at 12 years old, at 15 years old and onward. I walked so that she could NOW feel my footsteps in the pages of her heart, that she would feel her Daddy's Love reaching like a rainbow over time and space, over the Oceans and countries, and wrapping her in a blanket of comfort and peace.

Euna Lee and Laura Ling
I also placed and image of Euna Lee and Laura Ling in that spiritual center between my eyebrows, and I walked my prayers for their immediate and safe release. I walked for their comfort. May my every step send a pulse of light, of healing, of protection, and joy to them. And I walked for her captors, that their hearts and minds will see a way to release them safely back to the arms of their families.

The people of Iran
I imagined myself walking through Theran, Iran. I mentally reached my hands out and held the hands of those brave and courageous protestors risking their lives so their country can be free to collectively choose their destiny through the democratic process. I walked with them and for them. And I walked so that the hands and hearts of those clinging for power can release their fear and allow the voices of the people to be heard.

All within this Universal Life Force Energy Exchange
I also walked for the immediate healing, abundance, joy, and upliftment of all the beings who are represented by the names and photos contained within my ULFEE book. I walked to activate the flow of Reiki and Universal Love to and through them for the benefit of all life everywhere.

The mysterious power of walking our prayers
There is something indescribable about walking our prayers. It is like Universal Love, all that Divine Energy, gets translated into miracles when we move our feet.

The relationship between my 12 minutes a day and walking 144 miles in 48 days
When I am sitting and stretching open my heart with each deep inhaling breath, and then allowing Universal Love to flow through my hands on each exhaling breath - I feel a connection with my 1 hour spirit-walk. And when I am walking, I feel a connection with the 12 minutes. There definitely is an interrelation between the two.

Day 57 - Back home - (144 miles in 48 days -1)

~ Transmitted the Love ~
I could have slept longer this morning, and I feel sniffly from the drive and from the stress of traveling. I am feeling much better after getting up and taking my Vitalagy and sitting in my green chair. It is so wonderful to be back in my familiar surroundings, and my own bed!

Walking 144 Miles in 48 Days
A few years ago, I did this, and it was incredibly powerful, not just for the physical aspect, but more for the mental, emotional, and spiritual impact it had on me. Because I am walking my prayers. I am walking FOR someone else. Each step is an activating, quantum prayer for others. It is extremely powerful.

We have been going on Pilgrimages from since the beginning of time. Mine is this: I will walk for 3 miles every day in a row for 48 days, which will come to 144 miles.

I am walking for:


1. For my daughter Amelie, whom we will travel to Ethiopia and pick up in late August. I walk for her health, her happiness, her long life, and her joy.

2. For the immediate release of Euna Lee and Laura Ling. I walk for their comfort, for their healing, for their resolve to hang in there, and I walk my prayers for their release. May every step I take contribute in a small way, in consciousness, to their release.

3. For the people of Iran. For their ultimate freedom as a people, individually and collectively, and for the upliftment of their incredible culture.

4. The immediate health, love, happiness, and total freedom of all contained within this Exchange. I am walking to communicate Universal, Unconditional Love to all within this Exchange, and all life everywhere.

Off I go....

Day 56 - Schaumburg Illinois

~Transmitted the Reiki into the Exchange~

I am feeling much less mentally diverted and distracted from this daily 12 minute practice.

I woke up early and did my Reiki~Love~Transmission Meditation sitting in the couch of the hotel suite we are staying in. We had a great time. Last night we ate at the Indian restaurant, and then had a lot of fun with the kids doing arts and crafts. I welcome the opportunity to drive home. It's going to be a long drive.

Day 55 - Schaumburg Ilinois - Chicago

~~ Sent the Reiki ~~

After two wonderful days with Stephanie, Lars, Zoe, and Jonah, we have migrated a little north to Schaumburg for a reunion of children adopted from Mumbai India. Our son Andrew (from Mumbai India) and our son Sky (Guatemala) had a magnificent time last night leaping with carefree abandon into the swimming pool. It was so wonderful to see some of the children we saw last year get a little bigger, and its nice to see some new children. They are so darling and so cute!

We also got our Ethiopian Court Date, July 14, in which we are very hopeful we will pass and our daughter will be legally ours. The only thing after that is to hop over there, scoop her up, leap over to the Embassy, yadda yadda yadda, and hop back home - so we can adjust to this big soul and settle into a totally new routine.

I totally believe, feel, and know that all the Love I pour into the pages of this Exchange - NOW reaches my daughter in Ethiopia. I have her big picture on one page of my book, looking up at me with that "what are you doing? why are you taking my picture?" look on her face.

It is early. We had a fitful night of sleep last night. Andrew kept whispering. Sky kicked me only once, and for the most part he was still. It was just a restless night of sleep last night.

I am starting to want to go home. Tomorrow, we will be on our way.

Day 54 - Chicago

~~ With a breath, I am grateful to have channeled the Reiki again ~~

I sat on the bean bag downstairs in my sister-in-law's house and did my breathing and channeling of the Energy. I can really see how trips can mentally "throw me off" so again, it was really nice to re-boot my mind and body with the Love-Transmission Meditation. I held the "book" between my hands and intended, felt, and allowed the Universal Energy to flow to all who are now, or will ever be, contained within this Exchange. My book is filling up with the names and photos of others, and it is nice to let-go. Once I breathe open my cells to the Universal Flow, once the Energy flows through my hands, it is out of my hands!

Day 53 - Chicago

Transmitted the Reiki Energy - Universal Love

After an 11 hour drive yesterday, I realize how easy it is for road trips to throw off a routine. This is why it felt so good to wake up this morning and breathe deeply and send the Energy. Sky got sick last night and Christine didn't sleep very well. I slept better. I am very grateful to be in Chicago visiting Stephanie, Lars, Zoe, Jonah, and Pooh the wise kitty!

Day 52 - Chicago bound

~~ Transmitted the Reiki ~~

Got up at 5:30 this morning to have time to do my Love-Transmission Meditation. It felt really wonderful, although I am still a little tired.

A mad rush awaits me. We have to finish packing, run around the house, get Liam ready for the bus, pack the car, try not to forget anything, feed the kids breakfast, and be wiped out before we get in the car! Haha....

We are Chicago bound!

Day 51

~~ Transmitted the Divine Love ~~

I am feeling really good this morning. I am glad to have gotten up early to send the Reiki. It is going to be 100 degrees in Kansas and Kansas City today. I am going to be driving in it. Wow. And the heat index is going to be 110. I can feel the heat already pounding in through the east window to my right.

I pray with all my heart for the people of Iran - that they might know true freedom - true peace - true joy - true abundance. I pray with all my heart for Euna Lee and Laura Ling. I keep affirming that they have been released.

Court date?

Christine and I are also anxiously awaiting news of a possible court date in Ethiopia. We are hoping to hear something this week! ::))

It is now time to get the show on the road. 100 degrees, here I come!

Day 50

Dear Hafiz
you ole Drunkard of Love

Meet me
in the garden of my heart.

Let's get so intoxicated
so wasted
so inebriated
together

on the Divine Drink

that we forget time
and

remember

our home together
in the
Beloved.

Day 50 - Feeling fantastic

~~ Sent the Love ~~

I have been reminded of a phrase that came bubbling up from my unconscious mind, "The ego protests the loudest right before the miracle occurs." I am sure I read that somewhere.

It is definitely true for me. The lawyer CLE really made me cranky Thursday and Friday, yet it was much more than that. I felt like I was getting cleaned out, or like the dust of my mind was getting kicked up from all this Universal Energy I have been drawing and running through my mind and body. It is like blowing on a dusty table. All those particles (thoughts and old gunky stuff) flies into the air of consciousness. The trick is to not get afraid of all that - it doesn't last. Just keep running the Energy.

By Saturday and Sunday especially, I am feeling absolutely fantastic. A real high. I am feeling so much joy in giving the Love every day.

Don't know much else to say, except that my awareness is growing by leaps and bounds. My consciousness is transforming in ways I don't quite understand.

I am preparing for a trip to Chicago, and so I am very busy, but will blog as much as possible.

Day 49 To the Universe ~ thank you

~~ Sent the Love ~~

I am deeply honored to have communicated this Reiki, this Universal Light and Love again through my heart and hands. It is such a pleasure, such a joy... My gratitude for the privilege of doing this every day is overwhelming.

I want to remind myself of the power of doing one small thing every day, mastering that one small thing, and doing it over the long haul. 49 days of a 4,380 day journey - I have just begun making a few steps, but these few steps have been really wonderful.

Right now, Christine is sleeping, Andrew is going bonkers wanting out of his room, and Sky is downstairs watching PBS kids. The sun is hitting the window, the day is sneaking in. I can feel it is going to be HOT - Kansas HOT today.

It is father's day, and I remind myself today what an amazing gift it is to be a dad to two adopted boys and two step children. These are MY BOYS just as if they were biologically derived from my DNA. Christine and I tried the traditional route, but all that Mary Jane in my childhood 20 plus years ago, I think fried my little swimmers. Nevertheless, I would not have it any other way. I would never go back and do it differently. These are incredible children, beautiful and bright and wonderful boys - and I am going to be the father of an African American girl, a beautiful bright eyed little girl. In about a few months, my life is going to take a quantum leap in labor, and a quantum leap in Love!

I have more photos to add to my ULFEE book. More photos to paste. More beautiful, smiling people that I have the HONOR of sending this Energy too.

Time to tackle Sunday.

Time for morning tea.

Time for morning dramas with the boys.

Time to go to meditation.

Time to enjoy fathers day!

Day 48 - stamina, money, new way to get the book out there

~~ Transmitted the Energy ~~

Keep in keepin` on

Yesterday was really hard for me. I was exhausted, overwhelmed, cranky, tired, hungry - all of the above. It was just a really exhausting day for me. I think the whole week caught up with me, getting up early, getting up early, getting up early - but I wouldn't have it any other way. The lawyer "continuing education" was really, really hard for me to sit through - because that is just not where I wanted to be. Thursday was enormously long, and Friday was long too - except that it wasn't the whole day. Which is good.

Is this blog monotonous?

I am wondering about this. Is all I am doing, is getting on here and saying "I sent the Love, I sent the Love, I sent the Love again. It feels great." Is it like a gerbil wheel? I am going to try and freshen the whole thing up, mix it up. I want to talk about how this practice is transforming each area of my life, how it is impacting my consciousness. I also feel a need to remember, in a healthy way and from a healthy perspective, my past.

Doubts, doubts, doubts

My ego, the skeptical part of me, is also questioning everything. Is this really working? Is it helping others? Are the people in this book even feeling anything at all? Are you wasting your time? My god, 12 years is a long time. Blah blah blah.

I don't really have an answer as to whether this Energy I am communicating to others for their healing benefit is making a difference at all. All I can say is that it is changing me, it is transforming my consciousness. It is making me happy. And I would also say that it really isn't up to me at all whether this is helping. Once I breathe open my heart, my mind, my soul, my hands, my cells, and my atoms - and intend and allow this Energy to flow - I must completely let go. I must completely release any desire for results. It's not up to me. It's not about me. My goal is to disappear.

Money

I have a lot of internal barriers, beliefs, and thoughts about money and abundance that I must clear from my consciousness. The first one is, "I am not allowed to prosper doing something that I truly love to do." That's a big one. Let me use Emotional Freedom Techniques to clear that one.

Where does that thought originate, I wonder? Well, my dad's core belief about money was this: money is the holy grail. It is everything, go after it at all costs. He used money to exercise power and control over others, and loved every minute of it. He could never have enough. He always wanted more, more, and more. At the same time, he was also really irresponsible with money. It flew away from him like the wind. He let people lie and take advantage of him again and again. All they had to do was promise him millions, and he would fork over his hard earned bucks.

What about my mom? My mom was 24 when I was born, and I was the youngest of 5. My dad was 57. He lived in Kansas City. We lived in Colorado Springs. He flew out every weekend, and took my mom to a hotel room with a bottle of scotch whiskey. He was sloppy and disgusting with my mom. She felt completely trapped. My dad was rich. She had nothing. He had all the power, and she had all these children that she was raising by herself. She felt like she had to take his money and sleep with him, to get his money, because she needed it. There were lots of angry fights between them when I was really, really young. My dad was old and gross and greedy, my mom was young and pretty and trapped.

So what about my mom's thoughts about money? Money was evil, disgusting. She hated money and all the crap that came along with it.

So being the son of Rosalie and Alex, I inherited both thoughts about money. Money is evil, something to be despised, and money is something you can't have enough of...

Talk about internal confusion.

EFT set up phrases:

While rubbing my sore spot: Even though my mom hated money, and my dad craved it, I accept myself unconditionally.

Then I tap my acupressure points while repeating "My mom hated money and my dad craved it."

I can feel those thoughts of mom and dad being released. I love them both.

After I energetically zap those beliefs I install this one: I deserve to prosper doing what I love. Money is neither good, nor evil. It is just energy. And I charge money with Universal Energy to do the will of goodness, love, and service.

The book

This brings me to the Universal Life Force Energy Exchange book. Part of me feels guilty for even wanting to sell it, and a part of me wants it to succeed.

Even though I feel guilty for wishing to prosper from my book, I accept myself anyway.

Then I tap on my acupressure points, and clear that guilt from my energy field.

A new way to think about money for me

Money is energy. Money is thoughts. It is paper that represents our time, our energy, our lives. So what I have learned to do, is every time I receive money from any source, I place it between my hands, breathe deeply and pour Universal Love into it - until I see the money as Light, as Love, as Energy. Then I mentally imprint a "20 Fold Increase in Abundance" into that Energy for both myself, those that gave me the money, and those I will give the money to. (bills, bank deposits, etc.)

There is a section in my book that explains how to do this in more detail, and then on page 37, there is space to "place," either physically by placing the cash or checks there, or mentally by imagining that our money is in that space. Then we close the book and pour Love into it, with the intention that the money abundance will be charged with, and transformed into Love Energy, with a 20 Fold Increase in Abundance written into it.

So... my new way to distribute this book

I have decided to send it to people first, and for free, and then accept donations now, or later, from the people who receive it. My intention is to give as many copies away as possible, with trust that those who are able to make a love-offering of money, will do so. I would give this book away completely if I could. My purpose is to help get it into the hands of at least 10,000 people who each fill it up with the names or photos or sacred intentions of between 144 and 1,728 people or more.

I believe that the hearts, minds, and bodies of those giving Love through their hands for 12 minutes a day will completely transform, and the 1.4 million plus people receiving this Love will also benefit in a major way.

I believe this will concentrate, increase, and expand the Power of Pure Love in this world in a major, major way.

I believe this will help increase the Vibrational Resonance of the Entire Quantum Field of Life, and help in a small way, the world move to more sustainability, balance, and Love.

So I will mail this book to anyone who asks for it. Period. And only if those people feel empowered when sending Love into this Exchange, and if they are called to do so, can make a love-offering of money. This is like putting it out into the world in a simple, pure way. With trust that there will be enough money coming back in, to print and give away more books.

Of course I can't go busted doing this. I must be able to afford it, so I am trying it this way to see how it goes.

So here is my plan:

1. I give the book to anyone that asks. Along with all the 30 relaxing, transformative audios.

2. Those who like it can make a donation in any amount at any time (suggested range is anywhere between 39.00 and 99.00. Less than 39.00 is accepted. More than 99.00 is accepted.)

3. I ask that, before anyone makes a donation, they first place (either mentally by feeling or visualizing the money in that space, or physically by placing a check there) on page 37 of the book, then close the book. Sandwich the book between your hands, breathe deeply, and pour Love into the abundance, and mentally "write in" a 20 Fold Increase in Abundance into it, AND THEN AND ONLY THEN, send the money, make the donation, etc.

4. Once the money is received, I will also place it on page 37, and pour Universal Energy into the money, see it as Universal Love, and imprint a 20 Fold Increase in Abundance for both the giver and the receiver, into that money.

I believe this: If we took the money that we receive, and first poured our deepest Love, thanks, gratitude, and Universal Energy into it - then that would create a more attractive charge - and we would attract more money. I have tried this in my law practice, and every time I do it, I seem to get more abundance flowing into my life.

So that is how I wish to see this book distributed. I envision that there are 10,000 books that have been given away first, that those 10,000 books are filled to overflowing with pictures, prayers, names, and intentions, and that more than 1.4 million people are receiving and benefiting from that Energy in ways that are most supportive to their highest and greatest good.

And... with my deepest prayers, and by tapping on my acupressure points, I now release and cancel all attachment and all aversions to money. I let go of wanting money, and I let go of pushing money away. I think both block the flow of abundance.

I trust that whatever happens will be for my highest good, and for the highest healing, joy, and good of everyone who will ever be in the book and receive this Energy and Love. One thing for sure: I am very clear about my commitment to transmit the Love through my hands every day for the next 12 years.... and beyond.

Day 47 - Wings of Love or Lawyer training?

Transmitted the Universal Essence of Love again

I woke this morning, early, and sent the Love again. Yesterday, I had an all day seminar on continuing legal education so I can keep my day job. I have to sit through this seminar every year. It turned my brain to mush yesterday, sitting and trying not to listen to updates in areas of the law I don't practice in.

I would rather be feeling Universal Energy, Reiki, Chi, Prana, dancing fluidly through my heart and hands than sitting through an utterly boring and mundane seminar. I have to go back again today, but only for a half-day.

Behind every face, every name in my book - is the Divine.

Divine Mother of the Universe, Divine, Source, Intelligence, Love, God, Rama - you have gone by so many names, in so many centuries - Your Essence is Joy, Love, Peace, yet these are just words spoken by these mortal lips to describe You...

May You... the Diamond Heart of the Divine... the Source of Intelligence Wisdom Love...

May You feel, and receive all this Love I intend and allow to flow into this Exchange, into all of Life... and may I feel, and know, that it has been received. May all human beings be free, may all human beings be fed, may all human beings be safe, may all human beings feel Loved.

Behind every human face, is the face of Divine Love.

Day 46

Communicated the Universal Energy

I got up this morning and Sent the Love and Energy again this morning. I have been in seminars all day today - very long and boring seminars. I feel like my mind is going to melt into numbness. No Internet in this ballroom so I am thumbing this entry into my iPhone. What's really cool is that this iPhone corrects commo mispells as I go so I can just keep typing. I'm getting pretty fast at typing with my thumbs.

I am feeling the Energy much more, especially since I am drinking only liquids and nutritional shakes during the day and one solid meal a day. I am feeling the vibrations of my body more be more. What I do is break my liquid fast every day at 4 with a few nuts or a small snack. Food tastes really good when I eat less of it.

I feel my hands humming and vibrating a lit more these days and I am happy about that.

Another major shift is that I have been inwardly inspired to start out by giving away the book and then leaving it up to others to make a contribution if they choose. I intend to give as many books away as I can afford so we can fill them up withthe names and photos of others and increase the power of Love in this world.

Just like a stream that flows gently and patiently down the side of the mountain, so the River of Love is flowing down through my consciousness - slowly and patiently transforming me from within.

I gently hold to the truth of my freedom opening in the center of my chest like a wild flower of Love. I gently hold to my commitment to transmit this Reiki and healing Life Force for the highest good of my life, my family, my community, and this Earth.

Day 45 - Dahhdy! Dahhdy! Dahhdy!

~~ Sent the Reiki again for 12 minutes ~~

I woke up this morning and sat in my green chair to send the Energy through my hands, and about half-way through my session, I heard my son Sky, come into the room and sit in the other chair.

I heard loud sighs.

Then, "Dahhdy!"

I ignored him, because he knows I am obviously internalized, meditating, sending the Love. He knows that Mommy and Daddy meditate, and he knows and understands all about what I am doing. He is a good Energy transmitter himself.

"Daaahhhdy...."

Again, no response from me.

"Dahhhhhdy...."

I kept sending the Love through my hands, and when I was done, I had a talk with him. He wanted me to go downstairs and switch the channel because it was on the wrong station. He knows better than to interrupt someone's meditation. That's like a golden rule in our family.

I remember when we went and got him in Guatemala. He was 17 months old, and there was this drive from Antigua to Guatemala (we went to Antigua for sight-seeing) and I had him in my arms. He had fallen asleep. The traffic was heavy, and of course we had no seatbelts on. I remember going around this winding corner, and I looked up at the mountainside, and felt so much peace, so much joy, because he was in my arms. It didn't matter what happened in the future, because I was in the moment with my boy.

Day 44 - Shift

~~ Communicated the Life-Energy/Love again this morning ~~

I have been sleep deprived lately, because I would rather get up and experience the joy of feeling Universal Energy cascade through my hands. However, it has begun to catch up with me. Yesterday I got up around 5:45 and it made for an extremely long day. On top of that, I have decided to begin eating one solid meal a day, in the evening, while drinking my nourishment during the day. Yesterday, I was extremely hungry, cranky, and tired all day long. I was a ravenous monster by the time I got home. We ordered Indian food, and I snarkled it down like a man lost in the desert who just came across some food.

For many, many reasons and for many years (http://www.joyblisslove.blogspot.com is my prior blog which talks about diet issues) I have been carrying around excess energy in the form of extra fat cells on my body. I am not obese, but I am just over what would be considered healthy. I have done many fasts and all of them have been absolutely amazing. There is so much to be learned and discovered about myself by safe and effective fasting. However, it has been a struggle for me, and so I have decided to go down to one solid "chewing" meal a day for at least one year. Yesterday was day one, and it sucked.

Today, however, I am experiencing a major inward shift in my consciousness. I really cannot put it into words. It really doesn't have anything to do with my diet, and food - it more has to do with glimpses into a realization that I am not anything I am doing. I am not these fingers that are typing on this keyboard. I am not this breath, these thoughts, nor am I this body or any of these emotions or thoughts. I am not this brain. I am something completely beyond all that, and that Something is beyond my ability to describe it, except to say this: I am feeling a calmness, a peace, a strange type of "witnessing detachment" that feels really good.

I also notice these familiar little thoughts creeping around the house of my mind that wants to forget this Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange, that wants to move onto something else, that wants to find fault with it, that wants to stop doing this every day. I welcome these thoughts into the parlor room of my mind, and I will witness them. I just shine the light on them, and love them.

One such creature thought manifests like this, "12 years is a long time. There is no way you are going to make it. Too much can happen in 12 years to derail you. It's such a long, long time. Come back to reality.

My response: In the silent dimension of Love, all time is witnessed in the same eternal now. There really is no 12 years, there is only now. Every 12 minutes is one 12 minutes, every now moment is inner-mixed with every other now moment. Its all happening at the same eternal center of now. But thank you for sharing. Your welcome to stay and get warm by the fire.

Another such creature thought says, "Are you just fantasizing that this Universal Love really is going to all these places and people and making a difference in the world? What if all of this is not real?"

My response: If this is a fantasy, then it is one that makes me happy. Who care if it is, and who cares if it isn't. The tears coming down my face when I transmit this Energy tells me intuitively that this is real, however. You are also welcome here.

Another, "You are just trying to sell a book, you greedy %$^&%##"

My response: So what. There is nothing wrong with it. I like it. It made me happy writing it, and it makes me happy filling it with names and photographs and sending the Love into and through this Exchange every day. If it sells, I am wrapped in the Ecstatic Surge of Love. If not a single person ever buys it, then I will still be wrapped in the Ecstatic Surge of Love!

And another, "You are egotistical and full of yourself to think you can transmit Universal Love to thousands of people at the same time. What do you think you are, God?"

My response: I am created in the Image of Infinite Love - this means I am one with Infinite Love. Infinite Love can only create Infinite Love. So yes, I am the wave on the Ocean of Love, and being such a wave, I am one with the whole Ocean. And I will say this back to you: it is egotistical to hide from the magnificence within us. It is egotistical to be a coward and hide our faces from the brilliant light of Love shining through us. It is egotistical to claim that we are small, powerless, pitiful human bodies lost our greatness. It is time to stop being afraid of that brilliance, magnificence, joy, peace, and power that we are, at our core, and one with each other.

I allow every thought, every negative fear, every hiding face in my mind to just be, because I know that I am not any of them. I am beginning to see, to feel, and to directly experience that I am...

That I simply am...

That this I AM is completely still, silent, beyond, behind, and within all thoughts.

Okay - back to the idea of eating one solid meal a day

Got kind of sidetracked there. Even though my beingness is beyond thoughts, thoughts are still powerful packets of energy that literally create our bodies out of the Quantum Soup of the Universe. Everything we experience, whether it is hunger, pain, pleasure - whether we have more weight on our bodies than we want - whatever it is - has a thought behind it. A thought says, "I haven't had breakfast, therefore I am hungry." Yes, it is a physical sensation in the stomach that growls and groans and asks for food, but which comes first, the sensation in the belly that reaches the brain, or the brain sending signals to the belly? It is really hard to tell.

To the point.

Today, I have told myself very strongly, and have held these thoughts in mind, that I AM NOT HUNGRY. I have switched off the hunger signals: the emotional, mental, and physical hunger switches in my mind. And I am feeling much, much better today. I feel a little hungry, but not anything like the misery I went through yesterday. And I haven't had a shake yet today. So its all in the mind.

Here are a few things I believe and a few things I am discovering about food and eating:

It is a myth to think that we need to eat three meals a day. In fact, the more we overload our digestive system day in and day out, the shorter our lifespans will be. Anthony Robbins said, "Eat less to eat more, meaning if you eat less, you will live longer, and end up eating a lot more in the long-run" or something like that.

I am more receptive to the feelings of Energy and Love flowing through me when I consume less food. I am happier when I am on the hungry side than when I am on the full side.

I still have this compulsive eating entity within me - it started in childhood when I realized that eating a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, on after another, put a blanket over my emotional pain and helped me not feel it. I welcome this little guy into this silent, powerful, dimension of Love.

Day 43 - a beautiful Monday morning

~~ 12 minutes of Universal Energy sent sailing into the winds of the Quantum Field ~~

It is a beautiful Monday morning, and I am ecstatic to be up early. I had really deep and rich dreams last night, I don't remember them, but I am smiling. I feel the Reiki tingling in my heart and hands. This morning, Andrew and Liam starts summer school, and I just found out that Liam has a bus scheduled, but someone messed up and didn't schedule Andrew's. So I will be driving my son to school today, and maybe tomorrow too. It's okay. It's kind of cool. I will be able to walk him into school the first day.

Silence

Yesterday, I was able to not speak for 4 hours in the afternoon. It was very interesting, especially trying to discipline and communicate my kids for acting up. At one point, Andrew was "on the stool" (our version of time-out) and he was being intentionally loud, and I was on a silent retreat. So what did I do? I walked up to him and scolded him with body language only, telling him with hand-gestures to sit on that stool and be quiet. He was stunned, and sat there quietly and stayed quiet most all the rest of the day. Weird. It shows me how little "words coming out of our mouths" has to do with communication.


I pray for all the people in Iran - for their peace, freedom, happiness, and security. I pray that all the Energy and Love from people all over the world will reach that country and help gently heal and transform toxic rage and repression - and transform it into hope and openness and freedom.

Day 42 of 4,380 - butterfly wings and flowers in the palms of my hands

~~ Another 12 minutes of Love ~~

I am grateful, honored, humbled, and spiritually excited to send the Love again this morning. I got up early, I could hardly peel my eyes open, but once I began the breathing process and felt the Love flowing - all my cells and atoms woke up. It is a busy weekend with Chirstine, Liam, Sorin, Andrew, and Sky. Lots going on. This morning, it is my turn to do the "bath train" while Christine goes into the bliss of meditation. And it's all about to start. Just like yesterday, it is the calm before the family storm of activity.

During this meditation, I felt like I had wings that opened with each in breath, like a butterfly spreading her wings to the entire Universe... And I imagined flowers blooming in the palms of my hands. My hands were vibrating with Joy and Love, and I could literally feel the Energy flowing into the book and into the Exchange.

It felt like I was above my body, and had this Pitcher of Love Juice, and with a smile I was pouring it through the top of my head. Because Love is above and outside of time, I poured some Love into my body at 9:30, 10:30, and every hour after that until 4:30. I will see at those times, if I can feel the Love I sent myself. I want to stay more centered in the bliss today.

How is the silence going?

Shaking my head. I had a hard time doing it, because there is so much activity going on. I will try again, today. From 1 to 5 pm, I am going to try and be completely silent.

We shall see!

Day 41 - A silent retreat among the musical chaos of family life?

Something I would like to do

I have often thought of what it would be like to go completely silent for one year. To go to a cabin in the woods, and just sit for a year by myself and not speak or utter a single word. That would be amazing. What would I learn in this one full cycle of the seasons? I would probably start in spring.

Anyway, back to reality.

I am happily and joyously married to a bright and amazing Yogini. We have adopted one child from Guatemala, one child from India, and are working on our third from Ethiopia. That, along with two children that Christine had when we got married, and we have quite a big family.

Adoption is just adding to our family. It's not humanitarian work, and its not charity. These are our children, and they bless us way more than we have ever blessed them. Their presence in our lives have opened us up in ways I never imagined before.

So, back to the point: this makes for a very hectic, busy, chaotic, loud, musical, active life. It would be impossible to go silent, but is there a way for me to have a silent retreat among the chaos of family life?

I think there is so much energy wasted by idle chatter about nothing. I find myself doing it alot. So much, I find myself talking because I am bored, talking just to talk, literally about nothing. What if I did this:

Only spoke if speaking would be of service to the awakening of Love in the hearts of Christine, Sorin, Liam, Andrew, Sky, and coming-soon Amelie...

Mostly only speaking if I am asked a question, or speaking if it is necessary to do so...

Choosing the least amount of words necessary to convey what I need to say...

Before and after speaking, go back into silence...

On Sundays, have a four hour period of no speaking...

Pull the energy back that I waste from senseless chatter and staying focused on being a conduit of Universal Love, Life-Force Energy...

And what if I listened to the Ocean of Silence during the sacred chaos of life?...

Like right now, Sorin is next to me eating her bowl of cereal, I hear Sky upstairs building a new house with his "connects," the roofers are pounding on the roof, I hear a car in the distance, and clack of this keyboard - but within and behind all these sounds, is Silence.

Silence is the birthplace of all sound. Sound arises from the Oceanic Silence of the Universe, and empties into it as well. Then there are the Cosmic Sounds, the Roar of Om that we can hear only in deep meditation...

I would love to try practicing this, this weekend and see how I feel on Sunday.

Starting.....

Now.

Day 41 of 4,380 caught up on sleep

~~ Gave the Universal Energy~Love again for another 12 minutes ~~

This whole week, I have gotten up early and sat in my living room with the eastern sun gently shining through the window and channeled the Love. Doing this now has a higher priority in my life than sleep. This is one major change in my life, because I have been a notorious sleep mongor most of my life.

This morning, in the spirit of Hafiz, using my breath and imagination, I drank from the well of Universal Love and then sent it sailing through my hands. It felt really good.

I feel like a little boat approaching the chaos and storm of kids and baths and asking and telling and consequences and laundry and... and... and.... May I bring this Love, this Energy, into everything I do this weekend. May I stay in the infinitude of Now.

Silence

Day 40 of 4,380 - The Great Ones

~~ Commune...icated the Universal Love for another 12 minutes ~~

I am happy and ecstatic to have done this for another day. Thinking about this as one 4,380 day stretch can feel overwhelming, but I keep reminding myself that this is a one-day-at-a-time endeavor. I am not doing this for 12 years. I am doing this for one day, with the intention of it lasting for 12 years. It's almost like the 12 years is one day, because when I breathe continuously and pull my heart into Love, and then intend and allow it to flow down through my heart and hands - each 12 minutes blends into all of them. Even though this is a 12 year commitment, really it's just 12 minutes, 12 beautiful, eternal, ecstatic, freeing, smiling minutes. These moments are timeless.

When we drink from the wine of Love, we dance within every second of time. We are the future. We are the past. We are every possible outcome, every possible dimension. We are in all places and in all times when we are drunk with Love.

The Great Ones

One of the most beautiful parts of this experience for me, is channeling Love to the Great Ones - those masters, seen and unseen, known and unknown, of all great religions, traditions, and spiritual paths. I print out and paste their photos in my book, and every time I give the Reiki to the book and to all the names and photos and people contained within it, I also give the Reiki to them. All of them.

From Jesus to Buddha, Rumi to Patanjali, they are - I believe - all about Love. Being Love. Giving Love. Celebrating Love. Receiving Love. Communing in the Consciousness of Love.

So your giving the Buddha a Reiki treatment, eh? Why? The Buddha doesn't need Reiki - for he is the Buddha.

But can you imagine placing your hands on the Buddha, and giving him the Energy of Love? How amazing that would feel?

In short, I send them Love for myself, not them. For they already are fully awake in Transcendent Love. I do it for my benefit. Because as I learn to widen this riverbed of my heart, let-go, and give more and more Love, I begin to free myself from the illusion of form.

My goal is to pull the "theatre curtain" of these atoms and cells, and step behind the stage and see my body as wispy, dreamy, transparent energy, instead of a solid block of flesh and bones. My goal is to disappear in Love. It may take 12 years, it may take 1200 years or 1200 lifetimes - but there will come a "time" when I fully step out of time, and with one inhaling breath, I will see that nothing is real.

I do this because of how good it makes me feel. Nothing is more sweet and joyous than feeling Love flow through my hands. This Love, Reiki, Prana, Qui, Energy, Light, Joy - that consciously and deliberately flows through the beautiful, luminous hands of millions - may this Love wrap our Mother Earth in Light. May She feel the Love!!

Day 39 - Hafiz poem

I know the way you can get
When you have not had a drink of Love:

Your face hardens,
Your sweet muscles cramp,
Children become concerned
About a strange look that appears in your eyes
Which even begins to worry your own mirror
And nose.

Squirrels and birds sense your sadness
And call an important conference in a tall tree.
They decide which secret code to chant
To help your mind and soul.

Even angels fear that brand of madness
That arrays itself against the world
And throws sharp stones and spears into
The innocent
And into one's self.

O I know the way you can get
If you have not been out drinking Love:

You might rip apart
Every sentence your friends and teachers say,
Looking for hidden clauses.

You might weigh every word on a scale
Like a dead fish.

You might pull out a ruler to measure
From every angle in your darkness
The beautiful dimensions of a heart you once
Trusted.

I know the way you can get
If you have not had a drink from Love's
Hands.

That is why all the Great Ones speak of
The vital need
To keep Remembering God,
So you will come to know and see Him
As being so Playful
And Wanting,
Just Wanting to help.

That is why Hafiz says:
Bring your cup near me,
For I am a Sweet Old Vagabond
With an Infinite Leaking Barrel
Of Light and Laughter and Truth
That the Beloved has tied to my back.

Dear one,
Indeed, please bring your heart near me.
For all I care about
IS quenching your thirst for freedom!

All a Sane man can ever care about
Is giving Love!

Hafiz, from "I Heard God Laughing, Renderings of Hafiz" by Daniel Ladinsky

Day 39 of 4,380 - Unconditional Love to those Schmeigels of the world

~~Communicate the Universal Unconditional Love for another 12 minutes~~

Okay, I am learning something. I have been thinking about sending Universal, Unconditional Compassion, Energy, and Love to members of society that fill the world with ugliness, hate, and anger. When I send it to them, I am sending it through the Divine, through their Higher Selves, for their highest and greatest good. I definitely don't think they will change, or anything like that. I am just sending them Love for the sake of sending them Love, not for any other purpose. I mean, of all people, they need it the most. I truly believe that people who are the loudest in judging and condemning others, and who spread ugly energy, are the ones who are in the most pain, and are the ones who need unconditional Love the most.

It is still really hard for me to do this. I thought long and hard about this, and in the end, I am going to send Love to these four individuals. There are many others I could put in, but for now, I am just going to put these four into my book and send them Love. I pray for their happiness. I pray for their healing. I pray for their joy. I pray for the end of their suffering.

I also believe that these individuals reflect back to us aspects of ourselves that we still have not healed yet. We detest them, because they are showing us parts of ourselves that we detest. We shake our heads and judge them, because they are showing us parts of ourselves that we are judge. We can't Love them unconditionally yet, because we can't Love ourselves unconditionally yet. However, until we at least begin the process of Loving those around us that we despise, we can't really begin the process of Loving ourselves unconditionally. Our spiritual evolution is intertwined with theirs.

May all beings be free of suffering. ALL BEINGS. Not just the pretty, not just the ones I agree with, not just the ones that say things I like, not just the conservatives, or the liberals, or the enlightened, or the moral, or the "this," or the "that." May all beings be free of suffering -- free from fear and terror -- free from the suffocating, toxic prisons of rage and self-righteous anger -- free from the prison of loneliness.

May all beings be happy. ALL BEINGS.

For a month at least, I have been thinking about one prominent individual. I haven't yet been able to put him in this Exchange. I think about how old and broken, and isolated, and hardened, and lonely, and in pain he must be. I think, "if he was naked and sick, coughing and hungry, and he crawled up to a cabin I was in, and I had the medicine, the food, the shelter to help him, to ease his suffering, I would." He is a suffering human being - even though he enjoyed a position of power - he is in poverty - because he is lonely in spirit and love and compassion. At the same time, I completely disagree and loathe his actions in this world.

Mother Theresa, she would look at him like she would look at a leper on the streets of Kolkata, and she would Love him just the same. She always said that Jesus was disguising himself as sick and lonely people, and when she Loved them, she Loved Him. So true.

Mother Theresa, I open my heart and invite you into this Exchange. May the Spirit of your unconditional Love be present in this Exchange. May you feel all the Love flowing through this Exchange for the highest good of us all.

That's my prayer - and in her spirit - I pray for the happiness, for the end of suffering, of all those in this world that cause our heads to shake and our stomachs to turn. This Love - I transmit through the Divine - through their Higher Selves - for the sake of Love itself. May they realize that they are beautiful human beings.

Day 38 - baked into Bliss

I am
nothing.

Love
is everything.

I willingly sacrifice my
self

my
personality

my
wants desires emotions thoughts

at the alter of Love.

I open the Door to the Cosmic Oven
and smiling, I crawl in

and find a comfortable place
to "die"
to let-go
to transform
to surrender.

I ask the Divine:
"Turn on this Oven and crank it up!"

Cook
me

Bake
me into Bliss.

And when I am fully cooked,

When
my flesh is tender and
moist,

When the Juices of Joy
Bliss
Ecstasy
drip from my every pore,

may I be the
Heat

that cooked me.

Day 38 of 4,380 - how I send the Love

~~ Communicated the Love for another 12 minutes ~~

In the baby steps of this journey, with almost 40 steps into it, I am feeling more and more open and awake in my heart. My compassion for people is growing and growing. I am feeling more happy and more joyous by the day. I still have my daily challenges, but just like water dances over rocks on its journey down the mountain, so does this Universal Love and Life-Force Energy flow. God, words cannot describe how honored, and privileged, and grateful I am in sending this Love~Reiki~Energy every day.

How to send the Love

I have been asked how I send Love through my hands. Being trained in Reiki and Quantum Touch has helped, however, I believe that all human beings are hard-wired to the Unified Field of Love, and anyone can do it. Here is a nice, concise explanation of how to do it:

1. Hold a picture or pictures of those you love between your hands, or mentally place them between your cupped hands.

2. Breathe in DEEP and LONG, filling your lungs to capacity, and as you do, imagine that your heart center (in the middle of your back between your shoulder bladed) opens, expands, and rises to merge with all the Love and Energy in the Universe.

3. Immediately breathe out SMOOTH and SLOW, and completely relax every muscle, tendon, cell, and atom in your body and INTEND and ALLOW that Universal Energy to flow through the top of your head, through your arms - and SEND IT SAILING out of your hands.

4. Immediately breathe in again, and open, expand, rise, and transcend the center of your heart in oneness with the Universe - and again - allow that Love to flow.

5. Focus gently on your hands. Your hands are luminous, beautiful, and divine. Just intend and allow. Keep reminding yourself that this is about Love and only Love. Its about unconditional compassion for yourself and all beings.

6. You are loving yourself from a Transcendent place, and sending that Love through you to anyone and everyone, in any place or time you choose. It doesn't matter if the person is in front of you, or has passed away, or is in another time, or another place. Love doesn't care about all of that, because Love is everywhere present, in all places, all beings, and all moments of time. We are all one in this Energy.

7. Keep a deep, continuous rhythm of breathing, and consciously let-go of everything, lose yourself in the flow of this Love. Keep relaxing your body completely, deeper and deeper, and allow the Love to flow through you.

8. Consciously get lost in the flow of this Love. Once I send the Love, I completely let-go of any results, or expectations. I just release and know that this Energy knows where it needs to go.

Breathing deep - it is time to face the day!

Day 37 of 4,380 - a few poems

~~
May Universal,
Unconditional

Love

Flow through the

Tears

Of all Human Beings

And wash

Clean

Our
Pain

Our
mistakes

Our
failures

Revealing

Only

Joy!
~~

All humans
suffer

And all humans
breathe

And all humans
have the Divine
Potential

To breathe open
compassion

and transcend
suffering

Beginning with
ourselves.
~~

Day 37 of 4,380 - All smiles here

~~ Gave the Universal Love~Reiki~Life Force Energy for another 12 minutes ~~

I am grateful to open and expand my heart - deeply ecstatic actually - and communicate Universal Love and Life-Force Energy again this morning. It is a fresh, beautiful morning. My breath is a transportation device, allowing me to expand my consciousness, my heart, to greater and more expanded states of Universal Love -- and allowing me to extend that Love through my wide open heart, into this Life. What is even more beautiful is that all human beings are hard-wired to this Field of Love. When the breaths, imaginations, intent, and Love of human beings come together - we can and will transcend all our limitations.

"In this very breath that we take now lies the secret that all great teachers try to tell us." - Peter Matthiessen

I got this quote from the Twitter page of Lama Surya Das, the buddhist. It is very awesome in its simplicity. I love it. I believe that the breath contains all the mysteries of life, and when we can hop on its currents, we can surf through our cells and atoms and reveal how magnificently transparent our bodies are, and our world is. Then we can see how powerful our thoughts really are, how amazing it really is to extend this Energy of Love to all human beings, to all animals, to all plants, to the oceans, rivers, lakes, trees, mountains, fields, soil of the Earth.

A lesson in compassion from my son, Andrew. From my wife's blog

My wife and I went to Walgreens with our son, Andrew, to get some pictures to put in the photo album we are sending to Ethiopia for our daughter.....

I was standing in line, holding Andrew's hand while we waited to pick up Amelie's family photo album prints at Walgreen's. An elderly little lady turned around and smiled at us and Andrew very cordially said "Hello" to her. She lit up and said it back to Andrew with an even bigger smile, and then she walked past us. Andrew turned to me and said "Awww, Mom, she is so, so very sweet and old. I feel so sorry and sad for that poor lady." I asked him why he felt badly about her and he shared that she looks so old, wrinkly and can't walk very well. I looked into his eyes as he spoke, and his heart was literally weeping. I turned around and we watched her with a walker, slowly turning to go down an aisle. He said "Oh Mom. She is so beautiful, look at her." He saw a grace in her, despite her age. He saw beyond it. Andrew begged to run over and help her, but I told him she's okay and doing very well on her own. He continued to beg me until he walked over to the aisle and said "Umm, I wanted to tell you that you are BEAUTIFUL!" She barely glanced back at him, and I'm not sure if she could hear well. It felt like he couldn't think of anything else to say or do for her, but he just desperately needed to say something to connect somehow.

I was touched and stunned by his actions and how much it ripped his 9 year old heart out to see someone he perceived as suffering. I wondered how he was able to handle seeing even worse off maimed, starving and homeless people on the streets in India all those years. I have always sensed a very bold and determined soul in him regarding the need to serve and help others. As a parent, my present concerns lie in the issues of not talking to strangers and boundaries. He still has a long way to go regarding socially appropriate behaviors, and when he blurted the "beautiful" comment it was said loudly and dramatically. I told him that I see a beautiful and caring heart inside of him and I'm proud of him for sincerely wanting to help someone. I added that there are many ways he's going to be able to help people as he gets older; the world needs compassionate hearts like his.

I am thankful for such an oceanic boy!

Day 36 - a Noontime break from lawyering

My heart
may it explode

Now

into a million rivers of
compassion

To all beings
everywhere.

May all hearts
explode

also

and may rivers of Unconditional Love
flow

free.

Day 36 - My book is filling up and my heart overflowing

~~ Communicated the Universal Love~Reiki through my hands again ~~

One more day, and I send more Love into this book. This time, I got up at 5:50 am, so I could have time by myself in a quiet house in which to send the Reiki. It was absolutely divine! My book is filling up with the smiling faces and beautiful souls of more and more people, and I am honored beyond belief to send the Reiki through my hands, and through the Unified Field of Oneness, of Consciousness, to all contained in my book. It fills me with so much joy - more joy than I have ever felt. I have also been doing specific yoga breaths that I have learned, which is helping me become more aware of energy. Wow... I don't know what to say, except that I am smiling all the time, and I feel very "on fire" and passionate about this daily practice.

I added a ton of incredible, awesome, amazing people to my twitter-followers, which really, really excites me. There are so many inspiring people doing so much good in the world.

Please send Prayers~Energy~Love~Healing to Lisa Ling, Laura Ling, and Euna Lee, and to the entire Ling and Lee families.

God, I can't imagine what they must be feeling right now, the loneliness, the isolation. I pray for that they will feel the Love and Prayers that so many thousands of people are sending them, and I affirmatively pray that they will be released and reunited with their families at the first available opportunity.

Day 35 - Amidst the chaos

~~ Channeled the Universal Love ~~

This morning, right when I began to send the Energy, Andrew and Christine got up out of bed, and there was suddenly alot of noise surrounding me. I went deeper and continued to breathe, stretch my heart open, and focus the Energy. I had my Reiki toning audio playing pretty loudly in my ear, so it helped. Nevertheless, Andrew, my son who is very lively, bouncy, filled with energy, began to make a lot of noise. He started taking my picture with his toy camera from all sides, then he placed his hands over my hands, and placed his hands on my head. I kept going deeper and feeling the Energy cascade through me. I think it was sweet that he put his hands over my hands, and put his hands on my head.

I will find time to do another session later today... :)

I have also been seriously thinking about the relationship between sending the Love, and my diet. Are their foods that I can eat that will help me awaken to, and feel, this Love flowing through me more clearly and powerfully? If I eat more than I should, does this affect the awakening of my Love-Consciousness?

Day 34 - Reiki is Love is Joy is Life-Force Energy

~~ Sent the Love again ~~

Another Saturday morning has reached me, and I am deeply honored to have "sent" the Reiki flowing through my hands to all beings who will ever be within these quantum pages. I put quotations around"sent" because I believe there is an inherent Oneness among everyone, so I am really communing, or commune-icating this Energy through my hands for the highest and greatest good of all life. My book is slowly filling up. It feels so good, so joyous, so divine, so wonderful, that all these words to describe it fall short.

Reiki is a Japanese word that means Universal Life-Force Energy, or Energy from God, or Energy from the Divine

I have been doing Reiki, have been trained to the level of Reiki Master (but the word Master is something that makes me laugh, because being never be attained by a weekend workshop and attunement) in both the Usui and Karuna traditions. Reiki has totally changed my life. I first got Reiki 1 and 2 back in 1994, and then I drove to Wichita with a friend of mine and got my Reiki "Master" training. Then, in 2001 I got Karuna Reiki(tm) training, which was a really amazing weekend. Since then, I have been doing Reiki off and on. It has always been a part of my life.

I have also been trained in Quantum Touch, which is a really AWESOME modality for transmitting Energy. In QT, you use your breath and your intention to pool up Life-Force into your hands, and then place your hands around body parts to help lift up the vibration within it. In QT, all healing is self-healing. All we do is create a "resonance" or vibration around the body part, and then let the body heal itself. I read the book years ago and loved it. Then I spent a weekend in Springfield Missouri a few years ago. I had a spiritual encounter with a Master of Self-Realization Fellowship that is too profound, too incredible, to overwhelming to try and piece together in words. It's impossible to describe.

Anyway, what I am trying to say, is that I believe that Reiki IS Love IS Light IS Joy IS Energy IS God IS Goddess IS The Divine. It is all one in the same. I like to call it Love, because I love Love! Love is a beautiful word. So when I say, I "send the Love," I mean I send the Reiki, the Universal Life-Force Energy. It is not emotional Love - it is a Transpersonal Love, a Love beyond all my dramas, relationships, mistakes, failures, triumphs - beyond all my "stuff" - beyond all my emotional baggage - beyond it all. It is the Force that holds this magical dream of the Universe together for our learning and enjoyment.

I merge and melt and transcend when I breathe in deeply and imagine the center of my chest rising to higher vibrations of consciousness. Then I let-go and allow that Transcendent Love, that Energy, to flow through my mind, body, heart, hands - and into all the people who will ever be within this book - and MOST IMPORTANTLY - onward to every leaf, every blade of grass, every chunk of soil, ever molecule of water - to all Life on this planet. It is a simple technique of continuous breathing that anyone can do:

Breathe in deep and long, then open, expand, and pull your heart center into the Universe. Then breathe out and send that Expanded Love sailing through your hands - to anyone in any time, place, or dimension. Feel for any sensations in your hands. Focus deeply, yet in a relaxed way, upon them. Keep breathing continuously with no pause between in and out breaths, but relax the breath if you get a little dizzy. Just do your best to keep the breath flowing.

I deeply and quantomly affirmatively pray that this Energy, this Love, that I and others transmit, for any purpose, IS helping to open hearts and lift up the Life-Force of thousands, even millions of people to the simple power of Love. And it is helping to open the power of Compassion in more and more people everywhere. Compassion for ourselves first, then compassion for all beings.

The house is still quiet - it is the calm before the storm. Any minute now, Andrew and Sky will be up and around - getting wild and goofy and the day will begin. Liam will need breakfast. Laundry will need to be switched. The kitchen cleaned. May the Love I feel now, tingling so joyously within me - may this Love be translated and communicated into this house, into every piece of manual labor that I complete this weekend.

Day 33 - Smiling

~~Sent the Love~~

After a good night's sleep, I woke up this morning and sent the Love. I added a ton of more names to the book yesterday. I am deeply grateful and overflowing!

Day 32 - Super Long Day

Wow....

What an incredibly long day it has been. I almost don't remember this morning - feels so long ago. I am much too tired to write.

:)

Day 32 - got up extra early

Another 12 minutes communicated

I got up extra early this morning because my son was having belly pain, and I couldn't go back to sleep. It was 5:30 am when I got up this morning. With the soft light from the rising sun pouring through the window, I sent the Universal Love. After I was done I tried to get on this blog but our Internet went down - so now I am "thumbing" these words into my I-phone. My mind, although somewhat tired, feels wide awake. Sleep seems less important to me. I would rather be feeling Reiki/Universal Love flow through my hands, rather than sleep. I will probably get tired later, but for now, I feel good.

I got six ULFEE books yesterday, and sent one to a friend, and began to load another one with more names, photos, and intentions. So this morning, it is filled up a little more. I need to practice the "total sweeping release" on each long exhale a lot more. M

y mind follows my in-breath in expansion and immersion with the Universe, and I completely release, relax, and allow the Energy to flow through my hands on each exhale. I keep breathing and reminding myself that this is not about me. It is about Love and only Love.

Day 31 - my heart is smiling

The momentum continues

I am grateful and glad beyond belief, beyond description, for this daily practice. I sent another 12 "minutes" (it usually ends up being more) of Universal Energy into the Exchange this morning. My favorite thing to do is sit in this green chair I'm in, with a quiet house and my sleeping family all around me. It feels absolutely divine. Can't think of much to say, except that I am all juiced up with Love and Bliss for the day!

Yesterday was a day inside, at home, with my family. Today I venture out again to Kansas City world.

Day 30 - Fourth session of the day

Whew....


Did that feel good. Practice makes perfect, eh? Today has been a rainy day in beautiful, green Lawrence Kansas - and I have enjoyed a day at home with the whole tribe.

I have really been practicing the art of completely letting go, totally relaxing, on each exhale - to the point where I can let go of my body completely and just feel the Love flowing through me. I breathe in, I open, expand, and pull my heart up into the Divine. I breathe out, and direct the Deluge of Love through my hands - and into all the photos, or names, and or intentions of everyone who is now, or ever will be contained in this book. The Love reaches like a rainbow over time to reach all the future members within this Exchange, and it reaches them now, because there is only one now, and now is eternal.

I also get a strong sense what an incredibly long marathon this is. 12 years! 12 years! Wow, I am going to do this every day for 12 years!

As I channeled the Universal Love, I got a sense of how many days that is, and I felt an energetic connection between every 12 minute session in the next 12 years, all spiraling and spinning upon the infinity of now.

I'm happy!

Day 30 - Reflections after thirty days

:) Sent the Reiki~Love~Life-Force Energy again :)

It feels like just one day has passed. I look back on the last thirty days, and it feels like no time has passed at all. I experienced some emotional challenges around day 20, but then that little storm cleared up really fast.

Re-affirming my goal

I now re-affirm my goal and purpose for this long-term endeavor: to lose myself in the cascading Flow of Universal Love. Enlightenment. Spiritual Awakening. To serve humanity in the greatest way I can. To tangibly and vibrationally love our Mother Earth. To send Love through the Great Masters of All Religions - into the heart of the Divine.

I feel a calm come over me.

Today, I am feeling a Transcendent Calm come over me. Something very subtle has shifted within my consciousness. I am beginning to realize that nothing at all really matters but my decision to Love with as much abandon and surrender as I can. At the end of my days, it won't matter how much money I have, the things I own - what will matter - in fact the only thing that will matter at all - is how well did I love? Did I step up to the plate and Love with all I have? Did I do my best in giving Love?

Also, I am realizing that my thoughts don't matter too much at all. Millions of them come and go, and none of them really matter at all. Nor do my emotions matter a whole lot. They all are like clouds floating by.

In 12 years, there are 144 months. I have 143 to go.

Day 30 - I am not the body, mind, or thoughts

Sent the Love

Breathing in - all the way in - I consciously open my cells and atoms. Breathing out - all the way out - I step into the Flow of Transcendent Love. I breathe deeply and continuously, and flood this Love into the Quantum Unified Field for another 12 minutes.

It is a great thing to begin to realize

That I am not my mind, body, or thoughts - I am the pure freshness of Love flowing through them. Everything I do, all my experiences in life, from my marriage to my children, is to help me see that I am not my story. I am not my dramas. I am not my mistakes. I am not my failures, and I am not my successes. The thoughts that come and go, are not who I am. The feelings that come and go, are not who I am.

I am the Love beyond all thoughts, all feelings, all forms, all names.

Day 29 - my tingling hands

A busy day

I had a pretty busy day today. In my day job as a lawyer, I had two jammed together court appearances this morning, and one this afternoon. It felt like I was a pinball walking back and forth in the fast-up-and-coming summer heat.

My hands

I can feel them tingling more and more from the cumulative Energy and Universal Love I am running through them. My session this morning was at around 6:15 am, and my afternoon session was around 12:30. I am so honored and privileged to join with so many millions of other people on a psychic, spiritual level, and send this Energy into the world. It is good, clear, healing, powerful Love we are sending into the world. I re-affirm my commitment, daily, to bathe the photos, intentions, and names of others in Universal, Ecstatic, Blissful, Healing Energy and Love!

My life,
is defined and transformed
by my decision to
unfold

The Magnificent Love
and let it

flow

free.

Day 29 - a great Monday

Another 12 (oops... 16 minutes...) of Universal Energy

On this beautiful Monday morning, I got up early again and sait in this wonderful green chair and sent the Love~Energy. It is a very, very refreshing and awesome way to start my day. I wanted to get up early, because I have to get to one court early so I have time get to another court on time. I am going to have a rush of a morning, and then it will slow down later.

I had a really full weekend with my wife and four kids. Lots and lots and lots of activity and energy and... and... and... there is always an and....

I am so grateful for my family, for my beautiful wife who puts up with my quirky and freaky nature... for my eccentric and wild and funny and artistic and loud and "Kramer" like son, Andrew.... for my serious, funny, sweet, competitive, contemplative, heavy as a brick son, Sky... for my stepdaughter Sorin who is quirky and sweet and funny and loves movies... for my stepson Liam who is mysterious, quiet, a squeal of joy, and with a big smile... and for Amelie... my dear one, who I have YET to get to know... "DEAR UNIVERSE... thanks for putting me here. I'm having fun... help me not take things so seriously and laugh a lot more."