Day 48 - stamina, money, new way to get the book out there

~~ Transmitted the Energy ~~

Keep in keepin` on

Yesterday was really hard for me. I was exhausted, overwhelmed, cranky, tired, hungry - all of the above. It was just a really exhausting day for me. I think the whole week caught up with me, getting up early, getting up early, getting up early - but I wouldn't have it any other way. The lawyer "continuing education" was really, really hard for me to sit through - because that is just not where I wanted to be. Thursday was enormously long, and Friday was long too - except that it wasn't the whole day. Which is good.

Is this blog monotonous?

I am wondering about this. Is all I am doing, is getting on here and saying "I sent the Love, I sent the Love, I sent the Love again. It feels great." Is it like a gerbil wheel? I am going to try and freshen the whole thing up, mix it up. I want to talk about how this practice is transforming each area of my life, how it is impacting my consciousness. I also feel a need to remember, in a healthy way and from a healthy perspective, my past.

Doubts, doubts, doubts

My ego, the skeptical part of me, is also questioning everything. Is this really working? Is it helping others? Are the people in this book even feeling anything at all? Are you wasting your time? My god, 12 years is a long time. Blah blah blah.

I don't really have an answer as to whether this Energy I am communicating to others for their healing benefit is making a difference at all. All I can say is that it is changing me, it is transforming my consciousness. It is making me happy. And I would also say that it really isn't up to me at all whether this is helping. Once I breathe open my heart, my mind, my soul, my hands, my cells, and my atoms - and intend and allow this Energy to flow - I must completely let go. I must completely release any desire for results. It's not up to me. It's not about me. My goal is to disappear.

Money

I have a lot of internal barriers, beliefs, and thoughts about money and abundance that I must clear from my consciousness. The first one is, "I am not allowed to prosper doing something that I truly love to do." That's a big one. Let me use Emotional Freedom Techniques to clear that one.

Where does that thought originate, I wonder? Well, my dad's core belief about money was this: money is the holy grail. It is everything, go after it at all costs. He used money to exercise power and control over others, and loved every minute of it. He could never have enough. He always wanted more, more, and more. At the same time, he was also really irresponsible with money. It flew away from him like the wind. He let people lie and take advantage of him again and again. All they had to do was promise him millions, and he would fork over his hard earned bucks.

What about my mom? My mom was 24 when I was born, and I was the youngest of 5. My dad was 57. He lived in Kansas City. We lived in Colorado Springs. He flew out every weekend, and took my mom to a hotel room with a bottle of scotch whiskey. He was sloppy and disgusting with my mom. She felt completely trapped. My dad was rich. She had nothing. He had all the power, and she had all these children that she was raising by herself. She felt like she had to take his money and sleep with him, to get his money, because she needed it. There were lots of angry fights between them when I was really, really young. My dad was old and gross and greedy, my mom was young and pretty and trapped.

So what about my mom's thoughts about money? Money was evil, disgusting. She hated money and all the crap that came along with it.

So being the son of Rosalie and Alex, I inherited both thoughts about money. Money is evil, something to be despised, and money is something you can't have enough of...

Talk about internal confusion.

EFT set up phrases:

While rubbing my sore spot: Even though my mom hated money, and my dad craved it, I accept myself unconditionally.

Then I tap my acupressure points while repeating "My mom hated money and my dad craved it."

I can feel those thoughts of mom and dad being released. I love them both.

After I energetically zap those beliefs I install this one: I deserve to prosper doing what I love. Money is neither good, nor evil. It is just energy. And I charge money with Universal Energy to do the will of goodness, love, and service.

The book

This brings me to the Universal Life Force Energy Exchange book. Part of me feels guilty for even wanting to sell it, and a part of me wants it to succeed.

Even though I feel guilty for wishing to prosper from my book, I accept myself anyway.

Then I tap on my acupressure points, and clear that guilt from my energy field.

A new way to think about money for me

Money is energy. Money is thoughts. It is paper that represents our time, our energy, our lives. So what I have learned to do, is every time I receive money from any source, I place it between my hands, breathe deeply and pour Universal Love into it - until I see the money as Light, as Love, as Energy. Then I mentally imprint a "20 Fold Increase in Abundance" into that Energy for both myself, those that gave me the money, and those I will give the money to. (bills, bank deposits, etc.)

There is a section in my book that explains how to do this in more detail, and then on page 37, there is space to "place," either physically by placing the cash or checks there, or mentally by imagining that our money is in that space. Then we close the book and pour Love into it, with the intention that the money abundance will be charged with, and transformed into Love Energy, with a 20 Fold Increase in Abundance written into it.

So... my new way to distribute this book

I have decided to send it to people first, and for free, and then accept donations now, or later, from the people who receive it. My intention is to give as many copies away as possible, with trust that those who are able to make a love-offering of money, will do so. I would give this book away completely if I could. My purpose is to help get it into the hands of at least 10,000 people who each fill it up with the names or photos or sacred intentions of between 144 and 1,728 people or more.

I believe that the hearts, minds, and bodies of those giving Love through their hands for 12 minutes a day will completely transform, and the 1.4 million plus people receiving this Love will also benefit in a major way.

I believe this will concentrate, increase, and expand the Power of Pure Love in this world in a major, major way.

I believe this will help increase the Vibrational Resonance of the Entire Quantum Field of Life, and help in a small way, the world move to more sustainability, balance, and Love.

So I will mail this book to anyone who asks for it. Period. And only if those people feel empowered when sending Love into this Exchange, and if they are called to do so, can make a love-offering of money. This is like putting it out into the world in a simple, pure way. With trust that there will be enough money coming back in, to print and give away more books.

Of course I can't go busted doing this. I must be able to afford it, so I am trying it this way to see how it goes.

So here is my plan:

1. I give the book to anyone that asks. Along with all the 30 relaxing, transformative audios.

2. Those who like it can make a donation in any amount at any time (suggested range is anywhere between 39.00 and 99.00. Less than 39.00 is accepted. More than 99.00 is accepted.)

3. I ask that, before anyone makes a donation, they first place (either mentally by feeling or visualizing the money in that space, or physically by placing a check there) on page 37 of the book, then close the book. Sandwich the book between your hands, breathe deeply, and pour Love into the abundance, and mentally "write in" a 20 Fold Increase in Abundance into it, AND THEN AND ONLY THEN, send the money, make the donation, etc.

4. Once the money is received, I will also place it on page 37, and pour Universal Energy into the money, see it as Universal Love, and imprint a 20 Fold Increase in Abundance for both the giver and the receiver, into that money.

I believe this: If we took the money that we receive, and first poured our deepest Love, thanks, gratitude, and Universal Energy into it - then that would create a more attractive charge - and we would attract more money. I have tried this in my law practice, and every time I do it, I seem to get more abundance flowing into my life.

So that is how I wish to see this book distributed. I envision that there are 10,000 books that have been given away first, that those 10,000 books are filled to overflowing with pictures, prayers, names, and intentions, and that more than 1.4 million people are receiving and benefiting from that Energy in ways that are most supportive to their highest and greatest good.

And... with my deepest prayers, and by tapping on my acupressure points, I now release and cancel all attachment and all aversions to money. I let go of wanting money, and I let go of pushing money away. I think both block the flow of abundance.

I trust that whatever happens will be for my highest good, and for the highest healing, joy, and good of everyone who will ever be in the book and receive this Energy and Love. One thing for sure: I am very clear about my commitment to transmit the Love through my hands every day for the next 12 years.... and beyond.