Sent the Love into this Exchange today
I sat on our bed, a comfortable respite from the onslaught of kids and "look Dad..." and "can I have...." and "puking children on the way to birthday parties" and sent the Love. I could really, really feel the Energy flow effortlessly through my hands and heart, mind and body. It was really wonderful. I am so grateful for this practice. In all the ups and downs and triumphs and daily tragedies of raising 5 kids, having this practice has been a God-send. Although now I am feeling nauseated, unsettled, in my stomach. I am hoping I did not pick up some kind of weird bug when we were at the gymnastics academy for Sky's birthday party.
Sky is a panic ridden control addict
My beautiful 8 year old boy, Sky - my Guatemalan prince, is a total control addict. He has to have control - or better yet - THINK he has control of his surroundings at all times. After I told him that his mom would be moving stuff around in his room to carve out space for his little sister to sleep (his idea, mind you) he began complaining of a headache. Then, as we were driving to HIS birthday party at the gymnastics academy, he puked. Some got in the bag we gave him, some our minivan (named "Vinny") took in the floor mat. Poor Vinny! Then, driving back: he pukes again. Whew.
When we get back, he takes one look at his room, and discovers that it didn't get all swallowed up, he feels better within five minutes. All happy and even giddy for the rest of the night. This desperate need of his to always know what is going on, has at its core, a deep and consuming fear of loss. It is really intense in him. We can work on healing that.
Sky got real mad at me when I told him that he doesn't control the movement of the sun and the moon.
Real mad, indeed.
Deep breath.
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