I am feeling really good today, and I still feel that a lot of old gunk is getting cooked up inside me. Last week, the "With the Infinite Love that I am, I unconditionally Love myself" Self-Love Mantra really began the process of releasing and healing, and now, continuously chanting Om, Om, Om, Om... the cooking process continues. I feel a panging, cold pain in my lower back, right side, which is the seat of a lot of stored trauma inside me.
As planned, every hour on the hour I have toned and chanted Om, Om, Om, Om... (Or, Aum, Aum, Aum, Aum) out loud for 2 minutes. This can get a little monotonous, but on a deeper level, it feels really wonderful to return to this Sacred Sound every hour. It is like I go into prayer every hour for 2 minutes. I feel like I re-boot every hour.
I also am discovering how fast an hour goes by. I have done my absolute best to keep mentally chanting Om in every moment, and to come back to Om when I forget. I realize that I can chant Om in the background.
Emotionally, I feel very powerless, and I feel like crying, and I don't know why. It is hard to just let it out - there is a block there keeping the tears from coming, and at the same time, a deep part of me is really shaking and trembling.
Aum, Aum, Aum, Aum... As I keep my mind on Om... Aum... Amen... I am giving myself the gift of Unconditional Love.
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