Day 28 - Peebles Reality Show

What happens after I send the Love?

This morning, after I sent the Love for my 12 minutes, I plunged into the mad-rush world of kids and baths and breakfasts and stepping in cat puke and kids who pee in baths and kids who get loud and obnoxious to get attention and one thing after another.... hehe... Sunday mornings are a mad rush because everyone has to get ready for church, and it is a madhouse. Christine and I trade Sunday mornings. On Sunday, she goes to the meditation circle, and the next, I go. This is my Sunday morning to do the baths and breakfasts and all. And I can say, this morning is intense. It is so much labor condensed into such a short period of time.

So this morning, I have been "watching" everything like I am watching some kind of reality show on television. It is a very full, overflowing, stressful, beautiful, comical drama. And I witness my son Andrew slowly getting under my skin. He was sitting on the stool for going number 1 in the bathwater, and for breaking a piece of wood off his desk. He kept talking and talking, and then he started "drumming" on the chair - getting louder and louder - and it was like a battle of the wills. Him trying to annoy me - and me trying to pretend like I am not getting annoyed. Then he lied and said he had to go to the bathroom, and slowly, my will to remain calm starts to wither. But I am doing my beast to hold fast.

So what happens after I send the Love?

My goal is to remain in the blissful state after each session is over. To feel the Love cascading through my hands while my feet hurt, while my back aches from giving baths, while I am getting bombarded from all sides with kids and questions and sometimes constant whining.

My goal is to stay in a centered state of "smiling calm." Not there yet - but I am on my way for sure.

Hahahaaaa.... I have to just laugh. This is hysterical. My life. It is all such a comedy. I truly believe that, when it is all over, we will watch our lives while eating cosmic popcorn, and laugh our souls off!

Anyway - back to the point. I am re-checking with myself here. Reach into heaven with my breath. Open the gates - let the Energy flow. Good.

I won that battle of wills

At the end of this post, Andrew finally got quiet and realized who is the parent and who is the child. Whew... Glad that one is over. Now I can get off and get moving...

Back to the Peebles Comedy Hour....

Day 28 - has it been 4 weeks?

Sent the Energy

With the sun streaming through the window, with Sky looking at a book, and with my Chihuahua sitting on the couch across the room, looking peaceful - it is hard to imagine that it has been 4 weeks since I started this journey. It feels like yesterday. Time sure does fly.

Breathing in,
I pull my heart into the Universe like drawing water up a straw.

Breathing out,
I consciously intend, and simultaneously let-go and allow, Universal Love to flow down - just like water down a waterfall - down through my smiling heart and relaxed hands - and into this book - and into everyone who is in it now, and everyone who ever will be in it.

I keep breathing long and deep and continuous, and I do my best to disappear in the rushing clear flow of Love.

The Universal, Tingling, Cascading, Healing, Life-Force Energy, and Love - that I just communicated - may it wrap this whole day in Love - and may I stay perfectly centered in the flow.


Free Life-Force Energy

I am really honored and grateful to be able to put as many names, photos, and intentions of as many people as I can inside this book. It is a completely free service. I totally believe, and KNOW, that this Energy I extend does "reach" all people contained here - only for their highest and greatest good. It is a fantastic way to pray - to breathe and send Love through my hands - for others. Many Reiki Practitioners do "distant" healing sessions, and charge money for it, and that is okay for them. But for me - for this book - I am so glad to not charge any money to put someone in it. I get paid back in Joy from the Universe when I send the Love.

My goal

Is to have over 1,440,000 people, names, photos, intentions, etc. in the pages of this book. So this must mean that I will need to ATTRACT others who also want to fill up books with people and send the Love every day. How am I going to do that? I have no idea. I have no marketing experience. I don't know a whole lot of people. All I have is my own Joy in sending the Love every day, and this blog. The "how" will work itself out. I have about 80 people following me on Twitter. That's a start!

Yet

Even if nobody - and I mean nobody - joins me in this endeavor, then I will be happier than Liquid Joy. This is because sending Energy like this makes me more joyous than I have ever felt. It is the Love I send that defines me - that transforms me - nothing else.

Yet again

I will continue to hold in mind - this vision - that there really are ten thousand people who have filled up this book with others - and who are taking 12 minutes a day and losing themselves in the Great Flood of Love and Energy cascading through them. ~ And that there really are over 1.4 million people in the pages of this book - all receiving and integrating this Energy according to whats in their greatest healing benefit. There is a reality, a possibility, a potentiality - where all of this is true. And that this is just the beginning of something even more amazing.

Let me turn my Quantum Sails to that direction and see what happens.

Day 27 - a long, beautiful day

Another 12 minutes of Reiki~Universal Love - Ka-ching.

At the end of this very long, full day with my family and kids, I rested with my Quantum Book between my hands, and sent the Life-Force Energy for another 12 minutes. Many days, I really must send the Love twice. It is very addictive. Tonight, I really felt the Energy strongly flowing through my hands. It was very tingly and wonderful.

Thank you!

Day 27 - All about Love

Check!


I am grateful

I am deeply honored and grateful to be a giver of Love - to feel the Energy of Divine, Ever-Increasing, Joyous, Transcendent Love flow through my brain, heart, body, and hands. I think we can all give and receive the Whole Ocean of Love.

I am grateful for the opportunity to channel Love into the names, photos, and intentions of everyone who is now, or will ever be, contained in my Quantum Prayer Book, The Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange.

The Love I transmit - goes through the beautiful smiling faces of all - to reach the One.

Day 26 - What is happening to time?

Early mornings belong to Love

This is becoming a habit. Every morning, my brain wakes me up. I would rather be meditating and sending the Love, rather than snoozing. Thats weird. I used to covet my sleep. It was 5:30 a.m. when I got up this morning. I fought the urge to get up for about another 10 minutes, and then finally got up. Christine couldn't understand why. A part of me also doesn't get it.

I am happiest when I give Love unconditionally - and most miserable when I am trying to covet the approval and attention from others.

This is a truth discovered by Lester Levenson, the man who created the Sedona Method. Early on in his awakening process, he figured out that if he is giving Love, he is happy and free. And if he is wanting Love, he is miserable and caged. This is a lesson I keep learning, and I am grateful to the Universe for teaching it to me with such patience!

What is happening to time?

This morning, I got some strange glimpses into the whole concept of time, and these 12 minutes, and doing this for 12 years. I will do my best to put this into words:

When we step into the Transcendent Flow of Love, we step out of time, and we step into every moment of time, simultaneously.

The Universal Vibration of Love I "send" into the pages of this Exchange NOW, will be received by someone who places their photo on any of these pages in the future, even if it is 50, 100 or 500 years from now, because it will always be NOW.

The Love someone "sends" into these pages 50 years from now, is received now. From the future to the past, from the past to the future - all through NOW.

Time is only something humans made up to try and make sense of the unsensical.

I saw, and felt, like I was sitting in a strange kind of observatory. Every 12 minutes of Love I send during this 12 year period of time, is all happening now. I send the Energy, and that Energy flows into each 12 minute period of time along that journey - all at once. 

So there really is no 12 years at all - there is only this breath, this moment, this growing Consciousness of Love. That's it.

hmmmm.....

Day 25 - Love brings up that which isn't Love

This is a truth that I am always reminded of

As I bring Universal Love through my mind, heart, and hands - that clear Light goes to the places inside me that need to be aroused, healed, transmuted, and released. Yesterday, I had a storm of everything opposite of Love, and today, it feels like the storm is passing. There are a few storm clouds around my mind, but for the most part, they are moving out.

I Sent the Love this morning, again at around 10:00 a.m.... and it feels really magnificent and wonderful. The biggest thing I need to do, is just BE. I need to just BE THE LOVE I am now, and have always been. I feel my mind and body vibrating at higher levels today.

Waiting for a new picture of our daughter

On thing that my wife and I are both anxiously waiting for, is more pictures of our daughter from Ethiopia. We have one picture we got when the referral came, and now we are waiting for another one. Its driving us crazy because we want to see the little girl in the picture moving and smiling and crying and laughing!

Day 25 - The inner forces gather

DONE ~ Another 12 minutes of Universal Love into the Quantum Field


Yesterday - whew

I can say that yesterday was hard. I issued a challenge to the inner parts of me that do not want to grow and expand. I directly confronted them, and after that, my head swelled with negative energy, harsh self-criticism, and old blobby feelings that have been there since childhood.

Each 12 minutes is truly cumulative.

Every time I take 12 minutes and reach my heart into all of space, time, and into the Quantum Unified Field of Love with each long in-breath... and allow that Love to pour back through my mind, body, and into this Exchange on each exhale, all that Love is collecting, emassing within my cells.

This causes a bubbling, a boiling, and causes old gunky stuff in me to come up and be released. No matter what happens, I will witness and forgive myself always.

Keep coming back - it works!

This is a phrase in 12 step recovery circles. And I am finding it applicable to this marathon I have started. I just "sent the Love" again for 12 minutes, and I am finding that it is a safe, beautiful, refreshing place to come back to, regardless of how joyous or painful I may be feeling in the moment.

A cloud of black goo

It felt like a thick, mollases like cloud of goo blasted into my mind yesterday, but I continued to blaze with Love within it. I have an image of myself facing it, but blazing with golden Light all around my body. It never touched me. The Love within us is never touched, harmed, or marred by any experiences in life. It is eternal, and we are eternal.

Day 24 - What scares me the most?

A good question

I have heard it said, "If you want to manifest greatness, go find what scares the hell out of you the most, and go do that. Put all those terrifying tasks on top, and start with them."

So, what scares me the most about all of this?

1. Talking to people about The Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange with my voice. It is easy to write and create when I am the only one in the room, but put ten people in here, and I will pee my pants! So I MUST begin to actually talk about it through voice and video, not just through this blog. I feel this fear in the back of my throat, right above my heart.

Day 24 - The sacred battle

I stand firm on the consciousness of the Infinite, and I say, again:

You shall not pass! You shall not pass! You are the old! You are the ignorant! You are the voices from my past who inflicted pain on the child that I was....

But I have news for you.... You will SCATTER! You will BE GONE! My LOVE is more powerful than your RAGE!

You shall not pass! You shall not pass! You shall not pass!

With the Power of Love, the POWER of the INFINITE flooding through me, I will take you down!

You.... SHALL... NOT... PASS!!!!

Day 24 - I invoke the Archetype of Gandalf and I invoke Yukteswar

Positive Anger







This morning, like a geyser, comes this negative, critical, angry voice in me. This is the part of me that is happy being in a small, limited cave of consciousness. It has been "putting up" with me for the past 24 days, but this morning came up strong. It started with getting angry when I got downtown to go to court and realized I didn't have change for parking, so I had to shell out 5 bucks to park....



Then the dark cloud began to form over my thoughts. This voice, this dark, cranky, irritated-at-everything voice began to get louder and louder. Normally, I shrink when that voice comes up. I whine. I get depressed. I overeat. I go shopping. I divert away from my feelings. This time, I got mad!



"Who the %&#* do you think you are in expanding your consciousness. I don't want to expand. I am quite happy staying small and angry! Who are you, thinking you could do this!?! You must be insane!" The voice is like the sound of thunder during a thunderstorm, and it also feels like a big sledgehammer coming down on top of my head.



"I am a child of an Infinite God! Who the #*$&%& are you! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!"



With that statement, I called upon a combination of the Archetype of Gandalf and Yukteswar, and imagined that I had a staff in my hand, and when I said:



GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!



I slammed my wizard staff onto the floor of my consciousness, and saw and felt an explosion of light rippling out around me in all directions.



I am NOT going to be pushed down by these old, ugly, renegade thoughts that come up and try to haunt me. They will get the HELL OUT of my house, OUT of my consciousness, OUT of my body, OUT!

Day 24 - Start my day with Universal Love

I woke up earlier - again

This is becoming a habit. I am getting up earlier so I can have a quiet house in which to transmit Universal Life Energy~Love~Reiki. This morning, it felt truly Divine.

Words fall

away

In the silent Presence

of Love.

Something came to me

All those past projects that I started and didn't follow through on - it's okay! I felt total Love for myself, complete self-acceptance in every way. It is totally okay - there is becoming no more room in my consciousness for "beating myself up."

Unconditional Love begins with me - with each of us - and then we can give it away!

What happens when The Universe gathers ALL LOVE

together

and sends it joyously cascading

through

the tiny, small little "part" of the 

Universe?

The small part then smiles and laughs and

blooms

and sheds its clothing of limitation

and becomes

a wildflower in the field

of

Bliss.

Day 23 - a dark quiet house in the morning

My hands and heart are still tingling with Love

This morning, I got up early and placed the book between my hands and sent Universal Love and Healing, Balancing, Blissful, Joyous Life-Force Energy to everyone who will ever be contained within the last 144 pages of it.

With each breath in, I imagined my heart being pulled up into the Universe...

With each breath out, I allowed Universal Energy to flow down through my heart and hands...

And into this Exchange, and into this Earth, and into all life everywhere.

Yesterday, I felt floaty and weird most all of the afternoon, almost morose. It was a strange feeling. Joy mixed with fear mixed with Love mixed with sadness mixed with uncertainty. We had a long weekend with just Andrew and Sky, but by the end, my mind did start to go a little batty. I am ready to go out into the world, go to court, go to the office.

All Beings

Behind every face within every photo, or name, of everyone who will ever be within this Exchange, is the deeper Face of the Goddess, God, The Divine, Source, Intelligence. The Universal Love~Energy I communicate to them, flows directly to the Heart of the Divine.

To Love the Divine unconditionally, I must Love all human beings (including myself) unconditionally, all animals, all plants. I must Love them all unconditionally, and this includes the Cheney's, the Bushes, etc. This doesn't mean I am passive or agree or condone their practices in this world. It means I send them Universal Compassion in my consciousness, my heart.

So my intention is to cultivate a deep, unconditional Love for all beings, including myself. And to really, deeply, passionately feel this Love overwhelming all my senses, all my thoughts, all my cells, all my atoms, all my heart. This is a tall order. Yet, I do believe it is possible.

Day 22 - tattling on myself

With 21 consecutive days of channeling Love for 12 minutes a day "under my belt" it is starting to freak me out just a little. I am beginning to feel like my cells are boiling, cooking, roasting in this Energy. I feel like I am being stretched in frightening and incredibly joyous ways.

I also realize that I need to be more vulnerable and open about my own process. I don't want to give the impression that "all is bliss and nirvana" and I have no more problems and I am happy all the time. That is totally not the case. I can say that the happiness and clear joy I am experiencing is absolutely wonderful - beyond words - and I am thrilled about it. However, there is still all my stuff that I want to lay out there, mainly for myself, because I want to be able to look back on this blog later and see and feel how much I have grown.

Right now, if feels like I am in a familiar place, where, when greeting the Light, I have a choice: Do I shrink or expand? A part of me is afraid of this Light, this Love, this Magnificence, and wants to crawl back into the dark cave of my thoughts and rest. The dark cave is my belief that I am a small, limited bag of skin and bones. The Light is the awareness that I am an Infinite Being of Joy, Love, and Light. Every moment, it is my choice to expand.

So here are some things about me I don't want to share:

Behind me is a graveyard of grand projects and books that I started, but never followed through on. Some are books half-begun. Others are books completed, but then shelved.

Ouch. That one hurt. I have a pattern of beginning something, coming up with big ideas, going strong, and then getting tired of them after a short period of time. Then comes the door. A part of me slams a door on that past project and I don't want to have anything to do with it AT ALL. It's like I have a trashcan in my mind, and I just toss out that project.

In all fairness, some things evolve, while others, are trashed. Like ULFEE, for instance. It started out as The Heart-Based Network, and the more I worked with it, tinkered, thought, and looked deeper, it evolved over a three year period of time to become the ULFEE. But there are many, many projects that I have worked for months and months on - only to reach a time in the future when I toss it.

Is this another project that I will toss away? With all the strength of my soul, I pray not. I ask the Divine in me for the dynamic power of will to see this idea through to completion.

Making this a 12 year commitment, I believe, is my attempt to remedy that. To stick to it.


I am deathly afraid of talking to other people - deathly afraid of criticism from others.


The idea of talking to a group of people about ULFEE is extremely frightening. My brain completely freezes. My biggest fear is someone getting this book and then saying something negative about it, criticising me. So, one intention is for this fear of criticism to be transformed. I need to push my boundaries, push my comfort zone, and go where I have never gone before.

Right now, I am just witnessing this fear and letting it be. Maybe that is one reason why I toss projects into the trashcan of my mind, because I am afraid of people hating it or thinking it is weird. This energy block is above my heart and below my throat.


I couldn't market my way out of a brown paper bag


One of my biggest weaknesses, is marketing myself. I think a lot of people have that problem. I know I do. I am good at creating big ideas, books, and projects - but when it comes to actually explaining it to people in ways that are attractive - again - on comes brain freeze. It all comes back to my fear. I deliberately intend to wrap this fear in Love - and allow it to be transmuted into Love.


I have a lot of unresolved trauma


I have been working through a lot of trauma in my last blog and this year I have released and worked through a lot. I will continue to heal and grow as this 12 year commitment unfolds.


I am holding onto an extra 15 pounds on my body


I have been struggling with dropping this excess weight for years now, and it seems to be a merry-go-round. I guess I can welcome myself to the human race. I know I am not unique in this struggle. My weight is connected with my old unresolved traumas that my body is holding onto.

Back pain


Although I have been feeling good for over a month, I do have reoccuring lower back pain that comes back. To me, this almost feels like a response to Love. As I am feeling really, really good, the traumatized part of myself says "Not so fast..."


Okay, that was just a few. I am going to try and be more open, vulnerable, and transparent so that I can more easily chronicle how this 12 minutes a day is transforming and transmuting all these issues. With all my challenges, I am more blessed than I could ever have previously imagined. There were many days, back in the 80's that I felt that I could not make it through a single day without drinking or using drugs. I was completely hopeless. Those days are never lost to me. Now, it is 22 years later: I am married to a beautiful woman, I have two amazing children from Christine's previous marriage, and two incredible boys that we adopted internationally, and another on the way! Looking back 22 years, and then looking down at my feet where I am now - fills me with gratitude!

Day 22

Memorial Day

I sent the Love for 12 minutes this morning. It has been a long, wonderful, relaxing, busy weekend. I pray that all the Love that all people extend into this world will reach the hearts of all the soldiers in all the armies of the world.

Day 21 - Too much joy?

No!

There can never be too much joy, because joy by its very nature is ever-fresh and ever-new. (from the teachings of Yogananda)

Yet, with all these really clear, beautiful, tingling feelings of ever expanding joy that continue to increase each day that I "send the Love," there comes the...

Panic button.

"Okay, okay! Calm down Danny. I know that all this joy and sending the Love and everything is really good and all, but stop! I have had enough. Can't we just take a rest for a few days, let it all settle in?"

"I will keep going, keep sending Reiki and Love and Joy for 12 minutes a day, and I will keep expanding my capacity for even greater joy."

"No! Stop! I can't take anymore."

"I will keep going..."

"Aaaaaaaaggghhhhh. I am m-e-e-l-l-l-l-t-t-t-i-i-i-i-n-g..."

That is how the dialogue goes. I feel this part of me that feels like it has reached a "saturation point" and wants to settle back into what is comfortable. When I start vibrating at higher levels of Love, my ego will try to put the brakes on the whole thing.

Fear and more fear

I think with this flood of Universal Love coming into and through me every day, it does stir up fear. What if this joy ends? What if this Love ends? What if all these good feelings just disappear? It then starts to search for bad things that may happen, that could happen, that might happen.

I have grown up in a sea of fear, of unrest, of turbulence... and with the introduction of this higher vibration of Love into my cells and atoms, the old stuff must come to the surface to be released. It is old fear, really. Fear of losing my loved ones. Fear of.... whatever I might be afraid of.

The really awesome part: I don't feel any fear at all when I am feeling the Love flow through my hands. None at all.

Detractor thoughts

And yes, I have the critic-thoughts. Like:

"Danny, you need to get your head out of the clouds and come back to Earth. What right do you have thinking you can transmit Universal Love through your hands? You are acting insane, egotistical, and arrogant. You need to go to work, shut up, and just live your life and be grateful for what you have. Quit trying to do great and grand things. I mean, really, did you think you could actually succeed in sending Love through your hands every single day for 12 straight years? You are fooling yourself, setting yourself up to fail."

What is my response?

I really have none. I just witness the gibbering-jabbering of monkey thoughts as they pass through me.

Love witnesses. That's it. There is no judgment. I know that there are people who would say I am crazy - but I this is the happiest crazy I have ever been. I KNOW, with ALL MY SOUL, that the Love ~ Reiki ~ Energy that I communicate through my hands is making a difference in the world. I may not see the results with my eyes - but in my SOUL'S INTELLIGENCE, in my INTUITION, and with the TEARS OF JOY that come falling down my eyes - I know that this Love is helping to improve the world. It is flowing into the Quantum Field of the Universe.

It is completely transforming my life. Love completely transforms the one who surrenders to the Flow of Love. Doing this for 12 minutes a day, every day, is changing me at my depth. And I am doing this one day at a time. I am doing this today, and I plan on doing it again tomorrow, and I plan on stringing 4,380 days together. That's at least 52,560 "minutes" of Love flowing through my hands and into the fabric of life. Which comes to 876 hours. ( I really love numbers) And this doesn't take into account the extra, bonus minutes...

I believe with all my heart that inside the hands and hearts of every single person on this planet, is the Roaring Ocean of Universal Love - greater and more beautiful than we could have previously imagined.

And I totally believe that with our breaths, imaginations, and intentions combined together, we can unleash this Ocean of Love through our hearts and hands.

The Whole Ocean - all of God's Love - all of Goddess's Love - can be communicated through the magnificent prism of the human heart!

I believe this. I know this. I do. And the fear-thoughts, the critic-thoughts in my head will come and go. I can't stop them. I can only witness them.

And keep sending the Love

Day 21 - It's been three weeks now

Three week mark

One time back in 1991 or 1992, can't remember, I hiked from Gothic Colorado - over Cunundrum Pass. On the other side, are some hot springs, which are above Aspen. When I first started out, the path was pretty flat, but beginning to climb. It was in the middle of Spring, so the creeks along the path were still flowing pretty strong. With my make-shift backpack, I headed out.

I remember walking, and walking, and walking. Looking down at my feet, it didn't feel like I was really getting anywhere. I was also getting tired. Then I stopped to rest, and looked back...

And the vista was breathtaking. There were hundreds of thousands of trees, and the picture is still clearly imprinted in my mind.

I am taking one step at a time. Climbing a mountain of life - sending Love every day for 12 minutes - and I am on the very first parts of this path. It feels really, really good.

This morning

I did my 12 minutes this morning, and as usual, it felt really magnificent. My intention is for those tingling, joyous sensations of Love continue throughout the day. Yesterday, about midday, I got cranky. But that is the beauty of it. I still get cranky, agitated, and have the full range of emotions. I am still me. I still have struggles. But what I do have is a window to fly out of every day - to re-boot my mind - to take a shower in Universal Love.

Day 20 - Two thousand hours of Love

How could 10,000 people ecstatically transmit the equivalent of 2,000 hours of Universal Love/Reiki to more than 1.4 million people every day, including themselves?

Wow... what a question, eh? Let me answer it in this way...

Each Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange book has 144 pages in the back with a Collage of Sacred Reiki Symbols on each one. This Collage was created to help increase the flow of Universal Love in this world.

On the Quantum Level of Reality, all books are one book - AND there are no books. After all, the book itself is merely empty space if you look at it close enough. This Exchange finds its real location in the Infinite Reaches of Consciousness.

Okay... so let's say that 10,000 people each take just 12 minutes every day and, holding this "book" between the palms of their hands, they flood Universal Love ~ Reiki ~ Chi ~ Light into their own book... which has over 144 photos/names of their family, friends, and even strangers in the Reiki Collage Pages...

Since this Exchange is, in reality, an Infinite Location in Consciousness... and since, by sacred, deliberate, and collective intent, all books are one book - then by the very nature of Quantum Law - each of the 10,000 people are "energetically holding" all 10,000 books between their hands. The Universal Love that each flood into one book is graciously and miraculously communicated into ALL BOOKS!

10,000 x 12 minutes is 120,000 minutes. (Each person giving Love into this Exchange for 12 minutes a day)

120,000 divided by 60 is 2,000 hours!

10,000 x 144 is 1,440,000! (Each of the 10,000 people have at least 144 photos/names of family, friends, or strangers in the Reiki Collage Pages of their books.)

So... all 1,440,000 plus people (which includes each of the 10,000 because we put ourselves in our own books first) will receive the equivalent of at least 2,000 hours of Universal Love and Life-Force Energy EVERY SINGLE DAY!

What miracles could this help create in the lives of those 1.4 million people?

How would this daily 12 minute practice transform the consciousness of that 10,000 people?

How incredibly ecstatic would it feel to give Universal, Transcendent Love ~ Reiki to over 1.4 million people, all at once?

What impact would this have on the planet?

Does this sound completely insane, far fetched, and "out-there?"

If you answered YES, then GOOD!

Because I would rather be INSANELY HAPPY than sane and stuck in misery!

Day 20 - Twelve More Minutes

Got up earlier again

On Saturday mornings, we usually covet our opportunity to sleep in. Our two older kids are with their dad this weekend, which makes it a much more relaxing weekend. My brain woke me up at 7:30, when usually I try to sleep until 9 at least.

So I got up and "sent the Love" into the Quantum Field instead.

This time, I had the actual book to hold between my hands. I literally could feel the Energy flowing through me. It was so beautiful. I saw this Love filling and surrounding our home for the whole weekend - I saw this Love filling and surrounding all my loved ones, friends, and family. Words are completely ineffective in communicating the joy I feel.

Each 12 minutes

I am beginning to sense something miraculous and strange about this "12 minutes a day" practice. Each time I place my hands on this book, breathe open my heart to the Universe, and allow Love to flow through me - for 12 minutes - it feels like that 12 minutes is connected to the 12 minutes I spent sending the Love the day before, and the day before. Its kind of like a tube or something.

What it is doing to time

This 12 minute daily practice also seems to be transforming the concept of time for me. Instead of doing this for 12 years - I am doing this for only 12 minutes - and I am only doing it for today. Also, when Love is sent for the 12 magical moments, all moments seem to be bathed in that Love.

The secret of recovering from drug addiction and alcoholism - is "one day at a time." In 12 step groups, they tell people - "all you have to do is make it through just one day." Really, all you have to do is stay sober for one moment! Back in February of 1987, after my last relapse, I really got the whole concept of one day at a time. I decided that it didn't matter how long I stayed sober - all that mattered was the day I was on. Every day, I focused like a laser beam on getting to the end of the day - and it worked. 22 years later, I am still sober.

It's all now

As I communicate Love - I am expanding my consciousness more and more to the timeless dimension of now. As Love is released with carefree abandon through my heart - I am realizing how Love encompasses every moment of time, animates every moment of time, and also transcends every moment of time.

Nothing matters

During each 12 minutes, I feel completely free. It is like I am stepping outside the box of all my dramas and daily struggles. I am so happy to be sending Universal Life-Force Energy through my hands - that nothing else really matters. If I am the only person in the world who ever does this - then I will be ecstatic. This is because I am experiencing my BLISS - following my BLISS - and my happiness is growing and growing. Tears come to my eyes when I feel these clear waters of happiness rising from the soil of my mind and washing over the landscape of my life.

Thank You

I feel so much gratitude, so much thanks - for the simple joy of being alive - for the simple miracle of my breath - for the love of my human family - for the opportunity to give Love to the heightened level that I lose myself in that Love.

To the Divine Heart of the Universe - thank You, thank You, thank You, thank You!

Day 19 - Got my book today!

Yippee!

Today, I got my big fat book, The Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange, and now I am going through the process of reading and trying with all my might to weed out all the typos! Yee-haw! I am so excited to finally be able to touch it, and to send Love into this book, and into this Exchange. Up to now, I have been sending Love into the printout of the front cover. Now I have a whole book to pour the Ecstatic Tidal Wave of Love into! I have been re-writing, re-constructing, re-wording, and refining this book for MONTHS now, and I am so happy!

Rearranged my office

After this morning's 12 minute session, I drove "The Beast" as Christine calls her, (our new Toyota Sienna) to the Wyandotte County Kansas Traffic Court and represented a client. It took all of 10 minutes. Then I drove to my office and carried in our old dining room table, and finished cleaning up the mess and rearranging the furniture. And... every single client appointment I had bailed out on me. I was hoping to make some "scratch" today, but nobody showed up. It happens all the time.

I am still consciously working on bringing this Energy and Love into the nitty-gritty of practicing law. I think just sending Love every day is going to make a difference in my outlook and attitude as a lawyer. Time will tell.

Did another 12 minutes

Before I drove home, I sat at my clean desk, and sent Love into the Exchange again for 12 minutes. Each time I send Energy through my hands, it feels more and more tingly, joyous, and powerful. I am loving this. I know I am on to something. I know that sending Love through my heart, mind, and hands is something that is re-writing me on the inside.

Two calm parents make for a happy home

Christine and I vowed to have a calm voice all weekend, and to completely ignore annoying behavior from our kids (unless they are hurting themselves). We are to speak in a calm voice all weekend, and not raise our voices and get annoyed and give a lot of negative behavior more attention. With our Andrew, he is constantly doing things he knows he is not supposed to do, just for the negative attention. 

So... we tried this while we ate at a local Central American restaurant (called "La Parrilla) and it was much more calm. The whole dinner was much more peaceful.

hmmm.

Day 19 - Wow!

Got up earlier

Normally, I sleep till 7 am, and try to eek as much sleep as I can from the night. This morning, however, I got up at 6:30 and a light bulb went off: Get up and Send the Love! So I did, and wow! What a difference this is going to make in my day. I feel so good, so clear, so joyous, so alive, so eager and happy to face my day. During the session, I felt so much tingles and vibrations cascading through me. Nothing beats feeling the Energy of Love flood through my heart and hands. It is the very best feeling in the world. In short: we are the happiest when we feel Love flowing through us, and we know it has been received, and we are the most miserable when we feel like this Love within us can't be expressed for some reason. The shortest path to happiness and liberation is to get lost in giving Love! Speaking for myself, of course.

My Shaman Son, Sky

After I did my 12 minutes, I had my 7 year old son, Sky, (a native Kechiqel Mayan), placed his hands over my hands and sent the Love. I could feel the Energy flowing through his little hands, pouring into mine, and into the Exchange. I could really feel it. Sky has a strong connection to Ancient Shamans. Awesome!

Today, I go to Wyandotte County Kansas Courthouse and represent a person charged with "Driving While Revoked." This is probably the most common type of traffic offendor that I represent.

Integrating all this Love into the practice of law

So what does being a lawyer have to do with it? Sometimes I feel like a split personality: there is the person who is a Energy Enthusiast, into quantum physics, sending the Love - then there is the person who has to stand in front of a judge and appear sane to the outside world!

So... I have been thinking of ways in which I can integrate all this Love and Energy into the practice of law. How can I communicate the Energy of Love in simple, compassionate ways to my clients?

After I go to court, I am going to take our former dinner table to my office and use it as a desk. Right now, my office looks like a tornado hit it. I need to get there and finish throwing away all the junk and make it look clean and fresh again!

Day 18 - Done!

Grandview Missouri

Every day in every way - I am feeling this Love flood through me on deeper and more profound levels! I had a great 12 minutes at my office today. Then I went to court to help keep a guy out of jail.

Day 17 - another 12 minutes

I am ecstatic

This practice is like taking a shower in crystal clear Life-Energy. It is like it wipes my hard-drive clean. Today, I went up to my bedroom, listened to my Reiki tones, and sent the Love again. I really felt my hands getting tingly and hot. I felt such warmth and Love come over me. With each breath, I felt the Energy flow even more. I still feel it as I type. May this Love be communicated forever into Life - may it create miracles upon miracles - and may the Love flowing through my hands mix with the Love flowing through your hands - creating even more miracles.

Diet and the Flow of Love

Are there foods that I can eat which will help clarify, heighten, and improve my ability to feel the Life-Force flowing through me? I think so. Brown rice, veggies, fruits - good healthy food. I am continuing my challenge and my mission to eat healthier and live healthier. The more I "send the Love" the more I want to make healthier choices. In my last blog www.joyblisslove.blogspot.com I went through a lot of dietery challenges. I got a lot of good experiences from them. I will continue those on this blog, with the purpose of helping me clarify and heighten my ability to channel Life-Force Energy.

Right now

I am sitting and watching Cecilia play. She is a 8 month old girl we have been watching to help pay for our adoption of Amelie. I can say that she has been such a blessing in our lives. She is so happy and lively, and has such a good sense of humor. I can honestly say that she has dropped a bomb of Love in my heart. I will never be the same person again. All she does is smile and look at me, and make funny faces. I talk to her in as many funny voices as I can - to the point where it drives my family a little cooky.

Day 16 - Done!

Another 12 minutes

Today has been busy. I spent the morning getting poked in the arm by the health department and injected with polio, Hep A and Typhoid vaccines in preparation for our trip to Ethiopia this August to pick up our daughter. That took all morning.

Then I drove to my office, met a client charged with speeding, and then sat on my sofa and communicated Love through my hands for 12 minutes. Slowly but surely, little by little, polko-ah-polko, I feel something building. It feels really wonderful. I am finding that I totally guard this 12 minutes. Connecting, merging with, and communicating Universal Love and Life-Force Energy is my priority - because then I can really be there for others.

Day 15 - Check!

Ka-ching!

Another 12 minutes of Universal Love. I drove to Hermitage Missouri today to close on some land that I inherited from my dad. On the way down there I stopped in Clinton Missouri outside a grocery store, and sent the Love.

Before I left this morning, Sky had a gleem in his eye, and he kept saying,

"Are you going to stop at a red light and send the Love back to us? Haha..." It was a really wonderful moment.

Right now, after this long day of driving, I am completely wiped out. But I don't think I have felt more clearly happy.

Day 14

Another 12 minutes of Universal Love

My heart is exploding with joy, as I just retired to our room and really cranked up the Love this time. As I breathed and swept my heart into the Divine, I imagined a Love-Dial in me, and I cranked it up! I felt the Energy tingling through my head, heart, and hands, and into the Exchange, into life... I dedicate this Love to the greater healing, joy, abundance, and good of all beings everywhere.  I consciously and deliberately expand my heart of compassion to all of life. May my heart expand and remember its home in cosmic joy.

To the Divine,

May the Love I flood through my heart, mind, and hands.... and into all who will ever be within this Exchange... into the Quantum Fabric of all life everywhere... flood DIRECTLY into Your Radiant Heart. May You, the Center of all Love, feel and receive this Love & Life-Force Energy ~ and may I feel that You feel it.

May everyone who ever reads this book, or who will ever be contained within any of its pages, FEEL Universally and Unconditionally LOVED on every level of their Beings!

I keep reminding myself

That I, and all of us, are defined and transformed by the Love we give. We are freed by the Love we give. Giving Love is the key with which we can walk out of our jailhouse of illusions.

Day 13

12 Minutes of Tingling, Joyous, Fabulous, Transcendent Love flowing through my heart and hands

I just completed another session of Love, and each time, it is feeling better and better. We are having a nice, lazy Saturday morning. I went into our room and sat on our bed, listened to my Reiki Toning Audio, and used my breath and my imagination to flood Love through my hands.

I am discovering more and more:

Universal Love, Energy, Light, Prana, Chi, whatever name you put on it, is both present in every moment of time, and transcends time as well. It is timeless. It flowers from the consciousness of now.

The human energy field, the body and the brain, is a conduit of this Love. Anyone can use their breath, imagination, and simple intention to direct this Love to any place, any person, any time. There is no need to be trained in Reiki or any other energy modality.

Love is unlimited. Love is beyond the reach of all seeming laws of time and space.

Love is uncomplicated in its power, innocence, and simplicity. It is a purity, a light, that is at the center of our hearts.

Love can be channeled/directed/communicated to hundreds of thousands of beings and people at the same time.

In Love, we discover that we are Infinite Beings, not limited to bags of skin and bones, but of the Heavens, beyond everything we could ever even conceive ourselves to be.


Polko-ah-Polko (Spanish for "little by little") and my Dad


A whole book could be written about Alexander Derr Peebles, my dad. He was a charming, gritty, funny, quirky, angry, and laughing-alot attorney who practiced law for over 60 years. He went to law school during The Great Depression, and built a career representing all forms of hooligans in the 40's, 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's, and 90's. in Kansas City and Hermitage Missouri. He passed away in 2002 after spending a year in a nursing home.

He was 57 when I was born, and around 85 when I finally, reluctantly, took and passed the bar exam. Back in the summer of 1985, after graduating high school and before college, I went to Hermitage for the summer and worked for him. Working for my dad was quite the experience, because he loved to work himself. (Talk about hard, pounding, physical labor. Ax work, loading rock, pounding rock with a sledgehammer - the harder the work, the bigger was his smile)

We worked in the thick woods of the Ozarks, with armies of ticks, chiggers, mosquitos, and huge horse flies constantly on the attack. We chopped, whacked, and cleared away brush and trees, and started huge fires and burned them all. I will never forget the searing heat on my face from the fire, and the blistering heat from the summer on my back. My whole body drenched in sweat. My face covered in dirt. I was also using drugs and drinking very heavily at the time. I drank and smoked weed all night, and worked my ass off all day.

I am getting to the point.

I will never forget the strength and stamina of my dad when it came to working in the woods. He was probably around 79 or 80, and I was 18.

Starting fires:

I will never forget the process of starting fires. My dad would say, "Start little. Start with little twigs!" We would clear a patch, and practically hug the earth. Then we would take itty-bitty little twigs, and start the fire. Slowly, we would nurse it, build it, and before long, it would be a huge bonfire, and we would be throwing huge trees and brush on it. (The idea was to clear away the small trees and brush, so people could walk through a lot to see if they wanted to buy it)

The Point is Polko-ah-Polko

I remember countless times when I would be swinging the ax and machete like a mad-man. Within 10 minutes, I would be laying down on my back, completely out of breath and looking up in amazement at my dad, SLOWLY chopping, whacking, and carrying the brush to burn. He went slow. He chopped slow. He worked me under the table.

Then he would walk past me, "Polko-ahhh-Polko, little by little," he would say in a deep voice, clearly enunciating each syllable. I can still hear his voice in my head, and it brings tears to my eyes. I feel his presence, his Love that transcended his life, flowing into me. All I have to do, is say these words slowly:

Polko-ahh-Polko, little by little.

And I feel a timeless connection with my ole pops! With these words, Love flows like a waterfall down my spine. I hear his voice as clearly in my head now as I did in the summer of 85.

At the time, I got so sick and damn tired of him saying that all the time. It drove me nuts. But looking back, I can clearly see that he was teaching me something incredible and timeless.

Start small, go slow, and keep going. Be patient! Don't try to hurry the fire.

He used to say, "let the fire do the work."

With hindsight, I can see what an incredible lesson. In those sweaty, hot woods around those fires, my dad taught me something timeless.

That's what I am doing now.

Little by little, 12 minutes at a time, I am building a bonfire of Love in my heart.

I am starting little, going slow and steady, and pretty soon, that fire of Love in me will be huge. I am taking all the brush, all the weeds, all the sticks, all the illusions that separate me from my Divinity, and I am throwing them on the bonfire. Every day I spend just 12 minutes and send Love through my hands, the little fire in me is growing and growing.

Let the fire do the work

Translation: Let the Love flooding through my heart, mind, and hands do the miracles. All I have to do is nurture the flame, and the flame will perform the miracles.

The last time I really connected with my dad

It was around 2002, maybe four or six months before he died. I went to visit him in a hospital in Bolivar Missouri. He was completely immobolized. The invincible Alex Peebles who could work me under the table in the woods, was dying.

He couldn't speak.

We spoke, instead, with our eyes. He looked at me with a timeless love shining through his teary eyes. He was telling me, in the silent language of love, that he loves me, that he is proud of me, that we will always be together.

I love you too, Dad. Thank you for Polko-ahh-polko. I promise to pass the lesson on to my kids.

Day 12 - Twelve more bonus minutes

I couldn't help it - just did 12 more minutes

I was sitting in my office waiting for my "speeding ticket" client (my favorite) to show up, and I spontaneously channeled Love for another 12 minutes. It felt really wonderful!

Day 12 - Rama

Sent the Universal Life-Force Energy of Love for today

RAAAAH-MAAAAH

Today, I toned aloud Rama, while I placed the Exchange between my hands. I am still buzzing from the Energy. It feels really good. I get really ga-ga over the power of sound to communicate Universal Love. Sound it amazing, penetrating, transcending, heart-opening. Rama comes from a Reiki Symbol by the same name. It is designed to help ground a person, and bring the energies of our Higher Nature into physical expression. It is extremely powerful to me.

It has the sound of Aaahh in it, which is the sound of God, Creation, the Universe. The sound of Aaaah is contained within most names of God.

Rama is also Hindu Name for God.

Today, I imagined that the sound of Rama funneled through my being and out of the palms of my hands, and into everyone who will ever be on a Reiki Collage Page of The Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange. This warms and opens my heart to KNOW that the Love we give can and does reach the entire world - this is because we are intrinsically one with the Universe.

Free Audios to those friends and family and anyone else reading this blog

For those who read my blog, I wanted to put up my download link for all the audios that are included when someone gets the book. This book, The Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange, will be like an auditory and visual experience. Anyway, here are my audios:

Click Here

I probably won't keep this link up for long, so be sure to bookmark the page.

Day 11

Channeled the Love today  - done!

Today I laid down on my couch and sent the Love cascading through my heart and hands. It was a welcome relief from the mundane world of the legal profession. I had just got back from a case in Cass county where child abuse and child custody are contested. These cases, I disdain. I can't stand them. Which is why it was such a nice thing to get back to my office, close my eyes, rest, and flood the Love into this Exchange, into everyone I love, and into all of life. 12 minutes actually turned into 22 minutes, because I needed a longer vacation from the world.

Need some jumper cables for my brain

Today, it has been really difficult to get my brain to fully wake up. I do feel like I need electro-shock-wake-up therapy or something. Slowly, at around 1 pm, I am slowly starting to wake up.

Day 10

Just did my wonderful 12 minutes - Feeling Spectacular and Fantastic

After a busy morning and early afternoon in Lawyer-Land, I got to my office and sat and channeled the Love for another 12 minutes (plus 2 minutes). It felt really good. So good. So wonderful. It felt like a waterfall was pouring through my hands. I had Amelie's picture on top of the print out of the cover of The Universal Life-Force Energy Exchange, and really felt the Love flowing through me, as I still do.

I wish I could describe these energy sensations more accurately. I mentally pull my heart upward into a higher place on my inhaling breath, and out my exhale, I completely relax and then direct and focus the flow of this Love into the Exchange. I keep reminding myself, as various thoughts come up, that this is about Love and only Love!

All morning I have this fresh feeling of happiness flow through me!

Day 9

12 Minutes of Universal Love - check!

After going to court in the Kansas City Kansas Municipal Court (Bizzarro-world - my client's "no-insurance" ticket transformed itself in the computer to" improper bicycle riding," beats me!) I got to my office and then spent an hour typing up a divorce decree for a court date of my client tomorrow. Something I didn't want to do, but I am glad its done.

After that, I sat on my office sofa and flooded the Love for 12 minutes. (Actually, it was around 14 minutes, but I usually go over just a few minutes.) It was a much needed break from the world.

I put my daughter's, (Amelie) photo on top of a print out of the cover of the book, and then sent the Love. I imagined her receiving that Love - maybe it caused her to laugh? I truly believe that she does feel it!

Tired brain

I am feeling whiny because I had to get up early two days in a row. Monday I want to see a cardiologist at 7:00 a.m. sharp, (clean bill of health) and today, I had to leave at 7:00 a.m. for Bizzarro-World.

Right now, my brain feels half-awake, like I have this bowling ball on my head, pushing down on my head. Which makes it harder to fully and clearly express my ideas.

Sadness

Last night, Christine and I watched the last segment of "We Shall Remain" , which is a 5 part series on American History, seen through the eyes of Native Americans. Last night, the subject was about the siege of the American Indian Movement of the town of Wounded Knee in the 1970s. When we were finished watching, I sank into a melancholic, floaty sadness. This country was built on destroying and murdering an entire race of people - beautiful, wonderful, rich, and spiritual people. It felt like I was floating in a dream.

Then, continuing this journey of bringing in the Energy of Love through me every day, I started thinking deeper about it.

If I believe that bodies are solid matter, and this is "all there is," that there is nothing beyond what our five senses can feel, then I must surely live in hell. Everywhere I look, I see genocide, one group of people murdering another group of people, insanity, everything being backwards.

However, if I believe that bodies are transparent vibrations of Energy and Light, then I can take everything less seriously, and I am not so completely overwhelmed with sadness for my Native American brothers, mothers, and sisters. I can see that those Native people, they didn't die. They lived on. Their Spirits picked up and moved forward. But I am still deeply saddened and outraged - but I have a little better perspective.

This reminds me of a part of the book "Autobiography of a Yogi" by Paramahansa Yogananda. There was a place in that book where Yogananda describes being in meditation, and then being transported into a body of a man who gets killed in war. Right at the point of dying, he came back to meditation, only to go back again into the body of the man...

"Lord," I prayed, "am I dead or alive?"

A dazzling play of light filled the whole horizon. A soft rumbling vibration formed itself into words:

"What has life or death to do with light? In the image of My light I have made you. The relativities of life and death belong to the cosmic dream. Behold your dreamless being! Awake, My child, awake!"

Then on the next page, this chapter jumped out:

"Lord," I prayed, "why dost Thou permit such suffering?"

To my intense surprise, an instant answer came in the form of a vision of the actual European battlefield. The scenes, filled with the dead and dying, far surpassed in ferocity any representation of the newsreel."

"Look intently!" A gentle Voice spoke to my inner consciousness. "You will see that these scenes now being enacted in France are nothing but a play of chiaroscuro. The are the cosmic motion picture, as real and as unreal as the theater newsreel you have just seen - a play within a play."

My heart was still not comforted. The Divine Voice went on: "Creation is light and shadow both, else no picture is possible. The good and evil of maya must ever alternate in supremacy. If joy were ceaseless here in this world, would man ever desire another? Without suffering, he scarcely cares to recall that he has forsaken his eternal home. Pain is a prod to remembrance. The way of escape is through wisdom. The tragedy of death is unreal; those who shudder at it are like an ignorant actor who dies of fright on the stage when nothing more has been fired at him than a blank cartridge. My sons are children of light; they will not sleep forever in delusion."

page 272 and 273 Autobiography of a Yogi


So, in my heart, I commit my mind, body, and heart deeper to Love.

To my Native Mothers, Brothers, and Sisters - I love you all. My heart weeps at the wholesale destruction of your culture at the hands of my ancestors, and I extend my heart of Love to you. And my heart leaps with joy to know that you were not killed, but Remain forever on the Field of Light that our Great Spirit has made. Your heart, your beauty, your strength and soul as a people shall live forever.

To my ancestors, to those Europeans who came to civilize the savages, my heart also weeps with cold, icy sadness at the thought of your arrogance, greed, and widespread ignorance. I weep, because I know this truth: What you did these Native Americans, the murder, the disease, the taking of their land, YOU DID TO YOUR VERY OWN SOUL.

What we do to another, either ill or good, we do to our very own soul.

This is a wound you inflicted on HUMANITY!

And my heart also soars into freedom at the truth, that YOU TOO, will not "sleep forever in delusion." That your souls will rise into Love like a Phoenix.

Day 8

Another 12 minutes of sending Love - done!

I sat in my bedroom and sent the Love today. I have a free morning, followed by work this afternoon, so I am glad I sent the Love earlier today.

My goal is this: during my 12 minutes of sending Love through my hands, I want to completely empty all my thoughts, let them drain away completely and BE the Love flooding through. Having just begun this journey, I still have thoughts that arise. I witness them. Then I just go back to breathing and sweeping my heart into the Unified Quantum Field of Love with each ecstatic inhaling breath - and allowing that Love to run like a river through my heart, arms, and hands on each long exhale - into this Exchange and into life.

I am almost, almost, almost finished with the final edits on this book/Energy field. I am still trying to find simple ways to explain to myself what this is. It is a paradox, really. Has there ever been a book that admits that, in reality, it is not a book?

This Exchange is a Quantum "Space" to collect the names, photos, and intentions of others - so that we can take at least 12 minutes a day, and breathe Love into all of them at the same time. Kind of like a way to pray in a new, quantum way for a bunch of people all at the same time. That is a pretty good explanation.

You could also call it an Infinite Location in Consciousness. The last 144 pages have a Collage of Reiki Symbols on them. (Reiki is a form of hands on healing from Japan that involves the use of sounds and symbols to focus and transmit healing Energy) These pages (and all pages) of this book are Infinite Quantum Space - having an infinite amount of space for an infinite number of different beings. 

The idea is to take a photo, or write a name on a sticky note, along with a short prayer or intention, and paste one or more on one of these pages. Then fill up those 144 pages - and then take 12 minutes a day and send Love/Energy/Light/Vibrations/Reiki/Chi/Prana/Loving Thoughts through our hands and into them all - all at once.

The cool part is that the Love sent into one book is, by law, sent into all books. This is because its not really a "book" book, but instead a book that points to the Universe. The Love and Energy is given and received on the level of our deepest mind and heart. And our deepest mind and heart is, on the quantum level of our cells, atoms, and deeper, one within the Universe.

When Love flows from our hearts to more than one person at the same time, this by very nature has to stretch open our hearts to accommodate a greater flow of Love. And that, I believe, is just what the doctor ordered.

I keep imagining what kind of miracles we could create if there were ten thousand people, all taking only 12 minutes every day, and funneling Universal Love into this Exchange and into Life in their own unique, simple, and powerful ways? I think of how clear and bright and happy that everyone contained within the Exchange could become? 

Maybe I will just be a freak, and channel Love into my own book of family and friends and people I meet along the way, and do it for 12 years without other people seeing or acting upon this vision in my head. And that is totally okay, because doing this makes me completely, utterly, and beyond-words, HAPPY!

I would rather be penniless and know that I am a child of the Infinite Universe, one with the Kingdom of Love, than have a billion dollars and never know who I am. My choice is clear.

I also had no idea, prior to beginning this commitment of communicating Transcendent Love for 12 minutes a day for 4,380 days in a row, what a powerful impact it would have on my consciousness. Each day, it is like re-booting the computer of my consciousness. It re-connects me with my purpose for being here.

Woo-woo?

Yeah, probably.

Out there?

Uh-huh.

Fun?

Absolutely! 

But hey, I'm weird! I am coming out of the closet and announcing this to the world, like everyone that knows me doesn't already think I am weird! I know that my kids think I am weird! I think I am weird. My wife, Christine, DEFINITELY thinks I am weird. 

What about the legal profession? Oh my God, being a lawyer and thinking about other lawyers and judges and clients seeing this side of me, really gives me a laugh and a fright at the same time.

My God - they would think I have completely lost my mind - which is, ultimately, my Goal: to lose my mind in Love!

To me, it isn't all that Woo-woo. When I break it down to its common denominator: communicating Love through our hands is something we, as humans, have been doing for centuries. We make food for out children. We touch each other's faces with Love. We hold hands. We write with our hands, build with our hands, nurse each other's wounds with our hands. 

I always come back to our children. We all love our children with such paralyzing purity, such overwhelming simplicity and grace. This Love, this pure, naked, unconditional Love - attached to no religion, no dogma, no ideology. Around and within this Love, we are one with each other. 

A story I heard from Krishna Das

(This is double hearsay - so I will probably chop this story up, but I hope to communicate the gist of it)

Krishna Das is like a spiritual "little brother" to Ram Dass, the dude from the sixties who wrote the book, Be Here Now, which is a huge bestseller.  

Their Spiritual Teacher in India is Neem Karoli Baba. 

Anyway, they were all gathered around this Teacher one day, asking him questions. One question they asked him was this:

How did Jesus meditate?

The Teacher then got really quiet for a really long time. Everyone thought that he just wasn't going to answer the question. It seemed like the Teacher went very deep into himself. 

Finally, after a long wait, a tear welled up and crawled down the Teacher's cheek, and he said:

He lost himself in Love.

Day 7 - Daddy is sending you his Love, Amelie

I held a photo of my dear Amelie in my hands today, and used my breath and imagination to open the cells and atoms of my hands, and I communicated Love to her.

There is no time and space. She is right here, in my heart, and this Love is flooding like a Tidal Wave of Joy, to her. 

I am so grateful that my heart is exploding.

Dear Amelie:

My child, it is today that I saw your photo for the first time. And I wonder what it is you are doing now. Are you sleeping? Are you eating? Are you laughing loudly?

I am beyond words to describe how glad I am to see you, my daughter. Soon you will be home, and growing and playing and living and laughing and crying and throwing tantrums and getting hugs and brushing your teeth and growing so fast that we won't be able to keep up with you. 

I am blessed beyond belief to see your photograph today. And I KNOW that this Love is a current, an Energy that is truly beyond space and time. As I think about you. As I breathe. As I channel Love into your photograph, I KNOW that you feel this warmth entering your heart and wrapping you in a blanket of Light.

Dad

Day 7 - a few thoughts

After playing soccer in the rain with Sky, Andrew, and Sorin - I am feeling wet and very happy! Today is a very great day in the Peebles household!!!

Won't always be able to post

I hope this day doesn't come, but I know, with upcoming international travel and with my work, there will be times in which I won't be able to post. 

First, I will try and post from my I-phone.

Second, if I can't do that, I will hand-journal, and then catch up later.

Third, there will be many days in which I won't have much to report about my 12 minute session. In these instances, I will just write something like,

Check. Or,

Did it! 

Or something like that.

However, I am COMMITTED to not only channeling uncondtional Love into this Exchange, into this life, into this world every day for 12 minutes, but also to recording the fact that I did it.

It will be cool when I am up to Day 1,498!

:)

Day 7 - Poems

Today is an extraordinary day in the life of my family. After receiving ecstatic news, I felt these poems wash through me:

These doors

Behind the seemingly small doors of my heart

The Ocean of Universal Love is

gathering

swelling

pushing.

The hinges of my heart are squeaking under the strain

the wood, cracking, 

bulging.

I know its only a matter of time before Love crashes open

the doors.

So why am I afraid of opening the tiny

latch?

I am afraid of my annihilation in Love as much as

I crave it.

I am afraid of touching the Face of God as much as

I hunger to.

I know that once these doors 

burst

There will be a million tiny pieces of me washed

along

The vistas of time.

I am 

willing

to be washed 

away.

The moment of death

When the moment of death comes,

and here is a secret:

Its already here.

When this moment comes, I will be 

asking:

What was the quality of my Love?

How completely did I give my heart 

away?

Did I hide from Love?

Or did I choose to Love with complete ecstatic

madness?

The answers to these questions will bring me

no judgment.

Only more

Love.

So let me now step up to this plate of Life

and give everything I have

all my Love

to this one moment!

My whole life is but one small moment of my Soul:

here forever, and forever 

gone.

So let me turn the latch of this illusion

and let the flood

out.

Let me end the charade of hiding from my

magnificence.

Let me clothe myself in robes of

Light

and ride the winds of Infinity

home

to

Love.

Day 7

Happy Mother's Day!

Today I celebrate all mothers, and the magnificent job they do, day in and day out. I celebrate the mother principle, the Divine Mother, working through the hearts and hands of mothers all over the globe. I celebrate the labor, the work, the time, and the love that Mothers give to their children. We are all here because of the Mother... so thank you to all Mothers!

Today's 12 minutes

I have been home with all my kids today, with all of them talking at the same time, all the chaos, and all the struggles and dramas of a day at home with them. It seems like a Universe goes into just one day at home. One minute, there can be screams, and the next minute, kisses and hugs. This morning was a bit stressful. I helped facilitate 3 showers in a row within about 10 minutes, and it felt like I had expended the energy of an entire day!

So when it came time to go off by myself and pour out unconditional Love through my heart, hands, and being - it was a welcome respite. It is like a vacation from myself.

During my 12 minutes, I did my best to put all my energy, all my thought, all my concentration into giving unconditional Love into everyone - all those beings in the future, whether they are few or many, who will ever be contained within this Exchange. 

I focus my concentration on the base of my skull, and like I am working a muscle, I pull the energy of my heart, my little drop of love, up my spine and into the Vast Ocean of Love. Then I breathe out and flood this Ocean through my hands and into this Exchange. 

Today, the tears came and I could feel the Love flood more strongly, more tangibly through me. As I continued my circular breathing rhythm, I mentally "placed" my loved ones and anyone who came to mind, within the flow of this Love. 

My exploding ecstatic heart

I imagined what it would be like if the love in my heart exploded, and light shot in all directions. 

Kind of like Love going super-nova. 

What would happen if ten thousand hearts exploded in love? Wouldn't that be a sight!

Day 6 - more thoughts

The River of Love

It is the nature of the River of Love to burst its banks and overflow its boundaries and flow to places and people unseen by the naked eye, but clearly visible to the eyes of the Soul.

When one person brings Transcendent Love (Compassion, Kindness, Energy, Joy, Bliss) through their body and mind, then the ENTIRE Earth and all of life immediately receives that Energy and will never, ever be the same again. When just one person Loves with absolute abandon, then everyone everywhere will be impacted on the subtle levels of the Universe.

The Love does not stay within the 12 minutes

I am discovering that this practice of communicating Universal Love/Reiki/Energy through my hands for 12 minutes a day is having a huge ripple effect. The Love does not stay inside the 12 minutes. It goes into all the moments of my day. It floods into the work I do around the house, the meals I prepare for my kids. It flows into the laundry I do and the lawn I mow. It goes into the chair, the house, the foundation... it goes into those I love... it goes into the trees and the plants outside my house, and on the Quantum Level, it affects my neighbors and my community and my country and the Earth.

It is cumulative

There is something really powerful about making this an every-day-in-a-row thing. Each 12 minutes of unconditonal Love adds to the next 12 minutes, and the next, and the next. I am feeling alot of Light emass within my heart, mind, and hands. My attitude and outlook and relationships seem to shifting on really subtle, profound levels. I am not the same person anymore. I am changed.

Speaking for myself, it has been a challenge for me to stick to something over the long-term. It is easy to sprint, harder to go the distance. However, I feel really fresh and happy and good after 6 days of this 4,380 day journey. Losing myself in Love for 12 minutes every single day feels like something really big is building...

I was trying to find the words to express this, and then I went to my Twitter home page, and saw something Anthony Robbins wrote:

People have no idea the giant capacity we can immediately command when we focus all our resources on mastering a single area ofour lives

My goal is to master the ability to merge my consciousness in ONENESS with LOVE, and to direct and channel that LOVE for the benefit of all life. 

I will end day six with this simple prayer:

May all beings be free. 

May all beings be fed. 

May all beings have clean water. 

May all beings be safe. 

May the suffering of all beings come to an end. 

May all beings feel Loved.

May all beings tap into the Ocean of Love within them.