Day 21 - Too much joy?

No!

There can never be too much joy, because joy by its very nature is ever-fresh and ever-new. (from the teachings of Yogananda)

Yet, with all these really clear, beautiful, tingling feelings of ever expanding joy that continue to increase each day that I "send the Love," there comes the...

Panic button.

"Okay, okay! Calm down Danny. I know that all this joy and sending the Love and everything is really good and all, but stop! I have had enough. Can't we just take a rest for a few days, let it all settle in?"

"I will keep going, keep sending Reiki and Love and Joy for 12 minutes a day, and I will keep expanding my capacity for even greater joy."

"No! Stop! I can't take anymore."

"I will keep going..."

"Aaaaaaaaggghhhhh. I am m-e-e-l-l-l-l-t-t-t-i-i-i-i-n-g..."

That is how the dialogue goes. I feel this part of me that feels like it has reached a "saturation point" and wants to settle back into what is comfortable. When I start vibrating at higher levels of Love, my ego will try to put the brakes on the whole thing.

Fear and more fear

I think with this flood of Universal Love coming into and through me every day, it does stir up fear. What if this joy ends? What if this Love ends? What if all these good feelings just disappear? It then starts to search for bad things that may happen, that could happen, that might happen.

I have grown up in a sea of fear, of unrest, of turbulence... and with the introduction of this higher vibration of Love into my cells and atoms, the old stuff must come to the surface to be released. It is old fear, really. Fear of losing my loved ones. Fear of.... whatever I might be afraid of.

The really awesome part: I don't feel any fear at all when I am feeling the Love flow through my hands. None at all.

Detractor thoughts

And yes, I have the critic-thoughts. Like:

"Danny, you need to get your head out of the clouds and come back to Earth. What right do you have thinking you can transmit Universal Love through your hands? You are acting insane, egotistical, and arrogant. You need to go to work, shut up, and just live your life and be grateful for what you have. Quit trying to do great and grand things. I mean, really, did you think you could actually succeed in sending Love through your hands every single day for 12 straight years? You are fooling yourself, setting yourself up to fail."

What is my response?

I really have none. I just witness the gibbering-jabbering of monkey thoughts as they pass through me.

Love witnesses. That's it. There is no judgment. I know that there are people who would say I am crazy - but I this is the happiest crazy I have ever been. I KNOW, with ALL MY SOUL, that the Love ~ Reiki ~ Energy that I communicate through my hands is making a difference in the world. I may not see the results with my eyes - but in my SOUL'S INTELLIGENCE, in my INTUITION, and with the TEARS OF JOY that come falling down my eyes - I know that this Love is helping to improve the world. It is flowing into the Quantum Field of the Universe.

It is completely transforming my life. Love completely transforms the one who surrenders to the Flow of Love. Doing this for 12 minutes a day, every day, is changing me at my depth. And I am doing this one day at a time. I am doing this today, and I plan on doing it again tomorrow, and I plan on stringing 4,380 days together. That's at least 52,560 "minutes" of Love flowing through my hands and into the fabric of life. Which comes to 876 hours. ( I really love numbers) And this doesn't take into account the extra, bonus minutes...

I believe with all my heart that inside the hands and hearts of every single person on this planet, is the Roaring Ocean of Universal Love - greater and more beautiful than we could have previously imagined.

And I totally believe that with our breaths, imaginations, and intentions combined together, we can unleash this Ocean of Love through our hearts and hands.

The Whole Ocean - all of God's Love - all of Goddess's Love - can be communicated through the magnificent prism of the human heart!

I believe this. I know this. I do. And the fear-thoughts, the critic-thoughts in my head will come and go. I can't stop them. I can only witness them.

And keep sending the Love